Welcome back Smurph! Wishing you well.
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Day34, bring it on! I wish everyone a happy sober day.
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Please stay on topicā¦checking in. The back and forth is not for here, take it to a PM. The forum is experiencing some issues or the off topic back and forth would be moved to derailment. Once the issues are remedied, we will move out the off topic discussion. Please do your part in keeping the thread on topic. Thanks!!
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Day 51 
Took the day off, feeling a bit in the need for some quiet time
Going to avoid the alcohol free beers next and stick with lemonade
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Morning Check In
Day 547
Good morning TS!!! Hows everyone today?
This morning has been good 
Went for an early workout and then relaxed watching Minecraft videos with my son. Just about to get this day going now. Its going to be a scorcher out there today 
so we are going to stay inside. Basically my day consists of cleaning, working on my DBT book, and relaxing with my boy. Hope everyone has a great day!
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Second update for today.
I had a great day at work.
My boss did a quick visit but she didnāt even talked to me.
Iām supposed to have a key so I can close the pre-school house every Monday as scheduled. My boss havenāt fixed any key,or papers needed to get one.
Also me and one of my colleagues who has been there for over a year, but also only have a contract until Christmas, asked my boss if weāre going to stay for next semester too. Because this group works so well together and itāll get us a chance to plan better and create a working routine already. My boss simply said āWell,your all employeed by the city,as preschool teachers, which means that you can be placed wherever thereās a need. None of you are tied to a specific workplaceā which means that it doesnāt matter if you have a permanent employment or is hired per hour as I am. Not sure sheās allowed to do that,but she is doing it anyway.
My colleagues told be before I left that they had a great day with me there. And that I fit if perfectly in the group, both with my colleagues and the kids. And that theyāre looking forward to have me there.
The also said that they knew it was going to be a hit. And that they wished for me to come there and work with them when my boss asked about who they wanted.
But in the end it was still between me and another girl who Actually have what we call a permanent employment.
So glad that I got it. Iāve also already said yes to work a few extra days at that place, despite my plan of working only two days a week. Finally it feels good and fun to go to work again. It feels like Iām faking working under this conditions, this schedule and in this extremely positive and uplifting environment with so many amazing and helpful people.
Thatās all for today. Hope yāall had a great Monday.
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Day 3*
Received a message from my bossās boss today thanking me for my leadership and hard work on growing my team. It felt good to be acknowledged when everything has been so intense there lately.
Put myself on a couple of wait lists for psych help and feel anxious about starting this process again. Iāve had a hard time staying in the moment lately. Slow and steady.
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Day 19. My time is starting to stack thankfully. Iāll see 3 weeks soon. There would have been a time where that would have been impossible. I learned a lot during my last attempt that is carrying me through these early days. I have times where a couple of beers would go down very nicely. But I click forward 12 hours and think about how I would feel, how I felt in the past. The Anxiety the need to be alone and just sink a few cans to feel normal again. I will count my time in months soon.
Can I just quickly reach out to those on day 1ās and 2ās? This too will pass. Give it a couple of days, hydrate and try get some exercise. Iāve been there many times and only 19 days agoā¦
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your choice just pointing out the mistake carry on regardless
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Welcome back. Glad youāre making the most important choice for yourself right now. Please take good care through your withdrawals and seek medical attention if youāre concerned.
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Ah I am sorry, I am still getting used to plat form and even being online. Is it okay to respond to a persons post, or should you just like it and PM? I realized my post responses to some people are long but want to respond. I will try to rekember about back and forth and staying on topic and will not be offended if my comments get the boot!
Xo
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Simetimes people paraphrase or misquote. Not a big deal! Its okay to speak about literature you arent an expert in! That would like saying you cant speak on the Bible if you havent studied itā¦its just not so. I have studied the BB, and am 16 years in to my journey and just now being exposed to new quit litā¦
For English not being your 1st language you speak incredibly well! My husband is always missaying certain expressuons, and my mother in law has a difficult time conveying things in English. Nothing wrong with it Keep your post Aware is a beautiful word too Xo.
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Day 82. Well camping so far has been good and a little stressful, the girls brought theyāre friend and its been nice but they really donāt get along lol. I guess thatās to be expected a little bit right. But i did teach there friend how to ride without training wheels yesterday and i did work on getting my youngest off her training wheels as well, i rode my e-bike from camp into town so i could make my group and do my parenting class. It was a nice 10 mile bike ride, now iām at my apartment letting my bike and phone charge a little so i can make it back. All is good tho i suppose, tomorrow i have a one on one with my counselor at nine in the morning so ill have to leave early to make that as well. I just hope things keep going smooth while camping, Iām not sure if bringing there friend was a good idea, i might run it by my mom and see if maybe we should bring her back a couple days early. Idk but i hope everyone is having a good day, there isnāt any service so probably wont here from me until tomorrow so much love everyone ttyl
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You can definitely respond. It becomes an issue when it becomes a back and forth discussion. When that happens, it would be helpful to move your conversation to a PM or to a new topicā¦otherwise it āderailsā the original intent of the threadā¦which is for members to check in.
Hope that makes sense and I appreciate you asking for clarification. 
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Gah sorry if I am misusing and responding incorrectly.
Did want to do a 2nd check in.
It has felt a bit like the vacation from hell here and NOTHING is really that wrong, but son is super cranky and its hard when they are just so uncomfortable. Of course our daughter has been challenged for attention this past yr so when he acts up, she doubles down. Dear Lord help me lol. Just put son for nap; going to spend a lottle 1-1 time with daughter.
Also just had messages from supervisor at child services. We are back in court for nephew late Sept., and services/law here says wr take him totally on our own no help (not possible for level of disabilityā¦we have tried) or give up rights and have no say where he goes. I have now two meetings with another supervisor above one I deal with, and placement supervisor. I have said: i know the law, i get that our situation is SO unique but given all that WHAT can you do. Bc them playing the āwho me? Wr have no powerā is so shady. Its not true when a judge defers to a powerful agency that is an institution that they have no say give me a break. Our family and my nephew deserve some help, something a little different to move forward. I am drafting letter to ombudsman, members of guv and news paper, will start a petition and see how it goes. Part of me says: Mira who do you think you are? You cannot control this, you cannot force the outcome. But there is that voice saying āyou are just one person, what can you doā. Truth is maybe nothing, its not about who I am and I am just one little personā¦but what is happening to my family is wrong and it is written in our laws. Parents who cannot care for their children bc they cannot afford their level of care for theif disability are being removed legally from parents and its irrevocable. My nephew is worth me writing some letters, and I have to go with what comes. This stuff is so triggering for me though. I do not feel likedrinking but feel i am vibrating. That is 3 dates one wrek after the other of these meetings where peopke say āyes we know its wrong so sorry but nothing we can do (edit) oh and hurry up and make a choice are you keeping him or givinf him upā. Judge, lawyers, protective services all say yes its wrong its the law but when you oppose it they treat you like a petulant child. WELL I CAN PLAY THE PETULANT CHILD WELL AS ANY 
Okay, sordy for that rant. Im just feeling it in my chest. Wish you all a beautoful rest of the day. Xo pray for me yaāllā¦more so for the cottage weāre at I need this little vacay to turn around
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Absolutely okay got it. Respond but dont ha e a convo on here Thabks for clarifying. I did read the rules, but things get lost in my brain lol appreciate the help! Xo
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From what i saw it definitely wasnt you going back and forth xx
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Itās me, hi, Iām the problem, itās me.
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Thanks for getting the Taylor Swift song stuck in my headā¦ guess Iām a swifty for the rest of the day
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Just doing my part
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