Thank you @CATMANCAM. Wow, it sounds like you are doing so well! Good on you! Iām so happy to read about all that is going well in your life .
@JazzyS You are a very strong person to go through what you are going through every day! I donāt think Iād be able to be as positive as you are, to be honest. Youāre a badass!
Welp, I got my boyfriendās cold. But, while heās been out solid for three days, I have a milder head cold. Itās mostly my sinuses/nose. Could be A LOT worse. I think the walking, trying to eat more healthy foods, and of course, NOT drinking the poison has REALLY helped a lot.
I went for a short little walk today for fresh air. Now Iām just going to rest and try my hand at making some curry soup, which Iāve never made before. Itās fun and rewarding to try new recipes. This is something I lost when I was boozing all the time.
Iāll try to go to an AA meeting tomorrow when Iām (hopefully) feeling better. It would suck to make other people sick.
My medication increase is not very noticeable yet, but itās only day 3.
Back home without buying shit.
Body and mind still need some healing effected by the last days. No cravings.
I reached out for help and itās in progress.
Happy Monday everyone, checking in on a warm evening while sat in my back garden with a coffee, really tired today but happy to be closing down 27 days.
So it wasnāt in the BBC version apparently (misremembering my youth), but it was in the film. Although Chatsworth was the inspiration for Pemberley. Apparently Jane Austen was inspired when she stayed locally in Bakewell (wish I had known when I was there on Saturday). Bakewell did look very Georgian.
Chatsworth is stunning though and would definitely appeal to an Austen fan.
It looked just like Pemberly from the BBC miniseries. Iāve seen a couple other versions in film so Iām sure Iāve seen it. Still so lovely. Thanks for sharing and the info about Jane Austenās inspiration. Very neat.
1099 days no alcohol.
564 days no cocaine.
79 days no vape.
30 days no impulsive spending or nail biting.
Didnāt sleep for a single second last night. So tired. I gave up completely at 4am and went into the lounge to do todayās colouring.
Anyway, so I caught the bus and got into town with 40mins to spare before therapy. Got a Starbucks and got a giftcard for my brother as its his bday on Sat, my eldest step-brother has his bday on Friday, I got some cash out for him, and I already got their cards on Saturday. If plans havenāt changed, I believe we are going out to an Italian restaurant Saturday evening.m, where I will have the same salad I had last time as it was so good.
Had therapy. It went okay. We talked about the issue with the Sharpies and discuss why I prefer them, and it came up that itās because I can finish a pattern much quicker to get to the end , a constant anxiety in everything in my life, even toiletry bottles etc, she said it could be related to ADHD. I did my reward chart wrong as well because I put an āXā everything time I didnāt do something, so I went to the stationery shop after the session and bought some grid paper, some shiny stars stickers, and a pencil sharpener. They didnāt have any of the pencil grips, but Iāve ordered some online thst will arrive next week some time.
Spent the rest of the day relaxing with the cats. Trying but not succeeding to nap. Hoping to sleep after Iāve caught-up here.
Oh goodness, you are doing so well for someone who hasnāt slept. Massive well done for keeping going and going to therapy. That is so interesting about the sharpies and how it relates to your life.
I have been pondering recently why I find it so difficult to walk slowly, or wait longer to go somewhere, wait for the lift etc. It actually feels painful if I donāt do something in the most efficient way possible. Like once I have committed to something, it needs to be done asap. Your post reminded me of that.
Welcome back @Smurph. Sorry you have to go through all this shit again but itās good seeing you checking in here. Hope you feel a bit better by now. Try to stay hydrated for today and start the battle again! You can make it!
Thank you for your kind words that make me feel warm before going to bed. Im glad and relieved to be here with you. I send a bunch of love and comfort right back. And a splash of serenity. No, as much as you like xD
6 days AF. This time last week I was drinking my way into a relapse. The past week Iāve upped my AA recovery program and get down on my knees every morning to ask my HP for help staying sober. Iām so grateful to be back in sobriety.
Today I finally gave notice at my toxic job. It was just too much for me and posed a huge threat to me not finding some excuse to drink. My last day is in four weeks though so I have some time to find something else. @LeeHawk special thanks for supporting me through this topic in particular
Itās scary but I can make these decisions sober and thatās a beautiful thing. Grateful that we are all here and we have the opportunity to recover and be awake in this life
. Wow, it sounds like you are doing so well! Good on you! Iām so happy to read about all that is going well in your life 
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so glad you were able to spend some more time with your cousins, sorry itās triggered a flare-up though, I can fully relate, makes everything bittersweet. I hope some rest helped. 
