What a boss you are. My sister lived with schizophrenia, and its a challenge many do not understand. I appreciate you sharing, appreciate your jpurney.
My sister was my better half, people always said she was so lucky to have me and I feel looked down on her through stigma like she was so “crippled”. Truth was, and I would correct them (wish I could say every time) that she was my better half. A glass half full person, who took the day as it came and deswrved a lot more credit then she was ever given. Hope to be half the woman she was.
Day 88, good morning everyone. Well we had my daughter addies birthday party yesterday at her mothers house, we all had a very good time and I’m very proud me and their step father can get along well. One of the boys got slime stuck in his hair so that was a little scary lol. But addie loved her party, and then we left off back for Plattsburgh. When we got to Plattsburgh we stopped to Walmart and i let addie pick out two toys from money i had which made me feel good to get her something bc honestly its been a while I’ve been able to get my girls something nice. Then from there i came and stayed at my apartment i was unable to get my medicine so I’m still going through the emotions pretty wildly. I felt kind of bad for not staying out at camp with my girls, but i do have some stuff i need to get done, like had laundry, wanted to tidy up my apartment. And it was just nice to sleep in a comfortable bed for a night, but still i felt sad about it. Im seriously starting to get so nervous for college, I really do worry i will do what i do with other things and give up if i dont do well right away, i get easily discouraged and I’m worried about negative feedback and I just need to get the heck over it. In the end its going to make me a better person and a stronger person, but still i do worry and thats ok too. Going to finish my cover up tattoo today that i started a couple weeks ago, also got a peacock feather I’m doing tomorrow and looking forward to hitting my group. Going to head over at ten for an a.a meeting, so much love everyone i hope you all have lovely sober Sunday. @HillbillyChris its good to see you man, enjoy breakfast with your family.
So sweet that you did have the time to spend with the girls and a very happy birthday to your Addie.
I am sure that your own comfortable bed felt so good and waking up in your own space also is a wonderful feeling. So sorry that you did not have your meds available - hopefully you can get your hands on them soon (you are doing great with feeling all the feelings and pushing through).
I can totally understand how nervous going back to school can be. I know that you have changed so much and are now fully invested in making a better future for yourself. I have confidence that you will do great and will stick through it. Just remember everything can be tackled with the one day at a time mentality.
Happy Sunday Mike - looking forward to seeing your cover up and feather!
Oh my god… I’m so sorry. We are here for you all. We can do this together. I’m so glad you’re still sober. This is really hard. But I again repeat, we can do it.
Day 56. This week felt a little tough to get through, but I did it, and I did it sober. Feeling very grateful to wake up today, especially sober. Happy Sunday everybody
thanks jazzy for always helping me stay on the positive side, i really appreciate it. I went over this morning and luckily the door was unlocked to get into are mailboxes so i was able to get my medicine. And yes it sure did feel comfortable to wake up in my own space. The bed i was sleeping on at camp was really stiff lol. But i miss my girls so much already and as soon as they left last night I instantly started reflecting on my last seven days with them and of course was beating myself up because I could of handled some situations better. As soon as i leave my girls i always get sad and just feel like i can do so much better. Im working on this negative self talk tho.
You are most welcome my friend … Oh - so grateful that you were able to get your medicine today.
I can only imagine the torn feeling you have when leaving your girls but please do not beat yourself up. You are doing amazing work on yourself and i know your girls are enjoying the time that they do get with you. As you progress, you will be able to spend more quality time with them.
It is necessary to reflect on ourselves and see where we can improve but doing so in a healthy manner is key - grateful that you are working on the negative self talk - no good can come from this. You are awesome Mike - hope that you are able to see and appreciate all the progress you are making.
@Mindofsobermike from what i can tell Mike, ur an amazing father to ur children. I totally get what ur saying tho. I feel that as well. I reflect about my day sometimes when my son goes off to bed, and i feel sad some days bcuz i think that i could have handled situations better or did more with him etc. We are human tho and sometimes we may make mistakes. But the love u have for ur girls shows and thats what is most important @noshame i am SO proud of u for not picking up weed to try and sooth ur anxiety. This is very much a change in thinking and acting. U did something different and it worked! Hope u have an amazing day friend! @rob11 so glad to hear that there is a diagnosis for what is happening with her, and that they are treating it. Hope all continues to go well. @hillbillychris congratulations!!! 2 years is incredible! Sounds like u have a nice day planned @saturn81 congratulations on 1 week! Im also very proud of you!! U did whatever u had to do to stay sober. I knew u could do it! @mrsodh still praying for u and him and ur family. Glad to hear that the antibiotics are beginning to work @just_laura so glad the party went well for u. What a freeing feeling that must have been, being around it all and not having any urges to partake in it. Proud of u! @danam56 You sound like such a caring and supportive person and im sorry to hear that he betrayed u again im glad tho that ur looking after urself by realizing that he needs to go and by setting boundaries for what is and isnt acceptable in ur life. Thats huge and not always an easy decision to make. @cp25 welcome back! Glad to see u here again Dont lose hope girl. Keep at it ODAAT. U had 7 months before and u can get it again and surpass it! I totally believe in u. @jazzys wow girl! U got ALOT done yesterday!! Sounds like ur energy is definitly coming back. Thats great to hear! Its also fantastic news that the swelling has gone down. That must help overall in just feeling better have a great sunday girl!
Morning Check In Day 553
Good morning TS fam! Just at work today for my last shift of the week. Feeling alright i think lol Was late for work this morning, which I hate. But it truly was out of my control… transit was really behind schedule. Did give me a good opportunity (and extra time) to do my prayer this morning. So thats good. The weather is cool and crisp. Love it! All n all today should be a good day! Will attend my sunday online service at some point today, whenever its quiet here. And ya… do some cleaning and laundry once im home. Thats about it for me. Have a fantastic day everyone
I feel like my famiky is just intentionally trying to be rude to me at this point. we went to church and we agreed to eat at one place, and then they changed their minds. everybody was asked if the new restaurant was okay and I said no there’s nothing I’ll eat and they told me “oh well”. why did they ask my opinion if they didn’t intend to take it into account.
im glad tho that ur looking after urself by realizing that he needs to go and by setting boundaries for what is and isnt acceptable in ur life. Thats huge and not always an easy decision to make.
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