Days PMO free: Day 18
Days with PS5 in the closet to close the day: 26
Days went to bed the same time with my wife: 26
Great weekend. Had my fantasy football draft party with my bros over the weekend, hung out with my wife and kids, overall it was a good weekend. Thankful that i’m sober but i’m still on red alert. For some strange reason at the 3 week mark this year i kind of lose my mind and i know what that means. That ‘Cured’ behavior kicks in and i start being stupid again. I’m in a good groove, i just want to keep it going. I briefly watched sportscenter in the bathroom and that’s a red flag. As many of you know, that’s my trigger spot, so again, i just have to be smart and use all the tools i’ve gathered to help push me forward. But i’m thankful and hopeful. I’m sober, and i just want to keep it going. Have a great day everyone.
Day 89, good morning beautiful sober people. Woke up in good spirits and can feel my vaylar is kicking back in, listening to some music and getting ready to head to ten o’clock group. After that i’m supposed to do a tattoo, but idk if were gonna be able to because he can’t start till 530 and id like to be out to camp with the girls before that, the only issue is i owe this guy this tattoo and i want to hold to my side of the deal, he is understanding tho. Man I can’t believe 7 more days and this guy starts his first day of college, it just keeps getting more and more real. Im not sure exactly how many days I’ve gone now without chew, but its been at least 15 or more, so I’m pretty pumped about that. Yes I still use the rogue pouches which has nicotine in it, but to me its a healthier alternative and is helping me right now eventually ill lean off these too. But so far i notice my teeth are so much whiter all ready. Alright well wont blow the post up to much lol, ever since i got my keyboard i can type forever lol. Much love everyone
Checking in on day 79. I woke up feeling much more relaxed this morning thanks to the meditation I’ve been doing. Got the kids up and off to school and then set about my own day. There’s a lot of stuff that needs to be cleared at home and I even found writing a list of all that needs done to be overwhelming. I decided that it would be good enough to fill one bin bag and take it down to the bins then that would be progress. I’m sitting outside a cafe right now with the sun on my back as a reward for achieving that little goal. If I can do that a few times this week I should start to see the flat looking much clearer.
I had intended to bring my sketchbook with me to the cafe but I seem to have forgotten to put it in my bag. I swear I had it in my hand!
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
Morning check in Day 554
Morning has been busy! Woke up at 530am for my workout. Did my prayer and now finishing up breakfast so that we can head out the door to an appt for my son. Its another appt to figure out his eye issues so praying for some results this time. Then off to the grocery store for a few things. Hoping to get everything done by noon. Feeling blessed and grateful this morning Hope everyone has a fantastic addiction free day
Day 4 of Covid. My coworkers and me got an unsettling message from our Doctors. It seems Covid is spreading extremely fast here in my area. Patients are flooding the offices
And we were told to wait until all symptoms are gone AND the test is negative.
I don’t know if it’s getting better but it could be because I’m hungry as a wolf Just inhaled a burger with fries and chicken wings. The cake is standing near me on the table
I can taste almost normal but my smell is a little messed up. The cough at least isn’t getting worse but I have a bad headache since last night.
Now it’s time to let my intestines make their job and me having a nap.
Had a intens session during visual arts. Had a meeting with some psychologists to discuss the things to address during the next couple of weeks. The first time it is done in a structured way not running from one thing to another or a smooth standard program.
The comparison with one big mourning process might be the best way to describe it.
I’m sorry that he is not being more supportive but like you said he is an ex for a reason. I am grateful that you do have such a loving and supportive brother. Glad that you can help each other in life and sobriety.
So lovely how pets just know. Hope your back starts to feel better soon – grateful for the chiropractor appointment tomorrow. @geng congrats on your 50 days love! Grateful that you are feeling better and getting back into a routine. @juli1 HELL YEAH – 1 week is amazing! Well done Jules. Wear that protection coat love – do what you must and keep making these amazing changes. @flourishingperson1 sorry for the rough night – grateful that you were able to go to bil to get some sleep. Sending you energy to get through today
Way to go Jenny – I know it’s not been easy. You are making great strides to a healthier lifestyle. Grateful for the changes. Hopefully your day got easier at work and you will get a better sleep tonight. @mia2 thanks Mulan! That is a very helpful way to look at the addict voice and makes so much sense too. @mno how did the vet visit go today? Hopefully Luna is starting to feel better @sabrina80 thank you sweet friend. I do hope you are feeling better today. Smart to not go into work till you have run the course and show negative for covid. The boss is getting a reality dose of what it’s going to be like if things don’t change and you all leave for good. I do hope this situation will be cause for some positive changes (wishful thinking maybe). just saw your update - i’m glad your appetite and taste are coming back but do be gentle with your recovery - i’ve heard that covid can take a huge toll on your system and zap your energy like nothing else. hope you enjoyed that nap
That is a huge achievement when you are feeling exhausted! Glad you are listening to your body and taking things a bit slow today. I do hope your energy levels improve
@SelfLove_42 grateful that you are seeing the signs for your “cured behavior” and staying ahead of that mentality. Doing so well with your sober time. It takes some time but start embracing the benefits of sobriety and then you won’t look at it as you were cured more like a new way of life with endless possibilities and no bad side effects. A healthier happier you living life on life’s terms. I know you can defeat this with all the tools you have gathered. We are right here along side you – you are not alone in this. @mindofsobermike love your happy spirited post today. Great job on the chew too – that’s impressive!! Have a absolutely amazing day Mike
Good morning /afternoon my sober companions
i cant believe it just turned noon here - the hours just fly by with me not really doing much. i did manage some good sleep last night. feeling better mentally - physically still working my ways through. i do need to go and sort through my “stuff” at my parents place -i’ve decided to do a big spring cleaning in a sense (since all my things there have not been needed for over a year - i can get rid of a lot of them) - some i couldn’t use due to space but others i really did not need. I will tackle this slowly and see if i can find my damn US passport in the process. I am thrilled to be 8 months free of alcohol and weed. I really love seeing the numbers add up but feel surreal in a way. The impossible is becoming possible and i’m actually enjoying living a fully addiction free life (i don’t count my love of caffeine )
Have a wonderfully positively charged day all you beautiful souls! Sending you all much love
At work all week. Monday has gone ok. Had one conversation where someone asked why i had still stopped drinking, i said again i had no reliable off button. So i am hoping they stop asking me!
Second check-in because it will take me a while to start getting used to this shit.
Good thing I have better coping mechanisms these days and this wonderful community.
My arsehole father sees my new tattoo. First thing he does is ask me if it’s permanent. Second thing is roll his eyes at me getting ANOTHER one.
Seriously, fam? Really? Have you forgotten the giant sh scars that were on my forearm? Is walking around looking like a lion’s scratching post the better option here?
He’s also very opinionated about my dog. Apparently he’s just a dog and I’m ridiculous for not giving him bones and human food leftovers… My fucking dog has a sensitive tummy. He’s not just a dog, he’s my little baby munchkin and I don’t need instructions on how to properly care for him.
Morning check in 
Hope everyone has a fantastic addiction free day 
Just inhaled a burger with fries and chicken wings. The cake is standing near me on the table 
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