Feeling a lot better from my nasty cold. Back to walking and working out. I’ve been cooking and meal-prepping in the evenings for the next day, which is something I’ve always envied other people doing lol. Who knew you could get so much more done when not wasting away drinking! Haha!
I’ve got plans to hang out with my boyfriend tomorrow evening and into Tuesday, so that’ll be nice, since it’s been a minute. I’m going to my local AA meeting tomorrow at noon. Seems like a good way to start the week.
I’ve been sorting through stuff to donate or potentially sell, which is a good feeling. My hair needs some attention, so I’ll be dying it a darker/cool brown within the next couple days (I just do it myself). I’m also LONG overdue for a hair trim. I’m looking forward to freshening up a bit.
Checking in on a hot day in germany, one of my 2 or 3 last days office in presence before leaving the company. Have to wear my imaginary protection coat today
I made it to one week…
Doing a recovery program this time, did some work, made some first changes.
Day 26. I’m not sure what I miss about drinking. I suppose it was the lie that I built up in my head, the beast telling me that a couple of beers would go down lovely of an evening…the first 6 would be great! But the following 40 over a 3 day bender would be a blur of sneaking around, taking risks and being an absolute piece of sh*it. When it kicks off you are just along for the ride. I’m not driving the beast is and all you can do is hang on for dear life until you come out of it.
Thankfully I’ve kept it at bay for nearly 4 weeks. I’ve tied myself into so many promises to myself and others that if I arrived home with some beers it would not go down we’ll so that helps out a block on me picking up that initial couple of beers that would open the door for the beast.
Monday morning, work is calling, stressors coming at me but we’ll take them on the chin deal with them and address them through other means.
Good luck today, don’t open the door to the beast.
The last night was tough. We tried to sleep in our new apartment but the air mattress was wasted. So we went to my brother in law house right in the middle of the night to get some sleep. Exhausting…
Hi All, checking in on Day 48. Slept badly so struggling a little this Monday morning
Finishing my coffee then ready to start my working day, week. I am unsettled at work at the moment but think it is just a phase.
Realised recently that I have dumped decades worth of stuff recently, this experience has been so good for me in working through things and letting go. I am sure holding onto the bad things was affecting my health (chronic fatigue syndrome and all the neuro stuff). I am feeling really positive and so much calmer. Naturally I still have problems, but they are my reality now, not holding onto things from a long time ago. I no longer freeze when I see an ambulance, or expect negative things as was my pattern before.
Onwards and upwards. Wishing everyone a peaceful and sober day.
Good solid job distinguishing the voices👍. Can get tiring to have to constantly be on our own butts and inspect our innermost thoughts. But you’re doing it one day at a time still.
It personally helps me when I think of /refer to my addict voice as the “hurt part of my brain” or my “fried brain”.
This came from a scientific documentary I saw about how while drinking/ using, the memory creation in our brain drastically changes!
The result is unnaturally strong memories that burn themselves into our brains, with several times the intensity of any memories we make while sober.
So quite literally our brains are branded with memories about using. The mental picture is clear.
When I think of it that way, I have less fear / hatred towards this unwelcomed voice in my head. I have more sympathy and will feel the urge to do my body / brain’s health sth good. Eat / drink sth healthy, go for a walk, learn a new language, whatever.
My brain: Really, sincerely want to use
Me: There, there Fried Brain
Congratulations on everybody’s sober counts!
My dear sweet community I am so grateful to you.
Every single person here makes me feel better.
Thank you, Catmancam! I already feel drastically better mood wise. Now that Ive said this, it’ll surely get immeadiately worse .
Relate a lot about feeling drained from socializing. Can be damn hard to live on low energy. Feels like you have to miserably drag your body every step, while everyone else is on roller skates, haha.
But still respect that you did so much socializing. Great job Hope you can find small, innovative ways to micro-recharge your batteries during these busy days. That’s a challenge, I know XD
Wishing all the energy for your busy week!
So proud of everyone here. Let’s just get through today, team.
One day off work. I have to take Luna to the vet today. She’s not well, trying to eat but having a very hard time at it. Drinking or drugging couldn’t be further from my mind. Spare us a thought or two. And have as good a day as you all can. Love.
Jasmine, never ever say sorry for replying late okay?
We all appreciate your kind and caring soul on here so much
Yes the boss does only care that the job gets done somehow. They even want us to come back as soon as we don’t have any symptoms any more, no matter if we’re still positive or not.
We won’t do that. We’ll get back to work when we’re free from symptoms and negative. @Mno sending good healing vibes to your kitty
Top of the morning sober people. Ok… it’s midday and I’ve been only been up for an hour. But what an hour! I managed to drag myself out of bed and make coffee! If that’s not an achievement, I don’t know what is.
Yeah, I’m absolutely fucking exhausted. So I’m taking it a bit slow today.
Morning guys checking in. All by my lonesome for a few days. Well I got the 3 dogs, but wife took the last kid down the shore few days before college on Thursday, so I’ll be trying to stay busy and get some stuff done around the house. Have a great day
Back at work.
Talked to the hospital, even with the antibiotics my husband now also have pneumonia.
I didn’t have to talk much with the hospital because I’m at work.
But it more or less feels like it’s getting worse again.
Today’s tests didn’t look good.
Had to reschedule my Thursday when I’m supposed to start early at work. Switched with a colleague so I’m starting late, can leave my kids at school at instead habe to work late and close our school section again.
Ah Sophia
This is such a scary time for all of you. Im grateful that hes getting good care and is being looked after. Sending loads of healing energy his way.
We are right here with you love. Thank you for keeping us updated. Sending you strength as well - You are not alone.
Hope you can find small, innovative ways to micro-recharge your batteries during these busy days. That’s a challenge, I know XD
Let’s just get through today, team.
