Checking in daily to maintain focus #57

[Noshame]

6.56 no marijuana
36.90 no ciggs or vapes
105.83 no alcohol

Today was good
Did some food shopping
Day off today from work and back at it tomorrow

Craving nicotine wayyyyy less but still on 2mg nic lozenges

So far no marijuana for 5 days, I feel good about that
Got some good energy because of being abstinent from marijuana products. I can wake up not depending on marijuana for anything

No alcohol for 105 days in a row
I have no urges to go back to alcohol at all

Take care everyone
Stay strong

[Lola]

[Sissychris39]

Day 4: no grazing
Day 753: no pills

[Katiee]

It feels absolutely amazing and freeing! Thank you so much! Hope you’re well

[Katiee]

Thank you so much! I greatly appreciate your continued support, it means so much to me!

[Juli1]

10

Evening checkin.
Still clean and sober
Happy, calm.

[JazzyS]

You are most welcome…thats what we are here for. Lend a ear and a shoulder and keep each other supported throughout our journey

[Mia2]

@MrsOdh

Not trying to please anyone but myself this time.

Preach!

Oh how interesting to hear about the reasons to visit. Sounds cool!

@MrsOdh

we mostly go because of all the amazing sweets and foods (Cherry Pies, Lübecker Marzipan,pretzels, curry wurst anyone?)

Ohhh yessss

@MrsOdh

I also have a thing for walking around grocery stores in different countries buying groceries I’ve never seen and want to try.

Me too hahaha. I’m always really excited to see other kinds of groceries. Feels therapeutic idk why

@MrsOdh

I don’t speak a word German, my 13 y/o does. I’ve tried to learn but the grammar… oh man the grammar

Yeah Im glad I dont have to learn it I love the way swedish looks like written and how it sounds. Have started to learn some but then paused for another language. This exchange might be a sign for me to pick it back up​:laughing:

[Louloubelle]

Hey lovely. Thank you for the message. Icecream sounds like an ace reward. I’m already dreaming up icecream sundae ideas… X

[JazzyS]

Oooh…im excited for you …wnjoy
Share a pic of your treat if like

[Louloubelle]

When I get that treat I’ll be sure to post it. Not today though, I’m grabbing an early night as feeling a bit under the weather. Nothing sleep won’t help I’m sure. But first catching up on TS x

[HolySquid]

Day 171
Today was GCSE results day in UK. My daughter passed everything and enrolled onto her first choice at college.
Happy sober day.
Wish all of you a successful and happy day on your journey, too

[Louloubelle]

Huge congrats to your daughter. The next adventures awaits ! X

[Dazercat]

Congratulations on the hard earned ten days Juli

[Dazercat]

Congratulations Katiee
This is HUGE!!

Way to Kick addictions ass.

[Juli1]

Yea… Thank you Eric

[Katiee]

Thank you so much!!

[CATMANCAM]

@Teresa.13 congrats on 500 days sending strength 🩵
@Hayleylujah sorry to read this, but welcome back sending strength 🩵
@Butterflymoonwoman sending strength 🩵 I hope tomorrow goes well for you and your son also, 2 weeks no binge-eating is a huge milestone! Congrats
@2JTravNZ congrats on 11+ months
@Mira_D enjoy your girls’ weekend
@Ashley_luvz_starz welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on 148 days
@Juli1 so happy and proud to see this congrats on double digits
@Just_Laura kudos to you for how you handled all of that, just reading it was a trip!
@JennyH congrats on 50+ days good idea to refresh yourself with quit lit to nip those thoughts in the bud
@SoberWalker glad to read from you congrats on 1800 days

[CATMANCAM]

@Amy30 congrats on all the 2s
@Hoss ED Eating Disoder TS Talking Sober, this forum, which is linked to the Sober Time app.
@flourishingperson1 congrats on your week
@SelfLove_42 congrats on 3 weeks
@tailee17 so happy you found Gordy
@Katiee congrats on 60 days
@HolySquid congrats to your daughter

1109 days no alcohol.
574 days no cocaine.
89 days no vape.

Feeling more in my natural rhythm today. Have done my morning routine, read 3 chapters of the book I’m reading, did 52mins of colouring in the lounge whilst listening to the audiobook Quit Like a Woman, and I’ve done both walks too.

The book I’m reading is bringing up a lot of old memories and anger, and really helping me to understand why I am the way I am.

I’ve reached out to a private Eating Disorder clinic in London, they do in-patient, and online programs. Their automated response email says they aim to respond within 24hrs, so we’ll see. I’m all in if it’s affordable, but I fear it won’t be. I definitely need more support than what’s available to me, the therapy I’m having at the moment is supposed to be for my c-PTSD, but the sessions are being taken over by my eating disorder.

🩵

[Mia2]

Checking in.
Feeling more stable, which is great. Have some more energy and my mood is dimmed, which is relatively good.

A problem came up in a conversation with a family member.
I was already on the path to torturing myself alone over how to deal with it.
But I quickly realized that I dont have any energy to deal with it.

So I decided to communicate how I felt to the family member. (A skill that I didnt use to have, but have painfully worked on and now im getting better).

Turns out, they had understanding for me. They agreed that I cant deal with the problem in my state and that another family member, who is way more charged and better equipped for it, could do it.
An immense burden was lifted.

I was like- okay. What just happened? Magic?

I was just about to torture myself with this for
months (!) to come and already felt half dead just thinking about dealing with it.

But then I communicated my situation.
I was understood. And now I’m rid of the burden.
It feels almost illegal😂.

I always used to force myself to chew through everything alone, but Im now realizing that that is wrong on all levels.

We’re social beings, we need to rely on each other. That’s how we’re made.
We need community. To talk to each other about our struggles, support each other and help each other out.

Kudos to this app for making this possible. That is immense.

A big warm hug to everybody here. I see you and I love you. You’re doing the best you can, so love yourself more, hear yourself more, celebrate yourself more.