Day 353
This was a hard day. One more coworker sick. Iām completely done with everything.
And then I was sitting next to 2 crazy ladies in the packed train, one with her dog.
When she put her dog up on the seat (on me) I had to leave or else I wouldāve completely lost it.
Both crazy ladies seem to have some kind of either drug problem or mental problem. Usually I can brush that off but not today. It was too much.
Now walking home.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
How exciting Travis.
Congratulations one you first full year of freedom. Supper accomplishment! Great job sir 
More cake?
Iāve had success with fluoxetine in the past but I find the lead in to it working unpleasant. The doctor assured me this should work a bit faster than fluoxetine. Hereās hoping 
Checking in Day 2!
Thank you Flo. Really looking forward to it. Itās a start. I have a lot of healing to došš¾
9 days AF, excited for double digits tomorrow. triggers today are worrying about how iām going to provide for me and my son. iām currently unemployed because iām his sole provider as his dad is incarcerated in another state. staying with my father right now but that has to be very temporary. i canāt afford his part time daycare anymore as iāve been paying out of my savings. need care for my boy and a job so i can move into our own place. these things are very daunting and seem almost impossible - usually i would just want to just escape my adult responsibilities. now, even though itās extremely intense and confusing and overwhelming to the point where i almost canāt move, i know for a fact that drinking is not an option. adding that element would make it even more impossible for me to achieve a life for me and my boy. even though i donāt know the answers right now, i do know one thing: iām sober. knowing that makes me know that soon i WILL know the path forward, or at least the first few stepsā¦.iām grateful for that. grateful for sobriety, the first step.
Hello my sober friends, checking in on day 23, was meant to go back to work yesterday after my 2 weeks holiday but I couldnāt face it after being ill all weekend, I was exhausted, getting my days mixed up as thought I had checked in yesterday but last check in was sunday 
@Qhob13 @JazzyS Hey sober friends Iām still here soldiering on just taking me a minute to get over this illness, plus I have chronic back pain and not being able to do my stretches and move means Iām really sore and stiff, but back to work tomorrow and a little walk with Coops early should help, thanks for checking on me yous are both stars 
Hey Jazzy, did you feel better after the tears? Are you ok, anything you want to let out? You are always so kind to everyone else, Iām here if YOU NEED A EAR 
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Hope you enjoyed your day x
Checking in on day 28! 
day 366
Definitely feeling the love thanks team, its nice to know my posts make a difference and help others as well.
Again thank you feeling accomplished! On to year 2!
Day 108.
Iām glad I went to the GP today. She was very reassuring. I also bumped into my yoga teacher on the way back and she was asking to meet up for a cuppa after class tomorrow. That made me feel good.
Iāve ordered a Hello Fresh box for next week to take the pressure off me for working out what weāre going to have for dinner each day. I realised Iāve been holding myself to a high standard with making all home cooked meals, or feeling bad if I donāt. I think I need to take a step back from the way Iāve parented up to now. The kids are growing and changing in front of my eyes.
Iāve been embroidering this evening, and listening to the rain outside and the hiss of the gas fire.
My inbox is always open anytime. Anytime at all - if you just want to vent or share or get feedback. Sending you care and support. 
Thank you friend - the tears, a nap and a hot shower have helped 
Appreciate you checking in.
Hope you are enjoying your day as well
Hello all, checking in on Day 5 (well 8 minutes from 5 days). Long day today, busy at work and then managed the gym. Hard work and this colder weather is making me want to eat everything! Had a couple of cravings earlier but they werenāt too serious.
Watching the champions league football now and settling in. I am sorry for those struggling, sending hugs to all.
Why cant you go on your own thread Renee? Im confused xxx
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I was in a depressive mood starting round 11am. I had to clarify something with my digital passport and on my way to the citizin office tears were running down my face and I had real bad thoughts. Still did the the carwash. I felt cloudy and numbed all day. Managed to eat something although I felt bad about eating and my body too.
Had a short yoga sequence and 1h of swimming, now I am better. But I also had cravings. Need to go on with the inventory of suffering.
Nice messages from TS members and the sangha kept me up in the evening.
Hope tomorrow I am mentally more stabile.
I donāt want to go back to hell!
Checking in sober day 65.
Horrible headache started mid afternoon. Nothing has helped yet. Dealing with some unnecessary stress. Craving a drink but I know that wonāt help.
Just keep going OFDAAT. Right @Soberbilly ?
Day 202,
I found myself craving today so I came on here. Iāve been busy lately and focused on work. Iām stressed about money for the next month but Iāll be ok in November. The deathly Berlin winter is around the corner it seems and Iām feeling wistful and overworked.
Just finished 4 funding and residency applications for a project I want to complete in 2025. Now I have two weeks to do a big funding application for a 6 day symposium Iām programming in the summer of 2024 and afterwards I enter rehearsals for a show premiering this November. Iām now just trying to fill my 2024 work calendar and itās just so stressful. There are just so many things to do and so many meetings and so many people to answer to and coordinate. I really enjoy what I do and working for myself but sometimes I wish I had the stability and security of a 9-5.
Anyways Iāve been sober for a half year now and I didnāt even celebrate it on here. Happy 6 months to me. Iāll check in here more often.
