So sorry, that is awful. Must be really tough on you too 
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Second check in. Still day 204. Resumed my life after covid today, back at the gym for aquacise class and some time in the sauna. I really enjoyed it, but got a migraine in the afternoon.
My other half left for a business trip this morning and wonāt be back until Saturday. Having the evenings to myself usually meant stocking up on wine bottles and spending each evening drinking without having someone to comment on the amount. So yeah, itās on my mind tonightā¦ a lot!
But Iām having apple juice, watching Bake Off. And will put sober head on my pillow soon.
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@mno I do hope everything went well for you today. We are with you friend ā Iām sure today will be an emotional day. 
@holysquid YEAH!!! This is great news 
@starlight14 hey beautiful how did your day go today. I am a little late in checking in ā I do hope you were able to do some selfcare and found healthy ways to distract yourself and stay positive. You are absolutely killing it in sobriety, being an amazing mom and such a lovely woman (giving so many a shoulder to lean on and being there for those ladies at school). I do hope you start to see the wonderful person that we all see in you.
@thumper1213 Way to go on 50 days! Keep them days coming 
Coming in hot ā I like that loveādouble digits tomorrow! You are doing great!ākeep it up
@Saturn81 and @SadMemeQueen how are you ladies doing?
@rnbyday Welcome to the community! Great job on day 5! This is the one time to focus on ā this time you can with a support system and a solid plan keep adding on the sober days. Great job on joining us here ā love this check in thread for accountability and feeling like Iām among friends. Great to have you here with us.
@becs nicely done Becs ā I do hope it gets easier for you ā great job in digging deep ā we are right alongside you my friend.
@noshame Nice numbers my friend!! OOH the love for dark roast coffee ā YUMMY It is my go to for sure! Enjoy every drop 
@nikki89 Welcome back Nicole! Are you able to get or start a meeting / recovery group? We are here for you my friend ā talk to us (putting out your frustrations and urges here may help lessen their hold on you).
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Thank you Jazz that means alot, i dont know whats bothering me so much, when i woke up today i felt dread for the first time in agesā¦just reading your lovely message there made me feel tearful, this is not like me at allā¦i feel unsettled and really lowā¦im actually hoping its hormones or something and that it will pass xx
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Iām hanging in there, struggling but here
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it definitely wouldnāt be easier, we can do this
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Oh Mira ā just big hugs and loads of love to you my friend. I do hope you are successful in ending the self shaming. You are so incredibly strong and have to deal with so much right now ā I am grateful that you are doing so sober and with a clear head. Grateful that you are able to come here and talk with us and that this interaction helps. 
@juli1 you are crushing it daily with your commitments and now your recovery support. Keep working on utilizing your tools. So many positive changes happening for you with job and home and education to name a few. Keep strong my friend
@tragicfarinelli OMG friend ā I canāt even with people right now. HOW nasty can people be? I am so sorry that this is happening to your sister. So damn disappointed with the police. It sucks being so far away and feeling helpless. Does she have friends in the area that may be able to help? This whole situation is such bullying bullshit. Again ā I am verry sorry that you and your sister are dealing with this.
@jennyh Yeah to getting to the gym and getting in a work out! Well done on stomping that seed out!
Grateful for this feeling! Sorry about your kids ā I do hope that changes in time. Doing fantastic with 94 days!
Great job on day 4 and recognizing whre the feelings are coming from. Grateful that you did call your sponsor and working through this emotional time.
I do hope that this passes soon for you. Oh them fucking hormones (if that is whatās causing this mind / mood shift). I do hope you took time to just love your inner self and give yourself some comfort
@sadmemequeen and @ looking4support So sorry that you are both struggling today ā glad to see you hanging in. We are here if you need to talk. I do hope your evening gets better.
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Checking in
Day 590
Feeling pretty tired lately. I think im still recovering from that overnight shift i had to do on sunday. Other than that, I think Im okay.
I went shopping yesterday and got an outfit (shoes, jeans, tank top, light jacket, and caridgan). Found some really good sales so thats why i was able to get as much as i could with the money i had. Grateful for recovery bcuz shopping like this never happened when I was using.
Im looking forward to some self care later. I really feel like I need it. I also feel like i need to take better care of myself overall. My eating is horrendous and i havent been active and moving my body very much. Tmrw that changes.
Anyway, i really need to get caught up on the reading here. Hope everyone is doing well though 
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16 days alcohol-free. feeling firm in my dedication. excited to have over two weeks sober, best decision ever, simply just want to continue 
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Thank you 
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Thank you for the support! I see you out here sharing good energy! You are appreciated 
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Nicely captured and way to go --very impressive!!
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Not too much to report, still just hanging out in a cast working from home, but hey, i reached 30 days (from alcohol) and thatās alright. 
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So good to see you lady ā hope the healing is going well - any idea of when the cast comes off?
30 days no alcohol!! YIPPEE - you are killing it my friend! Keep at it
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Good evening Friends
Today was a beautiful day. My work was all fucked up and kind of a pain in the ass today, but I got the shit fixed and made happy customers. Once again I had the best office view in all the land, sometimes I just want to drop my tools and go play instead. Haha. Working in all these bad ass spots does give me ideas for the off days though. And Apollo would throw a fit if he knew I went in the wild without him. That dog knows things.
After work I got a new bed. Itās smaller and Iām happy. I have more room for more plants.
421 days no booze
39 days no tobacco
Goodnight
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Just finished day 3. Again. I WILL make it this time.
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Day 256.
Yeah, the neighbours are driving me insane. Iām hoping my dad will eventually back off once the apartment is finished and completely furnished because right now heās beyond annoying.
He has an opinion about every single aspect of daily life and makes me second guess myself. He decided that the spot we put the fridge in makes it look ātoo aggressiveā, whatever the fuck that means.
And then thereās the table. I said I wanna buy (with my own money that I earn myself, mind you) a small coffee table for the living room. He thinks thatās a stupid idea, instead I should just buy a dining table to eat at. We donāt eat at the table. He thinks our eating habits are unhealthy. Iām 33, I shouldnāt have to justify how I eat my food to anyone.
Iām trying really hard to stay patient, because I know he will loose interest. Right now, us being here and moving into the newly refurbished flat is new. Heās like a kid getting a new toy for Xmas, but heāll soon tire and find someone else to annoy. Pray for my sanity!
Also today is the big day when we find out if my husband can stay or if he needs to go. Heād have to leave the country for a week or so while I gather more papers. But Iām hoping it wonāt come to that.
Soā¦ my anxiety is through the fucking roof right now.
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26 days AF morning checkin.
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