Nicely captured and way to go --very impressive!!
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Not too much to report, still just hanging out in a cast working from home, but hey, i reached 30 days (from alcohol) and thatās alright. 
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So good to see you lady ā hope the healing is going well - any idea of when the cast comes off?
30 days no alcohol!! YIPPEE - you are killing it my friend! Keep at it 
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Good evening Friends
Today was a beautiful day. My work was all fucked up and kind of a pain in the ass today, but I got the shit fixed and made happy customers. Once again I had the best office view in all the land, sometimes I just want to drop my tools and go play instead. Haha. Working in all these bad ass spots does give me ideas for the off days though. And Apollo would throw a fit if he knew I went in the wild without him. That dog knows things.
After work I got a new bed. Itās smaller and Iām happy. I have more room for more plants.
421 days no booze
39 days no tobacco
Goodnight
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Just finished day 3. Again. I WILL make it this time.
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Day 256.
Yeah, the neighbours are driving me insane. Iām hoping my dad will eventually back off once the apartment is finished and completely furnished because right now heās beyond annoying.
He has an opinion about every single aspect of daily life and makes me second guess myself. He decided that the spot we put the fridge in makes it look ātoo aggressiveā, whatever the fuck that means.
And then thereās the table. I said I wanna buy (with my own money that I earn myself, mind you) a small coffee table for the living room. He thinks thatās a stupid idea, instead I should just buy a dining table to eat at. We donāt eat at the table. He thinks our eating habits are unhealthy. Iām 33, I shouldnāt have to justify how I eat my food to anyone.
Iām trying really hard to stay patient, because I know he will loose interest. Right now, us being here and moving into the newly refurbished flat is new. Heās like a kid getting a new toy for Xmas, but heāll soon tire and find someone else to annoy. Pray for my sanity!
Also today is the big day when we find out if my husband can stay or if he needs to go. Heād have to leave the country for a week or so while I gather more papers. But Iām hoping it wonāt come to that.
Soā¦ my anxiety is through the fucking roof right now.
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26 days AF morning checkin.
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End of day 8:
Winding down after a long day, already need the weekend to be here! Feeling exhausted and run down, the lack of sustained sleep is catching up with me. Feel like i was on auto pilot all day. Luckily my daughter had a volleyball game tonight so it was fun to leave my work phone at home and just go watch her play, plus she killed it!
Another busy work day tomorrow, but it will be another sober day so thatās a good day.
Fading fast so goodnight! Talk to you all again on day 9.
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Work today was the last Tuesday of the year. Not too busy so I was the only bartender/server with one busser.
Many of those sobriety conversations begin while Iām making drinks and the members ask my opinion of them. They notice I use past tense and start asking questions. āYou donāt drink anymore?ā āDid you have trouble with the law?ā āDoes it run in your family?ā I just tell them the straight up truth about everything.
One guy said his doctor told him he doesnāt have a drinking problem, he has a problem drinking. Whatever tf means. Another said his son quit recently. He didnāt think he was an alcoholic but once he started, he couldnāt stop. (Sounds familiar). Anyway. Theyāre all very supportive and comment on how good Iāve been looking too. It just gets better and better.
To everyone with less time than me - KEEP ON GOING!
To everyone with more - Thank you for your inspiration 
Goodnight
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Morning, checking in on Day 13.
Currently a beautiful day outside but think the weather is due to turn. Making the most of it with window wide open. I am not enjoying having to keep them mostly closed at night thanks to the pesky Daddy long legs on their September light mission.
My husband is hardly ever sick (known it only a few times in our 20 years) and he is now. There is a nasty cold sweeping through his work. Now I have a sore throat. Debating whether to work from home now. It is only a sore throat atm, but donāt want to spread it. Trying to have a positive attitude that getting worse isnāt inevitable. Still drinking coffee in bed atm 
Have a good day everyone!
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Amy, I donāt remember when last time I laughed loud looking at my phone but āfridge looking too aggressiveāā¦ this shit made my day xd Sorry for that but its hilarious. Not so funny for you tho, understandable 
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1571 days free from drinking
8 years free from smoking weed and tobacco
Bizarre experience yesterday, visiting the national archives and seeing the big classified file there on my dad. How much they know about my family, how much they invested in keeping an eye on him and track of him - and my mum too. How many people were occupied with monitoring their lives and their āsubversiveā activities. How there are numerous reports by an informant who must have been a pretty close family friend who, right after my parents visited with them for coffee, made a detailed report about everything that was said and send it to the authorities.
How there are some very painful details about my parents private lives in there, stuff I didnāt know, from before I was born, in the 50ās and 60ās. How these details mostly are there for me to see in the family photo albums I have lying here right before me that I have looked through 100ās of times. What a narcissistic prick my dad was often. And how my mum couldnāt deal with that and life in general and screwed up things in her own way.
How yesterday nine years ago my dad died which I didnāt even think of when I made the appointment to go and see his file. How today itās my mumās tenth dying day. How they were terrible parents and spouses. How they fucked me and my sister up but theyāre still my parents and I miss them.
How I choose to quit smoking eight years ago today, on a whim, challenged by my bestie who said I couldnāt do it and how my BPD traits made me rise to that challenge and I did actually quit that same night.
How that started me on this incredible road of Recovery and Discovery that I am on right here and right now, even though it took me another four years to realize I am an addict and all substances had to go. And how I realized I canāt do it alone and I need community and connection to make it through life. How I finally have started to grow up.
How Iām still working on myself each and every day to make a better version of myself and process all the stuff I never did process before, due to me hiding in drinking and drugging my life away. Never again. One day at a time. Thanks for letting me vent. Weāre in this together. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Pic is my mum and dad at a wedding, 1960ish. I never knew them dressed up like that. Seems fitting.
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Day 95. Up early . Working from 8-4 today. Cleared all my emails from being on annual leave. Just got my electricity bill, jesus, almost as expensive as my wine bill was 
Strange neighbour was in our lobby yesterday taking photos of our neighbours shoes? Wtf ? Then asks we should do something social and bond ? Wtf ? No thanks:)
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Day 170 checking in
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I like your reflections for folks. Helps consolidate things for me. Have a fab day
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Hard day for you ā¦ ā¦ thatās a lot to absorb and deal with. And on the anniversary dates. Thinking about you.
Life is hardā¦ it sounds like it was hard for them, too.
Congratulations on your 8 years of No Smoking! The catalyst for so much more positive direction in your life, personally and professionally.
Youāve helped so many along your smoke and weed free, and then alcohol and other substance free roadā¦ while doing so much on your own recovery and discovery, that road continues to go on ā¦
All started with NOPE, Not One Puff Ever.
Not One addictive substance ever.
Big congrats and big hugs.
Wishing you sunshiny skies and heart and āgoodā on that road.
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Living life like a normal citizen without drugs
Takes some getting use toā¦just saying
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Wow, that was such a powerful read, thanks so much for sharing. That must be so strange and intense, seeing it written down like that, and making sense of it in the context of your own memories. You have made such amazing progress and have been a huge support to so many here. I am so glad you started this journey 8 years ago 
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Iām so pissed that my reset was on the evening after midnight so itās my third day but says two. Itās Wednesday, itās literally my third day sober.
In a tired fug today, worry and anxiety getting the better of me. But Iāve showered, dressed, working from home and going to eat well. Preparing a nice meal for the OH tonight who is away with MIL again as my mother in law has quite serious health issues (I think this is our weekly life now, partially split due to healthcare assistance).
I was up till 3am, but actually attended two online AA meetings yesterday and an ACOA meeting for the first time, which I really found good despite it being the middle of the night. So I guess I used that time wisely you could say.
Anywho, itās fucking day 3 not 2.
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Day
6 no form of marijuana
140 no drinking
71 no vapes or cigs
Omg Iām exosted
I did not want to leave my cozy bed or wife this morning.
Itās 6:39 and Iām on my way to driving class for a 8 hour class
Class 1 out of 2
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