Checking in sober and happy to be so
Struggling as things have a whole different feeling, for instance,birthdays. Can’t avoid them when it’s your own child, triggers will be lurking everywhere! Tired of not being able to just go and be “normal” Sobriety can feel very isolating to me at times, like noone close to me will ever truly get it. No I can’t eat, drink, smoke etc… not when you are an addict like me. 120 days no alcohol, 40 days no vaping nicotine, sadly ruined my 90 day streak so back to day 3 no disordered eating. Thanks for letting me vent
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Nice to see you checking in Jenny.
Congratulations on the 120 days.
That’s awesome. Your doing so well.
Remember HALT ?
Reach out.
Or just vent anytime.
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Thank you!
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Congratulations on your half year Squid 
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I commend you on quitting everything at the same time. You just keep going.
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Congratulations 
Amazing work!!!
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Checking in at 1 month and 15 days. This is the longest I’ve been sober in years so I’m very proud of myself. But I’ve been dealing with a lot of digestive issues lately that are really stressing me out. I’ll be going to see my doctor for the first time in years next week after avoiding it for so long and I’m really worried that I’m going to get some bad news about alcohol-related damage that I could’ve done to my body. 
I have a lot of health anxiety so it’s all I can think about lately.
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Thanks so much for asking, darlin! I guess it went okay; no one had any issues getting me out of there tout suite afterward. A lot more pain/discomfort today than prior to the surgery, but hoping that eases in the coming days. My outlook is a bit brighter than it was the first week of this accident, at least. I felt myself slipping into some dark spots within the first few days; now embracing (trying to, anyway) the silver linings (inc sobriety). Thank you again for asking! 
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Evening Check In
Day 570
Was feeling abit restless today. I didnt really have much planned other than cleaning the apartment. My son went off to school and im noticing that i get stir crazy without him at home. Its like idk what to do with myself and I get bored and restless. I did exercise this morning which was good. Than on to the cleaning. I washed and dried the bedding, changed the sheets, swept and mopped the floors, vacuumed, did dishes, cleaned all the windows and mirrors, took out the recycling and garbage, cleaned the entire bathroom top to bottom. Basically at this point i was making a mess just to clean it again 
. Then i got tired of cleaning and walked to grab a coffee. Came home. Decided it would be a good idea to try and nap in the afternoon to kill time. That didnt go too well as I had caffeine in my system. Got up after 1.5 hours of tossing and turning and then got my son from the bus. So it turns out that even though i enjoy my own company, I have to have a plan for my day. A purpose. A list of things to do. I just cant sit still. Ill work on that 
Anyway, hope everyone is having a good night! 
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You are doing great with living your addiction free lifestyle Jenny. Great to see you checking in.
I can totally understand how its harder to deal with triggers when you have them lurking around you. Do know that we are always here if you find yourself overwhelmed and need to reach out.
Also have a drinks available for you to drink at the celebration. Make sure to have plenty of extra - I found that my friends preferred my mocktails.
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doing great on your sobriety days my friend. I know its daunting to face what damage we might have caused after years of abuse. Do know that now you are working on living a healthier sober life. Whatever the results you can work on healing yourself by continuing on the sober path. We are here for you my friend!
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Glad to hear that your surgery went well. Wishing for a speedy recovery. I am grateful that you are looking at the silver linings. I know it’s a thin line between the light and dark thoughts – Remember that this site is active 247 so please reach out if you ever feel yourself slipping into the dark spots.
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Checking in on day 817. I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday. Still tapering off the meds. I have reached the point where I have to crack the pill open and count the individual beads, because the smallest pill is too big of a jump to zero for my poor addled brain, I guess. Liver numbers are good, so that’s happy news. Hope everyone is having a nice week. Stay strong, friends.
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Happy news indeed - great to see your health improving!
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Glad it went well! Sending healing vibes and hugs your direction! Hope the pain subsides quickly and recovery is smooth. Hang in there!
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Day 81
Locks changed Ring doorbell is here. Home is safe again.
In a bit of pain with my back. Hoping it’s just from the stress of everything and that I’ll feel better tomorrow.
Grateful for the support I get here.
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Congratulations 
what a wonderful milestone
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YES!!! Here comes the rain! Finally! What a sweet, sweet sound 
Anyway. Another dreadfully hot day. Even though it feels like I drink a lot of liquids, I think I may have been dehydrated. I woke up with a terrible headache, drank about a gallon of water, and then it was gone. It came back at the end of work so I’m chugging some more before bed. I’m sure getting some cooler sleep will help too. Thank you mother earth
My body’s been sore. I skipped my workouts for my lungs sake, but now my back is screaming at me. Aiming to do a long, slow yoga session in the morning. I’m still adjusting to getting to bed earlier but I’m already tired so I hope my mind will shut off easily. Goodnight 
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That is a great suggestion, thank you!
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Thank you!
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