Thank you so much! 
im glad that youāre feeling good today! I love your outlook on life, hope you have a great night!
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thatās amazing !!
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day 579 of no self harm
still not feeling great today.
my friend be coming over Wednesday to help clean my room, today and tomorrow Iām washing all of my clothes and donating what doesnāt fit/what donāt wear. hopefully thatāll make a little more space for things when we clean
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Day 61
Just checking in.
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Checking in on day 188!!!
Have a great night everyone 
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Day 14:
Not a bad day. Woke up a little later than i wanted, but brewed up some good coffee and made it to work 30 minutes later than i wanted, but still there before all my guys got there.
Pretty busy day, but managed to get to the grocery store around 3:30. Bought food for the bday dinner, home by 4:00 and started getting everything ready.
Family showed up and we had a really good meal and enjoyable night. My sister was sweet enough to give me a t-shirt that said āI My Sisterā. She cracked herself up!
Some good confetti cake and everyone headed home. Best part was drinking never crossed my mind once!
Already in bed, praying i get some semi decent sleep. All in all a good day 14ā¦
Goodnight!
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Mentally draining day. Monetary issues have been weighing on me for a couple months now. I am now suffering the consequences of my past. I had to borrow money from my parents today bc I have a few big payments coming up. It felt shitty to admit Iām struggling but itās my own fault for believing I could afford a $5,000 tooth implant. I knew I shouldāve borrowed money for that in the first place but kept saying āIām a big girl. I can handle it myself.ā
The car I own I bought with $10,000 cash in 2017. Four months later I got my double felony DWI, which cost well over that in the long run (still paying double the cost my car insurance used to be). I heavily rely on my tax returns to get back on track and put it away but after my ex moved out (sept. '21) I counted my chickens. Still drinking, we had a good Christmas and many other āfunā expenses, as well as needless ones. I splurged like I still had someone paying half the bills. Ended up getting back half of what I expected so it was gone immediately towards credit card debt. Continued spending this way, unable to put extra away.
My job closes for January and we collect unemployment. For some reason a few of us were unable to collect this year. Still drinking and depressed I didnāt even care to figure out why. A month with no income. Quit drinking in Feb, and stopped all splurging, but it was too late.
Since supporting myself and daughter alone for the past two years, and buying that fucking tooth (I am grateful there isnāt a hole in my mouth), I havenāt been able to recover. Itās just a weight Iāve been carrying around. I very successfully lived paycheck to paycheck in the past. I just have to remember how.
Idk. Just drained. Need to sleep.
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Checking in. Still sober. Still wishing life would calm down. I know I donāt handle stress well. Eating too much sugar stuff for starters. But I recognise the behaviour and hey, Iām not drunk.
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#Day 1840 
Back to work after a 2 week holiday, not in the mood for working 
But I had a really great holiday, thatās for sure, so I may not complain.
Busy week ahead, a bit to busy! So try to keep my calm and donāt go in overdrive.
Wanna share this happy bench we saw during our holiday, it made me smile!
Maybe Iām going to make such bench here in my city as well. Every city need one!
I love projects like this, it warms my
Have all a good day and make the best out of it. Sober/clean ofcourse.
For ourselves and the people around us 
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Aaaah, that is like the Buddy Bench at my childrenās primary school. Such a lovely idea. So many people are missing human connection in life. My Mum always goes through the tills that are manned by a person (instead of self service) as she thinks it is good for people to have conversations, connection with others.
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Checking in, Day 19. Exciting to be nearly 20.
Massive thank you to everyone that was there for my last night and saw me through my craving and bad mood. It isnāt just the people who specifically replied either, but everyone here, as I could read all of the posts and just spend my time here. Found the meme thread @JazzyS Will be going back there 
Feeling a lot better today. Going into work and actually looking forward to seeing my colleagues. This post-Covid hybrid working really is a gift, the perfect balance for me.
Have a good day everyone
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Day 101
Woke up 7.30am, logged on for work 7.55am. Finishing at 3.30pm today:)
It feels like we are bypassing autumn and going straight into winter
Today i will not drink alcohol. I will drink lots of water and coffee 
off to the barbers later on. Then Netflix thiw evening
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Checking in on my 338th day sober.
Going to get a couple of tyres changed on my car this morning, then attending a couple of fitness classes this afternoon at my local gym.
Keeping my body healthy is a massive help to my mental state.
Starting my new job next week too. Things are looking up.
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Slept in. Switching to a couple of late shifts. Seems I need the order and structure of my job, mentally feeling better than the last days of my holidays. Also finally some autumn-ish weather arrived here. Which feels like more normal, even though I also feel the shortening of the days. Time to dig out the SAD lamp I guess.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love form outside my workplace, yesterday before work.
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Day 675
Still feeling confused by what has happened. Such a mix of emotions that I honestly donāt know if Iām coming or going.
Thank you to those who have been in touch. It is appreciated. I apologise if my responses are scarce and not making sense.
I also apologise to those Iām not there to offer support to at the minute.
Sending love and strength!
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