Oh Mike – I know its hard after your weekends to feel like you are missing out on stuff with the girls. Do realize that you are working on yourself and making some positive changes. You are being an amazing role model for them and they do know how much you love em. Grateful that you do have group so that you can get that connection. So important in recovery. I do hope that you are also able to get your gym sessions back into play – that release and gain of endorphins will be super helpful to you. I think you are doing so well – super proud of where you are at and what you are accomplishing! @calgary5577 5 days Hell YEAH! And wakign up early without the residual effects of the night before – you are rocking this journey!
I decided so I did accomplish – AWESOME – glad you did both and doing awesome with 85 days! @noshame It is a hard road – grateful that you are sticking to it and not giving up on yourself. You can win this battle – ODAAT! @megameg Hey – great job on day 1 and coming to this realization. The beginning is tough and this journey takes a lot of work but you can and will do it with support and vigilance. We are here for you and I do hope you can find some good support and practices to do in real life to help keep you on the sober track! Keep super hydrated today – It will help flush out the toxins faster. @Butterflymoonwoman Hows your day with your son going? I do hope you have been able to do some of your recovery activities this morning - i am right with you and working my recovery practices. @Hisharleyquinn1318 that’s the key - keeping your eye on the prize and finding healthier ways to fight the urges (hopefully with more clean time the urges will lessen). Just so happy for your progress!
Happy Monday my dear sober friends
It is a lovely day so far - feel a bit tired but not enough to slow me down. I am well caffeinated and have managed a very mild 40 min yoga session. Going to get ready for my PT in a few hours. The movement is causing my body to swell but not moving is causing my mind to not feel well so I’m taking the swelling for now. A healthy mind can face anything
Hope you all have a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
God is testing me. I haven’t broken and I refuse to break. Thanks to all of you for letting me lean on you when I struggle. Yet another test will be in 3 weeks when he leaves again this will be more times he has seen them since the twins were born.
Thank you for believening in me
I might come across to some who might think I don’t want to quit because I keep picking up
I feel like it’s ok to pick up then immediately regret it. It’s a head game with the weed as much as addiction or dependentcy.
I have to do this for me. I need more self control big time. I get so focused on work that I tend to forget about real life
Honestly I know I couldn’t like in that sort of arrangement. I know you have a lot vested in the relationship and are doing what you can to make it work. I am so sorry that you are hurting in the process.
Grateful that you are working on your clean time and ate least getting yourself stronger mentally / physically and emotionally.
I’ve been where you are and could easily be back there at any moment. I don’t even know how many times i would say no i’m not picking up and within hours i was back at it. It was disheartening and honestly did not know how i was going to leave that life behind. I did finally manage and I know you can too. We are forever fighting our addictions - it is easier to do with support as we can not do this alone.
You have conquered 2 and now are not taking this one lightly – i know you feel like you fail when you pick up but I do see you fighting to quit. Don’t ever quit quitting.
The path is different for everyone. DO what you must to find the self control or distractions or support groups to keep you focused. We do believe in you!
Oh my friend, ur such a strong woman! I hope ur PT goes well and that there isnt too much swelling afterwards. I havent done much recovery related stuff this morning to be honest. I did workout tho… only had time for a quick 20 min cardio session. Which im proud of none the less. We have to go grocery shopping so we are on the way now. Will definitly do some recovery related stuff once home tho. Thanks for checking in on me friend. Ur the best!!! 🩷
Thank you so much. I ended my work day with an hour and ten minute walk, picking up some delicious pecan caramel chocolate, fresh roasted coffee beans and turmeric tea. Listened to a sober podcast as I walked. Feels good.
Checking in on Day 4. Feeling really good. Something is different this time, my mind has switched and I feel more committed, almost excited. I am trying to start every day I don’t go into the office with a walk in the woods. Really enjoying that. And I am now listening to meditation before bed. I am being more mindful, trying to really listen to my brain and body. It turns out that they don’t want to drink! Thank you to all those who have reached out. This place is special
Checking in Day 582
Today has been a busy day. Have already gone to one place for groceries. And have one more place to go to finish the grocery list. My son and I are just having lunch now. I already washed the dishes. Just need to do a few more tasks to tidy up the apartment and I will be satisfied with what I accomplished for today.
I have been having using thoughts the past few days. So trying to get a handle on that. The thoughts come and go tho and arent super intense. But still. Id rather not have them at all.
Not much else happening today. I did manage to do a quick workout which Im proud of. It was quick bcuz I accidentally set my alarm for 530pm instead of 530am. I woke up naturally at 611am, got my workout gear on and did cardio for 20 min before the overnight nurse left. I couldve just stayed in bed but at least i made an attempt. Tmrw ill do better
I sold my house and moved, that’s one of the main things I was talking about here over the summer, one of my worst triggers and stresses. So, I’m in the same area but in my own little rv out in the country, not in town anymore. It’s much better, more peaceful, no stress. Well no stress now, of course at first there’s the electrical hookup (money) plumbing hookup (money but I actually did that part myself), troubleshooting appliances and learning about maintaining RV’s. Paid off my fines and this wednesday I’ll be done with all of the requirements for getting my driver license back (had a DUI in 2019 I’d never taken care of). So that’s another huge stress that will be gone. Then I’ll be able to start looking for work in neighboring cities without the fear of driving without a license.
So all in all things are MUCH better than they were a few months ago, much less a year ago. Drinking hasn’t been much of a problem, but I’ve had some slips. I’ve also actually started the meds an addiction dr. prescribed for me that I’ve been putting off so that’s helped a lot with cravings. I’m a lot happier I guess, today is just one of those days where I know I’m happier, I know things are good right now, but I still have days where I feel a little “blah” I guess. It’s not bad though. Thanks for asking, talking to you guys is always nice.
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