Exactly 
Have fun at the Yoga session girl, youāve got this. Believe in yourself 
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Boomchalalaka 
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@Noshame This would be my suggestion as well. If she os okay with npt smoking, and it aounds like she is then get it out of tbe house. Thats what I did for at least a month and it did make a huge difference. Im here today now, where when it was in the house I felt like it was my job to resist npt my husbands not to drink, but it didnt work this time. So i just said enoughs enough, no alcohol in the house. If he wanted to have a beer or few, he can get what he wants and pour the rest out if there are left overs. Most of the time he just did not drink, and just that while of it not being available helped me get enough days tpgether that I am now way less teiggered by alcohol being presentā¦alcohol is present in life, it is just a fact of our cultureā¦I have lived 10 yrs sober around it so there is no issue witj that, BUT i needed to get started and part of that was. My home is MY kingdom, and this is what I need. Xo. Best wishes to you.
Also, @noshame - you said its never worth it, but another way to think about it isā¦what is it you are seekong? Whats that part of you looking for or needing? The younger part of you thats trying to copeā¦with what? These arent questions for you to answer to me. You owe me NOTHING, and no one should demand answers. There is an addictive component, but there is a coping componentā¦what is the purpose your using is serving? Tap into that. And if you can get rid of weed in your house. If your wife truly wants you to quit, sheāll have no issue with it. Xo.
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Congratulations, awesome milestone 
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Exactly! Iām discovering who I am again, itās a weird feeling at times but also feels absolutely wonderful 
Iām glad to hear that youāre doing well, I hope you have a great day today!
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Day 2472. At the doctor waiting for my daughterās audiology appointment. This afternoon I am going to a work end of year (with the governmentās calendar anyway) party. It is at a brewery but I will drink diet coke or soda and lime. I feel grateful that I am able to do productive and meaningful things in my sobriety. I wish you all a good day!
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@danam56 Hey love ā have you been able to discuss pain management with Doc yet? Hope you are feeling more mobile today.
It will be a adjustement for sure but I do think this may be an illuminating. I found spending more time with myself to be so fulfilling. We will be here for you and with you if you find yourself feeling lonely. Great job on day 2!
@juli1 So very happy for you ā proud of you! Grateful for your changed mindset ā it is different for today and you will work the recovery for this 24 hour period! Boomchalalaka GIRL! I do hope the yoga session helped. The drive to contact the wrong people is your addiction voice playing tricks. You deserve better 
Ah beautiful āI donāt really like the word normal as we are all unique and different ā I do believe that you will be able to live a happy addiction free lifestyle! Donāt give up on yourself. Grateful to see you working on your day 1 again! Many of us have had set backs ā please do not let that keep you from trying to shed this demon. We are here for you! Do throw it ALL away. Make is super hard to get your hands on stuff (I know its so easy these days). 
Dealing with this person must have been so difficult and yes, I agree that she was being disrespectful and unprofessional. Sending you comfort in trying to deal with this situation.
@deelzebub Hey beautiful ā did the tea help any? I do hope you stay hydrated and am so greateful that you are staying connected with us here. How is your embroidery coming along (may help to put your minds focus on something else). We are here if you need to talkā¦ just thinking of you and sending you warm gentle hugs
@brian1965uk Oh Iām sorry about Willow ā do hope Willow starts to adjust soon. Grateful you kept yourself busy and did not pick up.
@noshame stay strong my friend ā we never stop learning! I do like Derekās idea of keeping he weed in home secured so that you are not able to have access to it (delaying access can give you enough time to calm down from the urges). Remember to utilize your thread to reach out to us when you get the urges. Gain and utilize whatever tools / support systems that might be able to help you keep on the sober path.
I do love that you will work on loving yourself and being more kind to your self. Take it slow and easy ā it will be hard as you are not used to it but it can be accomplished. I do hope you have picked up some good things (tools perhaps) from this treatment. A step towards healing.
@Sabrina80 OH wow - grateful you were able to figure out the correct eye and that you were able to stay so calm throughout - iām sure your patient appreciated that.
Checking in on Thursday afternoon
The day is going by so quickly. I am here and alert but ready for a nap if that makes sense. I am grateful for being able to celebrate my 9 months of sobriety. 9 months ago i gave up the last of my addictions (i do not think of coffee as an addiction LOL).
I feel like my body is healing slowly but quicker now that i donāt have any added poison in me. Thank you to all of you for being a part of this amazing journey ā so many more milestones to celebrate! WE will have an amazing addiction free day. I am sending you all so much love
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Heyy englished
Im honestly going through a lot right now which is all pointing at stay sober. Thatās why I say itās not worth picking up
What am I doing to stay sober
Eeh I guess not much honestly. Just going day to day. Itās crazy how I think itās ok to pick up my doc. At least I donāt think itās like ligit fine to pick up and ignore the warning signs.
I really have to think about the options I have
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Day 31 I had my first sober mentoring session this morning. It was great, she was super helpful in giving me concrete things to work on, especially for the upcoming road trip west. Iām feeling really supported and confident I can do this. I plan to continue weekly sessions through October then Iām signed up for the TLC Sober 90 starting in November, which sheās a coach in, to keep the continuity going and avail myself of additional resources. Itās true that booze is everywhere, but so are recovery tools if we look 
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Evening checkin.
Iām feeling more grounded now. I booked onto tomorrowās yoga class, and I think tonight for supper Iāll get some seeds into me. I donāt usually like eating too close to bedtime but I think I need the serotonin thatās said to be in high amounts in seeds. Itās worth a try anyway. I have the bergamot oil in the oil burner (thanks @JazzyS for the suggestion) and I made a simple dinner of tortellini and my son had some Korean chicken pieces which he enjoyed.
Below is the embroidery Iāve been making. Itās suddenly turned into a procreate collage. I did not see that coming!
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Glad to hear that you are feeling more grounded Delia.
Neat embroidery! Super cool girl!
Seeds before bed might also help with sleep due to the protein. Yeah to the oil burner burning 
hoping for more grounding moments and lovely relaxing days
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Think less. Act more.
For years youāve always talked and thought about your actions. Yet you donāt take them. Remember when you promised youād go to rehab if you relapsed? You have no one holding you accountable and donāt seem interested in holding yourself accountable.
Iāll be real clear.
You are going to continue to relapse unless you actually take the action you always think about it.
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Checking in, 1 hour away from 7 days. I am so proud of myself today, literally all my triggers and I havenāt had any wine. The cravings were hard but have come through the other side now.
Long day at work with our ābig meetingā we have every couple of months, that has meant my chronic fatigue crash is quite bad (first day of my cycle is always hard too). I wasnāt well enough to go to the gym. I normally would have used wine to wind down and give me some false energy. Not today 
When I first gave up wine I celebrated every milestone. More recently I wasnāt as felt like they didnāt count after not making it before. That was the wrong attitude so I am celebrating this one
Will go back and read more now. Have barely had time to be present until now.
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Yes to fun & celebrating the wins. Xo. Amazing 30 days wpot woot!
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WOOT WOOT Jenny ā celebrate yourself each and every time / every milestone made! YOU DID IT. You bypassed all the triggers and found a way to be comfortable in sobriety (even when itās not comfortable).
I am so sorry about your CF acting up. I am grateful that you are celebrating yourself today! Way to go Jenny 
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Evening checkin.
Back homeā¦
I treated myself with some chinese takeaway after yoga. Now I am happy and sober.
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Thank you so much, sitting here smiling. I have a little more energy now, the resting is working. Hoping that means a restful sleep
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Reading this made me happy! Grateful for the little bit of energy- hoping your evening is much better and yes - hoping for a restful sleep 
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Iām glad I could make you laugh. I was so tired but my commitment is to check in daily. I typed and re-wrote it twice. Lol.
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No, Iāve been procrastinating about going back k but I need to. Itās a different kind of pain now. Thank you for the reminder to call and schedule an appointment. I start work and then get lost in the day.
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