Congratulations on your 5 years, that is a big milestone and I hope you can honor your journey, if you are so inclined!
Sorry to hear about your wife’s job. Not a fan of that feeling of upheaval and unsurety. It sounds like she will turn this into an opportunity. Certainly the timing speaks to new beginnings ahead. 
Hey Dan — marvelous job on your 5 years my friend! This is such a great way to start Friday!
I am sorry to hear about your wife’s job situation. You are right - a lot can happen in 8 weeks. Sounds like your wife has a very useful specific skill set and will be in demand. Hoping everything works out for the best. So right - this totally could be a blessing in disguise. We can never see this while we are in the thick of it. Much love to you and your family.
Grateful that you are keeping a positive attitude and I do hope you celebrate your achievements.
Checking in, day 8. I am in bed now after a lovely, warm bath. It was much needed after the rain at football training. Definitely Autumn rain rather than summer now 
We had an old school Friday night after, me and the kids. Fish and chips with tango (just chips and curry sauce for me), followed by ice cream. I loved it 
Women’s football too.
Now I am in bed already tired enough to sleep. Don’t want to make that mistake though as then I will wake up later.
Congratulations on your huge milestone @HoofHearted Really sorry to hear about your wife’s job. It sounds like she will be in demand but must be really unsettling.
day 569 of no self harm
remember how I was upset about not being able to teach? I decided I’ll focus on my college work for now. my next class starts Monday. I open it today to discover I have to volunteer at a daycare for at least 5 hours this semester and find somebody willing to mentor me. by October 1st. I’m really freaking out. i don’t think I can physically or mentally do that. nothing ever works out for me
I’ve been feeling like I did when I was 14 and ended up in a psych ward. never thought I’d get back to that place. the only difference is I’m not self harming
I ended up dropping the class and switching it for something else. (math). there will be two classes that I’ll have to do this but I’m going to try to take those last and hopefully I’ll be better mentally and physically by then (I’m nowhere near close to finishing my degree it’ll be at least a year and half before I have to take those)
Second check in,
Contrast between the treatment centre and tonight couldn’t be bigger. Doubted whether I should go after my release this afternoon but I played some competition tennis and won my match . It was nice to feel normal again in a sense and being with my teammates.
Greetz 
Congratulations on five years, marvelous 
Sounds like a good afternoon 
21
Latenight checkin…
Yeah I am a granny girl, 10.30 pm
is late-night to me 
I had a big thing to manage today, as one of the weels of my car was defect and I was not able to drive anymore. On my way to the pool. Everything went well without big extra costs. The circumstances were heavy as I didn’t have ANY paper with me, no credit card, ID card, drivers license or cash. Only 3€ and a seasonal card for the pool! 
A poor vagabond 
I convinced the guy with a low quality scan of my ID card I saved in a cloud. Normally he was not allowed to accept that. 
Promise to take my papers with me in the future.
If I would have been hangoverish…
I wouldn’t have been able to manage it all very calm and relaxed. Car is fit again.
My mind is fit and clear too.
And so I will bring that head sober on pillow once more 
.Checking in.
Trying to maintain a feeling of gratitude but it’s hard. I don’t prefer arguments with my mom but it’s really draining me. I pray that my mom and i can have a civil conversation before she is lost to dementia of any kind.
3 weeks!!! You’re doing great.
Can’t post in my normal thread, so I’ll post it here. Milestone reached for no disordered eating, we got this!
Checking in at 2 months. Still going strong and I haven’t really had any cravings lately. I got my blood test results today and my doctor said they were “pristine”; everything looked fantastic! I was so shocked that he heard it in my voice over the phone and reassured me that this is good news lol! Very happy about this and it’s one less stressor in my life.
Oof that’s tough. Sorry to hear your plans have to be put on hold. I hope she can transition to a new job easily.
WOW!!! Congratulations!!! I totally get how hard it is to even get one day. Im super proud of u for getting 2 weeks!!
Congratulations on 2 whole months!!! So glad to hear that ur blood work was all good! That mustve been a huge relief to know everything is okay 
Congratulations Julia on 3 weeks!!! Im so incredibly proud of all the hard work ur putting into ur recovery 
Thank you
Thank you It really was! Not taking my health for granted any more!
Hi everyone I have my own thread titled my last drink and I’m 3 days and a little over 16 hours into my journey and it’s been good so far.
I try to stay busy and so on but out of all days today was a great day no complaints at all but app day I have been craving a drink.
I hate this so much because I know I’m not going to relapse but I can’t stop the cravings. I’m about to work on cleaning my house some more to keep busy but does anyone have any idea on how I can stop these awful cravings and thoughts about wanting a drink?
I’m not going to give in i know it but for some reason today is my hardest day cravings wise……
Evening Check In
Day 586
I really couldve used the extra rest today but I chose to spend it with my mom. Its her last day here in my city and so I wanted to spend quality time with her. I went for a lovely walk with her and my son thru the huge park behind my building. The fall weather really brightened up all the leaves and made it such a nice walk. We even did a fall photo shoot with my son. So i got some great pictures of him!
My husband came home and then my mom said her goodbyes and she left. I miss her and am grateful for the time I had with her.
My husband secured another tattoo with a coworker so he received the deposit for that. He gave me a couple hundred dollars for spending money which Im so grateful for, but at the same time i was triggered by having that kind of extra cash just on me. I am going to think of what i can spend it on. Maybe hit up a thrift store next week and see what good clothes i can find (I love thrifting). And then maybe I can purchase another virtual Conqueror Challenge for my workouts. Idk. But i did have to talk myself out of that thinking. Had to play the tape to the end and really get real about how my life was 586 days ago.
I am just getting my son to bed now and then I will get ready for work tmrw. Do some self care and get a good rest hopefully. I HAVE to get back to my spirituality. I feel soooo disconnected from my HP and I guarentee thats part of the reason why im having urges to use. My spiritual defenses arent up.
Anyway, i hope u all are doing well. Its sooo nice to see people taking milestones and new people arriving and others coming back. I love this community. Have a goodnight 
