Day 348
Had therapy and vented my frustrations. And I’m feeling a little better to have had an outlet. This one is my preferred one, but I’ve been so busy with all the changes. So for now, that will have to do.
I hope y’all are all having a happy Friday 
OK this just sounds insane and like someone is taking their high horse very seriously. I am sorry you are experiencing such blatant Bull Shit. Hoping that all of this resolves quickly for you and your hubby (fingers crossed that he does not have to return to the UK). Grateful to see you doing so well with 251 days and keeping your sobriety in tact. We can’t battle these stresses when we are under the influence. Stay strong Amy
@MooseTracks Congrats on accepting the new job! 
@Deelzebub How are you beautiful? Hoping that this Friday is treating you with warmth, love and kindness
@Scorpn Grateful for therapy and how it’s helping you. My inbox is always open to you dear friend. Don’t hesitate to use it.
Checking in on Friday morning
I am grateful for being awake and well and enjoying this beautiful day in front of me. It is now noon here and I am going to attempt a shower and some light stretches. I do plan to make the most of my day and will be working on strengthening my spiritual connection with myself and my HP. Loving my goals for today 
I am well caffeinated so i would say totally able to take on my challenges 
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
Checking in, 84 days sober.
Dennis 3rd day have a fever, without paracetamol it’s 39-40°C. Yesterday evening he started complaining that it hurts when he wants to pee so today I luckily managed to bring his urine for checkup (I was little bit worried how I’m gonna do this cause he’s still wearing diapers but he just peed to this little container, no problem). It’s Friday so ofcourse we won’t know anything till Monday 
They made some quick check at the Dr and his urine is not clear, they had to send it to laboratory… Poor boy.
Man, how they are fighting… Sometimes they are getting so wild, it scares me when I think about the future 
Some days ago I’ve seen on FB short vid from Peaky Blinders when main character (Tomy? I don’t remember…) is talking with his brothers on some meeting pointing on them screaming No Fighting! No fighting! No fucking fighting!!! and its really my life now 
I’m screaming No fighting! so many times a day. Before it was What do you have in your mouth?! Spit it out!! Thousands of time every day. I believe No fighting! gonna stay with us for a while (till they gonna move out probably). I love this little fuckers so much.
Hi @JazzyS Thanks for thinking of me. I’m still struggling a lot today. I managed the yoga class but when I got out of class I noticed there were several missed calls from my daughters school. My brain has been in such a fog that I filled out the end of day collection form out wrongly which meant a whole bus load of kids were home an hour or so late. It’s alerted me to the fact I’m not coping and so I’ve emailed the headteacher to let her know my situation.
Also, the strikes in the school are not teaching staff which means the kids are still expected to keep up with their lessons online. I’m feeling dread at the thought of next week.
We’re just about to get some food delivered so that may help my mood a little.
Thanks Jasmine, it is completely bat-shit insane and I’m losing the will to live. It’s just a constant battle to get these pieces of paper together only to be then told that we need more pieces of paper…
Anyway, hope you have a wonderful Friday of achieving your goals. Hope you’re not in as much pain anymore.
Checking in on day 89, feeling good, especially because it’s Friday and I have the weekend off 
Haven’t had much time to catch up on here lately, hope you all are well 
@Mischa84 Oh man love - i’m so sorry your little one is not feeling good. Just saw your selfie and I want to reach out and hug him :hug:
So smart of you to already take a sample to the doctor rather than wait for them to try and schedule and then having to wait longer. I do hope you get results quickly and he starts to feel better soon.
@Deelzebub Glad you did get to the yoga class today and do hope the food helps your mood. i know on my best days, i drop the ball at times. You have been dealing with a lot and i do hope you give yourself some grace. Grateful that you did reach out to the headteacher. I do hope they are understanding. Don’t worry about next week love - i’m sure things will work out smoothly. Just concentrate on today
@amy30 Oh love - i just want to give you a big hug and let you know that things will get easier. I am so sorry that you are being pushed to such an emotional edge. This system is bat-shit insane.
This made me tear up. I can sense your frustration over the weeks and I am so sorry you are being tested like this. Stand strong Amy. We are here with you and know you can survive this too.
Checking back in after a long time off here.
I’m almost done day 2 no alcohol.
I spent the last 2 weeks trying to ween my self down to 0 drinks a day. I haven’t posted for a while, thought I had it under control but here I am again. I do so good for so long than I slowly get right back at it and it gets worse each time. This is my 3rd time trying to stay sober. At this point I’m just tired of it.
I know I just have to stay away from alcohol I fall right back into the same cycle every time. Smoking was so easy to kick the habit I just stopped buying cigarettes but this feels like a curse.
That’s my rant for now. I just needed to post to have something to look back on to keep me motivated for tomorrow.
Congrats to everyone with weeks, months, years Sober. That’s what I’m aiming for.
so lovely to see you back on the check in thread and doing so well 
50 days is awesome my friend – keep up the amazing work!!!
Checking in. Today is my 5th sober anniversary.
My wife, bread winner and smasher of the patriarchy, was fired yesterday. They are giving her about 8 weeks to finish projects and to transfer duties to another team. How nice of them /s. She’s not worried (so she says), she’s a well known leader in her small, but in demand industry. However, the news certainly changes our immediate plans in the coming months. So now everything is on hold while we revert back to ramen dinner as we get as lean as possible.
A lot can happen in 8 weeks, so I am trying not to stress about it and keeping business as usual. But I need to be ready to pivot if need be. We’ll be alright. I’m sure this is a blessing in disguise.
Never again Dan! Huge congrats friend. Sorry for your wife’s job but sure something better will come her way. I hope you’ll celebrate today!
Congratulations on 5 years!!! Well done 
Tough stuff. I hate that sinking feeling in your guts you get with that kind of news. My husband was laid off after I quit my job due to burnout and that was the catalyst for us to move back to the Midwest and start a new life. It was a long road but we are grateful things went the way that they did and are happy with the life that we crafted as a result. It sounds like your wife has a desired skill set and I wish you all the best in the next steps. Hang in there and try to trust the process through this stressful time.
And I already shared my congrats on the Friday thread but I gotta post Beevis and Butthead again!!! You and your 5 years are rockin’!
Welcome back to your sobriety journey and way to go on 1+ days
Alcohol is everywhere – its societies go to for celebration for dealing with grief … i mean really any emotion is treated by alcohol. This is such horseshit and what makes this so disease so hard. We have to remember that we can’t moderate, we can’t just have that one.
The lovely part of sobriety is that we start learning how to deal with our feelings rather than snuffing them.
So grateful that you have come to this lovely community - i do believe that we can support each other and keep us focused.
Keep coming back my friend – checking in here regularly helps keep us accountable - you are stronger than this addiction and we got your back!
Congratulations on your 5 years, that is a big milestone and I hope you can honor your journey, if you are so inclined!
Sorry to hear about your wife’s job. Not a fan of that feeling of upheaval and unsurety. It sounds like she will turn this into an opportunity. Certainly the timing speaks to new beginnings ahead. 
Hey Dan — marvelous job on your 5 years my friend! This is such a great way to start Friday!
I am sorry to hear about your wife’s job situation. You are right - a lot can happen in 8 weeks. Sounds like your wife has a very useful specific skill set and will be in demand. Hoping everything works out for the best. So right - this totally could be a blessing in disguise. We can never see this while we are in the thick of it. Much love to you and your family.
Grateful that you are keeping a positive attitude and I do hope you celebrate your achievements.
Checking in, day 8. I am in bed now after a lovely, warm bath. It was much needed after the rain at football training. Definitely Autumn rain rather than summer now 
We had an old school Friday night after, me and the kids. Fish and chips with tango (just chips and curry sauce for me), followed by ice cream. I loved it 
Women’s football too.
Now I am in bed already tired enough to sleep. Don’t want to make that mistake though as then I will wake up later.
Congratulations on your huge milestone @HoofHearted Really sorry to hear about your wife’s job. It sounds like she will be in demand but must be really unsettling.
day 569 of no self harm
remember how I was upset about not being able to teach? I decided I’ll focus on my college work for now. my next class starts Monday. I open it today to discover I have to volunteer at a daycare for at least 5 hours this semester and find somebody willing to mentor me. by October 1st. I’m really freaking out. i don’t think I can physically or mentally do that. nothing ever works out for me
I’ve been feeling like I did when I was 14 and ended up in a psych ward. never thought I’d get back to that place. the only difference is I’m not self harming
I ended up dropping the class and switching it for something else. (math). there will be two classes that I’ll have to do this but I’m going to try to take those last and hopefully I’ll be better mentally and physically by then (I’m nowhere near close to finishing my degree it’ll be at least a year and half before I have to take those)
Second check in,
Contrast between the treatment centre and tonight couldn’t be bigger. Doubted whether I should go after my release this afternoon but I played some competition tennis and won my match . It was nice to feel normal again in a sense and being with my teammates.
Greetz
Congratulations on five years, marvelous 
