Sounds like a good afternoon 
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Latenight checkinā¦
Yeah I am a granny girl, 10.30 pm
is late-night to me 
I had a big thing to manage today, as one of the weels of my car was defect and I was not able to drive anymore. On my way to the pool. Everything went well without big extra costs. The circumstances were heavy as I didnāt have ANY paper with me, no credit card, ID card, drivers license or cash. Only 3ā¬ and a seasonal card for the pool! 
A poor vagabond 
I convinced the guy with a low quality scan of my ID card I saved in a cloud. Normally he was not allowed to accept that. 
Promise to take my papers with me in the future.
If I would have been hangoverishā¦
I wouldnāt have been able to manage it all very calm and relaxed. Car is fit again.
My mind is fit and clear too.
And so I will bring that head sober on pillow once more 
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.Checking in.
Trying to maintain a feeling of gratitude but itās hard. I donāt prefer arguments with my mom but itās really draining me. I pray that my mom and i can have a civil conversation before she is lost to dementia of any kind.
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3 weeks!!! Youāre doing great.
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Canāt post in my normal thread, so Iāll post it here. Milestone reached for no disordered eating, we got this!
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Checking in at 2 months. Still going strong and I havenāt really had any cravings lately. I got my blood test results today and my doctor said they were āpristineā; everything looked fantastic! I was so shocked that he heard it in my voice over the phone and reassured me that this is good news lol! Very happy about this and itās one less stressor in my life.
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Oof thatās tough. Sorry to hear your plans have to be put on hold. I hope she can transition to a new job easily.
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WOW!!! Congratulations!!! I totally get how hard it is to even get one day. Im super proud of u for getting 2 weeks!!
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Congratulations on 2 whole months!!! So glad to hear that ur blood work was all good! That mustve been a huge relief to know everything is okay 
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Congratulations Julia on 3 weeks!!! Im so incredibly proud of all the hard work ur putting into ur recovery 
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Thank you 
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Thank you It really was! Not taking my health for granted any more!
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Hi everyone I have my own thread titled my last drink and Iām 3 days and a little over 16 hours into my journey and itās been good so far.
I try to stay busy and so on but out of all days today was a great day no complaints at all but app day I have been craving a drink.
I hate this so much because I know Iām not going to relapse but I canāt stop the cravings. Iām about to work on cleaning my house some more to keep busy but does anyone have any idea on how I can stop these awful cravings and thoughts about wanting a drink?
Iām not going to give in i know it but for some reason today is my hardest day cravings wiseā¦ā¦
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Evening Check In
Day 586
I really couldve used the extra rest today but I chose to spend it with my mom. Its her last day here in my city and so I wanted to spend quality time with her. I went for a lovely walk with her and my son thru the huge park behind my building. The fall weather really brightened up all the leaves and made it such a nice walk. We even did a fall photo shoot with my son. So i got some great pictures of him!
My husband came home and then my mom said her goodbyes and she left. I miss her and am grateful for the time I had with her.
My husband secured another tattoo with a coworker so he received the deposit for that. He gave me a couple hundred dollars for spending money which Im so grateful for, but at the same time i was triggered by having that kind of extra cash just on me. I am going to think of what i can spend it on. Maybe hit up a thrift store next week and see what good clothes i can find (I love thrifting). And then maybe I can purchase another virtual Conqueror Challenge for my workouts. Idk. But i did have to talk myself out of that thinking. Had to play the tape to the end and really get real about how my life was 586 days ago.
I am just getting my son to bed now and then I will get ready for work tmrw. Do some self care and get a good rest hopefully. I HAVE to get back to my spirituality. I feel soooo disconnected from my HP and I guarentee thats part of the reason why im having urges to use. My spiritual defenses arent up.
Anyway, i hope u all are doing well. Its sooo nice to see people taking milestones and new people arriving and others coming back. I love this community. Have a goodnight 
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Congratulations on your 2 weeks Jenny.
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Cravings are definitely tough to experience. I think what has helped me in the past in early early days is to find something that satisfies an urge for a treat. A bit of ice cream or candy or cookie. I definitely gave in to the sugar to help get through those early cravings and I am grateful that helped me. Sparkling waters also helped tremendously. I could pop a can of La Croix water and it gave me what I needed in the moment. Breathing exercises helped a lot, too (google box breathing). In the hardest moments I read through the list of reasons I wanted to quit and that gave me the edge I needed. You can do this and I promise it will get easier.
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Great Job Daniellegurl.
Those first few days/ weeks are a real bitch.
Have you heard of HALT ?
Sometimes we forget whatās really going on like have I eaten. And I tired.
Thereās also great thread Brian started on how he uses it. Itās good reading.
Hang in there.
Great job reaching out.
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@sadmemequeen I am happy to hear that you switched up your schedule. I do agree that you will be able to deal with these classes later on when you are feeling better.
@rob11 wow man its great to hear that you are played and enjoyed competition tennis today. 
Ah friend ā Iām so sorry how straining your relationship with your mom is. I do hope that you are able to keep up a civil conversation 
@jenny1972 CONGRATS on your 2 weeks! This is amazing
@try2change 2 months is amazing! So grateful for your pristine blood results!
@daniellegurl you are doing so great with your 3+ days of sobriety. I am super proud of your efforts. I am so sorry for the cravings. I know you are keeping busy ā this would be my advice to keep the urges at bay. Avoid triggers and possibly do exercises so that you can release endorphins. Stay hydrated. The cravings do lessen as you stack on the days. Stay connected here or on your on line meetings. We got your back friend ā keep strong 
@butterflymoonwoman Love that you were able to spend some time with your mom. Also ā a fall photo shoot with your son ā this is fantastic ā I love it so much I am with you on needed to reconnect with our spiritual side. So true that our connections with our HP is what is needed to keep strong and avoid the temptations. We can and will do this love!
Checking in on Friday morning
275 days free of alcohol and weed
690 days free of cigarettes
I am grateful for a great day. I was able to get a lot of small work done and even managed an impromptu short walk. I do have some tests next week so hoping for some indication on what is causing my inflammation.
Ready for a restful night. Sweet dreams my beautiful friends. Sending you all so much love
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Day 97 alcohol free
What a week. Today Iām particular I thought would never end. It just drug on and on.
House sitting for friends and I had such an urge to drink. This particular friend had alcohol everywhere. Beer, ciders, wine and hard alcohol. For the first time in awhile I started reasoning with myself that I could certainly have a glass of wine. No one would know. I could have a drink and it would be ok. What in the world.
This particular friend kind of mocked me as she walked out the door about helping myself to Amy if the wine. I told her I wasnāt drinking and she kinda said I heard. Not sure what that meant. I donāt know if that planted the seed it what. Iām glad I did not and that I was able to distract myself by reaching out to another friend.
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Emotional day 4:
Today has been draining, packing day for my girlfriend. The yin and yang of emotions was powerful throughout the day, but the emotions were needed and made for a pretty good day together.
We got her car packed fairly efficiently, went to the store to buy food for dinner. I grilled porkchops and made mashed cauliflower, dinner was great. Then we went outside to enjoy the cool, early fall night.
This is when the sadness took over. We were sitting around our firepit, a place we love, and the emotions took over, much heavier than i thought they would be. We came inside and i put her in bed. I had to come down to the couch because if i stayed there she wouldnāt have stopped crying, not sure i would have either.
She leaves at 6:00 am.
Emotional day, still sober and so happy Iāve been sober to spend these last two days with her.
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