Thank you, I will have to give that a read. Appreciate the suggestion!
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Day 1009,
Still a lot of thinking and avoidance. But gonna use my planning app so I get things done again. Head still wonāt stop. Slept really a lot went to bed at 8 pm 
. Geus my body needs it after the intense weeks. Avoiding my sponsor, feel that it triggers to much. So have to find a way, maybe just my way.
Greetz 
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Good morning from Scotland, Autumn is certainly on its way, a change in the air, birds starting to migrate in there drovesā¦ Checking in here on Day 1220, have a lovely day/night where ever you are 
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Welcome to the TS fam!! 
this is a great community with a lot of support! Congrats on a year and a half already in the books!! 
thatās amazing work youāve already put in. Keep going!!! 
I hope you find the support you are looking for here!
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Glad you were content at home and sober! I know youāve been having a rough go of it recently, so Iām happy you (and your pup) checked in. Sometimes we just need some quiet with manās best friend to make our soul happy! I hope content is the theme for the rest of your weekend! Keep going!!!
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Day 253.
Yeah. No. The amount of stress Iām under has started to physically affect me. Parts of my face are going numb and Iām slightly dizzy.
Thereās a child (by child I mean edgy teenager) in the buiding next to mine who started hurling abuse at me everytime he has friends over and they go out on the balcony for a cigarette.
Iāve been ignoring it and pretending not to hear it, but it is upsetting. Especially as I used to be bullied mercilessly by my peers when I was that age. So being back here, everytime I walk past a group of kids I brace myself and feel this niggle of panic as I expect them to say something cruel.
They never do. Iām a 33 year old woman and when the neighbourhood kids do approach me they call me māaam and politely ask to pet my dog.
Butā¦ the anxiety is still there. And this little shit from the block next door feels safe enough to spout vile words at me as weāre not technically face-to-face.
At least Iām moving tomorrow. Thatās also stressful, but the new place is quieter, and (hopefully) has no edgy teens next door.
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Thanks for kind wordsā¦just putting this out there Iām actually starting to come out it
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Just putting this out thereā¦after 2wks of almost no sleep no energy n barely eating
Im actually starting to feel better
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Sorry to hear your physical hurt by all the stress. When a therapist asked me last week what do you do with this tension when youāre at home. I was like, hmmm breath maybe? He let me release it via kicking a ball, throwing and boxing and of course screaming. It released a lot. Maybe just an ideaā¦ā¦
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Amazing news, well done 
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Really hope the move goes well and you can escape the meanness. That is really tough. My stress manifests physically too, have been admitted to hospital twice with a possible stroke due to all the odd neuro symptoms. It is amazing how strong the brain, mind, body connection is. Hope you can release some of that stress soon. I like @Rob11 suggestions.
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Packing time. Itās been too short. But I knew that when I booked this trip. Still happy I did. Itās been a great 9 days. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from the Hill Country.
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Welcome aboard @Looking4Support.
Glad youāre here with us. I find a lot of support here by just reading through the threads. It really keeps me busy and thereās so much wisdom and advice hereā¦ itās amazing. This forum really makes a difference for me on my sobriety journey.
Have a wonderful sober Sunday everyone and thank you all for your support.
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I love the authenticity and pride of letting your sober self be really seen by people who knew you at a different time. I have felt shame around that when people have seen me at a terrible state, and then through times of sobriety, and then when Iāve returned to using.
It brings up fear that they see me how I have seen myself during those moments - as someone uncommitted, undecided, weak. I am trying to reframe these thoughts as someone who is doing their best to make positive changes within themselves and not giving up, and to acknowledge the strength in that. The messaging around āYou should know better. Why havenāt you learned yet?ā Is harmful for me yet so drilled into my mind. Iām still working on my shame there.
Thank you for sharing. Enjoy your dart league, sounds very fun.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1197. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Checking in on day 62
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Checking in on day 74. Happy Sunday, all, and keep racking up those sober days!
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Day 12.
Checking in. Recovery first. Have a wonderful day TS family.,
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Day 9
Rainy here, looking forward to playing with watercolors today. Building new habits slowly. T
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@Dazercat @JazzyS @Butterflymoonwoman
Thank you all so much! It feels absolutely amazing to have 3 months under my belt! Have an amazing weekend all! 
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