Oh Delia
This made me so happy to read first thing this morning.
Yes - vitamin d is my life savor. I had to take super high doses for a few days (as we can’t take for too long) and even now am in 5000 per day…let me tell you- I feel the difference if I skip.
Have a fantastic day 
Hey all, checking in on day 1199. I hope everybody has a good one!
Our minds / brains are amazing! They really do work overtime in protecting us.
I know my therapist once explained that when we deal with trauma or a really difficult situation as a child then we lock up that feeling and possibly memories associated with that feeling in a cabinet. We do this throughout our childhood…some of us are able to unpack these as we grow and some keep adding on.
As we grown and feel a similar hurt or pain - our brain immediately puts it with the “like” pain or in some instances creates a whole new cabinet.
Totally possible to have either blocked or or greyed over the the parts your brain found to be bad. Have a journal to look back on let’s us know that we aren’t making things up as our mind starts to open up these cabinets.
I’m sorry love…I know it is so difficult to deal with past emotions and memories. We are here if you need to talk. 
Day 1159
Had a couple of days of getting stuff wrong, misplacing stuff, etc. Just feel like I am not doing this adulting thing correctly. But at least I can deal with it all with a clear head, and it is nothing so serious as sickness, unemployment, etc. Need to count my blessings, as there is plenty to be grateful for.
Checking in at 9 days and coming in hot!
Forgot how good is feels to be me 
Wow what an amazing testament to your discipline and resilience! congratulations!
Day 54
Just checking in.
I love that. I just wrote out my 7 day plan and one of the categories is I’m letting go of…Top thing for me is that negative thinking. Living in my regrets does nothing but push me back towards addiction, so i refuse to do it. “All things must pass, just be.” Love it. Thanks for sharing.
I am so glad you came here to share the burden. I have felt how you are feeling many times, just remember you are Loved, you are not alone, and you have us to lean on when you’re feeling low
Day 351.
I haven’t had much time to read here, but I want to say I am thankful for each of you and I am happy to be here.
25
Checking in 
Day 11 with no alcohol.
Working on harm reduction for cannabis use ( one thing at a time for me). Posting that to be transparent and honest
Feeling ok today,
T.
This is my first post. Yesterday was day five for me. It was an extremely difficult evening due to cravings, stressors and fatigue. My partner, soon to be ex, continues to drink so alcohol is still in my house. This is my 3rd time trying to quit alcohol. I made it 3 months last years but relationship and financial stressors took over. I am making huge life changes and hope to move out of state and start a new job by the end of the year. Second round of interviews coming up. Whew. This was really hard to write. Reading all of the posts both the ups and downs have had a meaningful impact. Thanks
Checking in on day 35… had to dig really deep on some days but still going strong 
Welcome, great to have you here. It sounds like you have a lot going on so congratulations on the 5 days. You are definitely doing the right thing, facing things sober. Good luck with everything!
Day
5 no forms of marijuana
139 no drinking
70 no vaping or cigs
I’ve learned the magic behind dark roast coffee
I drink coffee black and I like it strong. When id drink medium roast I make it with a lot of coffee grounds. It can upset my belly and give me anxiety.
Dark roast has less caffeine and I can use less coffee.
And I’m at work as always
Driving class tomorrow
Take care everyone
Checking in on day 76.
Be well everyone, and here’s to another sober day, no matter how many days you have, we all desire another day of freedom, so let’s all do it!
Checking in on day 93
Hope you all are having a good day, sending strength and serenity 
Day 1011,
Not a total bad day. Came out of bed relatively early. Had a phonecall with a doctor of the treatment centre. Checking how I’m doing and how the adhd medication goes. Was nice to talk to her, walked through some stuff and findings. Which was ok to do with her, but it hit me again how much it is. Adopting to everything, anything, everyone all of my life is hard to grasp, they say it’s a part of adhd. The biggest kameleon alive. My trauma’s are not standard, I just incorporated everything in my body or something like that, that’s why the EMDR might have been fruitless. It got me we’re I’m right now. She said that it’s ok not to wake up each day really early and just take time for it. Self-pity is still there, but I’m glad I went to this diagnostic centre, it feels like they did a solid job. It doesn’t make things easier, but it gives direction how to proceed.
After that went for a nap, just snapped out of a dream with some anxiety.
Contact with sponsor yesterday went mwa. Don’t feel the connection there, again a lot of unhelpful one liners in my opinion. He has adhd himself he says, but was never diagnosed, he had very large doses of medication in the past (just addiction in my opinion). I know I’m judging now. There’s is just tension between us, both avoiding conflict. Made an appointment for next week face to face, see what comes out of it.
As expressed before I don’t know what to do at the moment. Also again looking for outside validation whether I do the right thing. My addiction feels just like one of my lesser problems at the moment.
Pfff became a bit of a ramble
Greetz