Glad you are here and taking the positive steps that you are. Lots of people feel like checking in routinely on this thread helps keep them focused … and accountable. Welcome to you!
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Kind of productive day work wise and eating wise, but I’m in knots. My sister and her partner are being threatened with physical abuse by neighbours over a dispute (a long and pretty harrowing story). They wanted £300 GBP to all be friends again…
My sister instead called the police and relayed the whole story to them. Anyway it’s been going on three weeks now, and she’s refused to give in to what is extortion. She’s had CCTV installed, got an ongoing crime number with the police. The neighbours are fucking relentless, he or she keep coming over to knock the door, threaten… My sister has three dogs that need walking and now she’s too scared to leave the house or eat or answer the door.
The guy has promised them he’s gonna show them what he’s got now…
I can’t sleep myself over these last few weeks well. What can I do? It’s my little sister and my heart just hurts for her 
. The police have been quite useless and I just feel they would only turn up at a crime scene. How do I cope? I can’t bear much more of this and hearing my sister daily scared and alone and worried and having a nervous breakdown. I don’t live nearby, we are both estranged from both of our parents and siblings. I feel so fucking powerless and scared as well.
Why are people so vile? My sister has done nothing wrong, the police confirmed this. In fact, I’ve had serious thoughts that this is extortion from the start.
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That sounds awful, your poor sister. I am so sorry. Honestly what is wrong with this country right now?? I should probably stop there before I go off on a political rant, but it makes me so sad to see so many services dwindling. The police should be supporting your sister.
I hope there is a peaceful resolution 
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Checking in, Day 12. I was doing well, managed the gym after work, but now feel like my migraine is back.
I had cravings earlier but nothing too bad.
Thanks so much @JazzyS for your kind words. I did indeed dig up that seed of doubt and stomp on it 
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Day 94, second check in. All ok. Just staying focussed. Watching Indiana Jones. Still v little contact from my kids. Work is good. Being married feels so stabilising for me after a few years of feeling a bit rootless
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Day 4
Last time I hit day 4 I relapsed. Woke up with a spirit of heaviness and didn’t know what hit me. I cried and weeped, had all kinds of emotions and feelings hitting me at once. I didn’t know what was going on, then I used. About 20 minutes after using the feelings and emotions abated. I demanded answers from my higher power. I wanted to know what happened. Gratefully I was answered. Because I have been using since I was 14 and now I’m 54, my body was feeling emotions that I’ve suppressed while using. Not only that, it was having withdrawals.
So here I am again at day 4, low and behold here comes the feelings and emotions. Didn’t want to go to work, but needed to get up. Gave myself permission to take baby steps and evaluate my decision every hour. Made it for 3 hours. Called my sponsor and talked with her for a good while.
Bottom line, I learned from my last relapse and am grateful for it. This time I was ready. This time I had a plan… and have a plan for the next time I feel in crisis. This time I stayed clean.
Have a positive day on purpose and a great 24 
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It’s awful, she really feels that her and her fiancé life is at threat. No one should live that way, these people are gangsters… Local thugs. I’m so scared for her, my anxiety is through the roof.
The police turn up at end game then report themselves for negligence… 
sorry, political.
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So sorry, that is awful. Must be really tough on you too 
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Second check in. Still day 204. Resumed my life after covid today, back at the gym for aquacise class and some time in the sauna. I really enjoyed it, but got a migraine in the afternoon.
My other half left for a business trip this morning and won’t be back until Saturday. Having the evenings to myself usually meant stocking up on wine bottles and spending each evening drinking without having someone to comment on the amount. So yeah, it’s on my mind tonight… a lot!
But I’m having apple juice, watching Bake Off. And will put sober head on my pillow soon.
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@mno I do hope everything went well for you today. We are with you friend – I’m sure today will be an emotional day. 
@holysquid YEAH!!! This is great news 
@starlight14 hey beautiful how did your day go today. I am a little late in checking in – I do hope you were able to do some selfcare and found healthy ways to distract yourself and stay positive. You are absolutely killing it in sobriety, being an amazing mom and such a lovely woman (giving so many a shoulder to lean on and being there for those ladies at school). I do hope you start to see the wonderful person that we all see in you.
@thumper1213 Way to go on 50 days! Keep them days coming 
Coming in hot – I like that love—double digits tomorrow! You are doing great!—keep it up
@Saturn81 and @SadMemeQueen how are you ladies doing?
@rnbyday Welcome to the community! Great job on day 5! This is the one time to focus on – this time you can with a support system and a solid plan keep adding on the sober days. Great job on joining us here – love this check in thread for accountability and feeling like I’m among friends. Great to have you here with us.
@becs nicely done Becs – I do hope it gets easier for you – great job in digging deep – we are right alongside you my friend.
@noshame Nice numbers my friend!! OOH the love for dark roast coffee – YUMMY It is my go to for sure! Enjoy every drop 
@nikki89 Welcome back Nicole! Are you able to get or start a meeting / recovery group? We are here for you my friend – talk to us (putting out your frustrations and urges here may help lessen their hold on you).
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Thank you Jazz that means alot, i dont know whats bothering me so much, when i woke up today i felt dread for the first time in ages…just reading your lovely message there made me feel tearful, this is not like me at all…i feel unsettled and really low…im actually hoping its hormones or something and that it will pass xx
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I’m hanging in there, struggling but here
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it definitely wouldn’t be easier, we can do this
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Oh Mira – just big hugs and loads of love to you my friend. I do hope you are successful in ending the self shaming. You are so incredibly strong and have to deal with so much right now – I am grateful that you are doing so sober and with a clear head. Grateful that you are able to come here and talk with us and that this interaction helps. 
@juli1 you are crushing it daily with your commitments and now your recovery support. Keep working on utilizing your tools. So many positive changes happening for you with job and home and education to name a few. Keep strong my friend
@tragicfarinelli OMG friend – I can’t even with people right now. HOW nasty can people be? I am so sorry that this is happening to your sister. So damn disappointed with the police. It sucks being so far away and feeling helpless. Does she have friends in the area that may be able to help? This whole situation is such bullying bullshit. Again – I am verry sorry that you and your sister are dealing with this.
@jennyh Yeah to getting to the gym and getting in a work out! Well done on stomping that seed out!
Grateful for this feeling! Sorry about your kids – I do hope that changes in time. Doing fantastic with 94 days!
Great job on day 4 and recognizing whre the feelings are coming from. Grateful that you did call your sponsor and working through this emotional time.
I do hope that this passes soon for you. Oh them fucking hormones (if that is what’s causing this mind / mood shift). I do hope you took time to just love your inner self and give yourself some comfort
@sadmemequeen and @ looking4support So sorry that you are both struggling today – glad to see you hanging in. We are here if you need to talk. I do hope your evening gets better.
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Checking in
Day 590
Feeling pretty tired lately. I think im still recovering from that overnight shift i had to do on sunday. Other than that, I think Im okay.
I went shopping yesterday and got an outfit (shoes, jeans, tank top, light jacket, and caridgan). Found some really good sales so thats why i was able to get as much as i could with the money i had. Grateful for recovery bcuz shopping like this never happened when I was using.
Im looking forward to some self care later. I really feel like I need it. I also feel like i need to take better care of myself overall. My eating is horrendous and i havent been active and moving my body very much. Tmrw that changes.
Anyway, i really need to get caught up on the reading here. Hope everyone is doing well though 
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16 days alcohol-free. feeling firm in my dedication. excited to have over two weeks sober, best decision ever, simply just want to continue 
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Thank you
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Thank you for the support! I see you out here sharing good energy! You are appreciated 
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