Actually I seem to have miscalculated, actually 1143 today! Sorry for my deception!
I did a mini Step 4 with my new sponsor (just what has happened this year). It is amazing how a non-professional can still pick out key themes (or maybe I am just easy to understand!). Thinking about those key themes, and how they link to my childhood, just made me so mad at my mother. A lack of unconditional love when a child is just so damaging. And I know all this in my head, but I still canāt logic myself out of the way I react to things.
In other news, I totally forgot that my daughter has a school trip tomorrow, and I had to suddenly make a lunch box for her. She is very sure about what she wants, but sober me is up to date with work, not hungover, and could make it no problem.
Taking it slow more attention for self-care. Aware of my negative thoughts on my current situation and worries. Gonna watch the new apartment of my parents this afternoon. Feels triggering just as everything but went to the supermarket and nothing bad happened.
This was gold Curtis. Such beautiful views to take in at work and then explore later ā love this for you! (sorry about the work being fucked up ā hope that gets better) @amy30 aaah love ā I too hope that your dad loses interest soon and you can go about decorating your place as you see fit. Fingers crossed for good news today! @looking4support and @hidden wishing for lovelier day for the both of you @barber508 it does take some time to adjust but man is it worth it! You can fight this addiction and enjoy the benefits of a addiction free life @tragicfarinelli Congrats on your sober time and way to spend the time awake in meetings to keep you focused. I know the timers can be screwy but do not let it deter you! You have and are continuing to put in some amazing efforts for your sobriety. Keep at it and the days will just stack on seamlessly. @benji1 Great work on your 1 week milestone! This is incredible ā keep working the tools and checking in ā you are stronger than this addiction @nordique 1200!!! Woot Woot This is a fabulous number @Qhob13 how are you doing love? Havenāt seen your lovely posts in a while. @Deelzebub Hope today is another brighter day for you my friend
Checking in on Wednesday morning
I am super exhausted but dressed and have downed one cup of coffee. Need to eat something cause itās going to be a long morning / afternoon. I will be helping out with the work shift at the hospital cafeteria today. I know itāll go smoothly - i always love seeing my lovely customers and chatting (apparently - i can chat lol). Looking forward to crawling into bed afterwards.
Hoping you all have a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all much love
Oct 13! And then a boot, and then my first PT appt the following Tues. 4 weeks after THAT i can start trying to walk againā¦ maybe sooner?! All depends on the healing i guess!!
Good morning love! Thanks for thinking about me! Itās been a busy few days. Did a bunch of yard work over the weekend so wasnāt on as much. And work has been super busy the last couple weeks, so donāt have as much scroll time. Bought Allen Carrās Easy Way to quit smoking on Monday so crammed that the last 2 days. Put out my final cigarette around 6pm last night. So far so good.