@binx lol you are too funny lady ā I appreciate you and believe me ā many times I read something and totally get a different meaning. This will be my second time renting out the place. My last tenants had to leave abruptly due to family emergency. They did leave me a brand new couch in the basement because it would cause more damage trying to take it out (LOL). I am hoping I get lucky with next rentersā¦ I am going through my realtor so that proper back ground checks can be done (the horror stories scare me). This was my first house and I never thought I would live anywhere else ā weird to see it now ā slowly loosing that attachment. How are you doing lately? Anxiety any better? @marlowe Double digits Hells yeah!! @pattycake 90days is amazing ā embrace that freedom my friend! @phone_home way to get your 1 week milestone and congrats on not feeling temped to drink. Keep up the amazing work. @trustybird OOF that sounds like an awful dream. Grateful you were able to soothe yourself from reading on the TS site. @just_laura Oh grateful that the car made it to the gas station - i know iāve had my heart in hand driving and praying many a time. Fingers crossed that it was a fluke - i know sometimes in the past if i wouldnāt drive my car daily it would act funny like it felt neglected. Now i can go days and it knows iām not going anywhere
Checking in on Tuesday morningā¦
Sleep was shit last night. I was in pain and then i was numb and then i was hot no wait cold and then the cycle started all over againā¦ WTF. I enjoyed a classic movie and then tried meditation and almost started to do work or check iin here but thought i would just enjoy the silence. It was nice.
I did practice a shit ton of gratitude in my mind ā I have not yet put it into words but will do so soon.
I am grateful that my brothers GF came by last night and I did not get annoyed with it - didnāt change up my routine and luckily she was gone before i woke up this morning.
I have had my coffee and am on my way to the house ā¦ hope to run some errands and then hopefully a nap in my future ā
Hope you all have a wonderful kickass addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
Today I made the step, back into working out.
I called my power back. I started with very little weight to not kill my muscles in the beginning.
Whatever Covid took away from me, itās mine and I want it back
Also I had the luck of seeing a very nice pharmacist who recommended something that helps with my sleep thatās non addictive.
Morning Yaāll
Tuesday " check in" for me means I survived the weekend! 10 days sober and actually LOVING IT!
The husband went back to work last night so another week alone and I am a little worried. Last week I hadots to do ( as well as healing my face!) but this week is a different story. Not much to do, garden has been taken care of, and house is clean. Hmmm ā¦what to do, besides not drink?
I also find I am eating a lot more in the last 10 days ā¦ and donāt like it! Anyone else find they are eating more than usual in their early days of sobriety? Is this normal?
And Iām craving sweets, havenāt had sugar in 8 years ā¦ wth is up with that??
Iām hoping to get through this week without that monkey on my back telling me to do dumb things!
Wishing you all a fabulous STRONG week
Hey guys just checking in. Hope you all are doing good. Been on here a little bit more and it seems like most of yous are. IOP and therapy going good. Finally first time ever I feel like I actually want to be sober, instead of just needing to be sober. Guess I finally stopped digging. Have a great rest of the day kids. Love yous
Totally normal to crave sweets. You are replacing all the sugar and empty calories from drinking. I found ice cream to be most comforting as it was cold and sweet.
Check out this link for ideas to keep yourself busyā¦idle time is the worst for the urges to sink in
itās been 3 years since my middle school best friend took his life. Iām really having a hard time. I woke up and felt ok but all my bad feelings manifested into nausea. and I have emetophobia so Iāve been having panic attacks off and on all day. Iām trying to write about it. itās hard but I think it needs to be out of my system. Iāll post a thread with what I wrote when Iām done
6 months,checking in.
Havenāt been here for a while. Hello everyone!
At six months I generally try to convince myself I can moderate my drinking. I cannot moderate my drinking and donāt need to prove it to myself again. I just needed to say that out loud. To people I know will understand.
I do understand exactly. This isnāt my first time here, but it is my longest (since pregnancy). This time I know for sure where Iāll end up if I take even just one drink. I keep that thought alive every day. Just one drink today could be the drink that kills me.
I came back here when I had 5 months. I just felt like I needed to do more and keep myself accountable. Sounds like youāre doing the same thing so awesome job! Keep coming back
Pretty good day apart from the pile up body crash in the swimming pool Feeling pretty chilled out today, relaxed but worked hard. Work is getting a tiny bit slower after a mental summer.
I have a tendency to have knee jerk reactions to stuff with work (being rushed, extra pressure) and I tend to say something that I regret about an hour later when I have cooled down a bit. I hate wingeing to be honest and I hate my own whining but I canāt stop myself. I really want to work on this, but in a way that I am genuinely chilled inside and let it all go. Definitely a character defect of mine.
Checking in on day 128 AF.
My mood has been better today. I wasnāt sick this morning for the first time in ages and I got off to the mid morning yoga class which I enjoyed. My teacher has offered to make me a cuppa before class tomorrow so thatās something to look forward to.
Hells yeah!!
Feeling pretty chilled out today, relaxed but worked hard. Work is getting a tiny bit slower after a mental summer.