Happy hump day. Day 15. Feeling good. My vitals are within spec and i have a positive attitude. Because of the snow the turnout was about 50 kids yesterday for trick or treating. That leaves me with about 150 little bags of candy to figure out how to use.
I have decided to reduce/ eliminate caffeine for now. I drink way too much coffee. Going through at least 1 pot a day
Have an awesome sober day my friends!
@liz22 how are you doing today? Was the nap / meeting helpful yesterday? Sending you strength to keep moving forward.
@englishd Those are some great costumes ā hope you all had a wonderful Halloween! 2189 days is impressive! 
@rob11 how are you doing today Rob? Hope all is well with your test results.
@hoss CONGRATS on moving into your new house! Grateful you finally got heat and internet 
@SadMemeQueen queen I am so sorry for the memories that this time of year brings up for you. Please do not punish yourself. If possible, find a way to honor and cherish the memory of your friend so that his spirit can live on with you. Sending you hugs and comfort my friend.
@hoofhearted That is an awesome looking garage Dan ā you have crushed it!!! So happy the kids and you had fun!
@juli1 61 days and a new attitude! Love it Jules ā keep moving forward and kicking addictions ass!
@LIMINAL.REHAB WOOT WOOT ā so good to see you checking in and at 8 months
@trustybird I find those thoughts creep in when we are tired or have our defenses down. After a 12 hour shift I can imagine that you would be exhausted. Grateful that you were strong enough to ignore that thought 
@looking4support Love that you are trying to be available for everyone and provide so much support. This is a vast community which operates 247 and it is hard to keep up with all the posts / stories. I know your heart is in the right place in wanting to make sure that no one post gets left behind or not responded to. As Sassy mentioned, by tagging someone to a post it puts that person in a position to answer and that person may not be in a good mental / physical space to do so at the time. I know its hard to leave someone on āreadā but it is best if we donāt have the right support to offer in that particular instance.
@dresdenlapage Best of luck with the new job today! You will be in the kitchen and you will be crushing it doing what you do best. I do get the need to be busy and the need to problem solve to keep moving forward but I have recently also realized that for me its exhausting and I need to slow my role. Still working on this so not giving advice just saying I understand where you are coming from.
@bunto great to see you checking in with a few days of sobriety and feeling the benefits of a healthier lifestyle. Have a wonderful day and hope to see you around.
@deelzebub 150 days and going strong love cozy morning when itās cold / nasty outside.
@jasty2 I see what you did - 
Thanks for the chuckle
@catmancam I am sorry to hear about your symptoms still lingering. Hope it is not an infection ā should you go see a doctor? Man- it sucks that your appointment got cancelled while you were on the way to it ā grateful you were able to get so much done. Excited for your haircut. I do love when you get the perfect look in progress ā hair grows fast so it wont be a long wait. I do hope you are able to rest today and feel better soon.
@Soberbilly hey SB - congrats on your triple 5ās. I do understand the need to step away - ready to lend an ear / shouder when if you need.
We are here waiting your return. You will be missed
Checking in on Wednesday morningā¦ i was riding high on Halloween energy yesterday. Felt fantastic. Feeling it today but have to go in to work for a few hours. Grateful to be able to rest afterwards. Today marks 2 years of not smoking for me and it feels amazing! I hope everyone has a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love :heart; 
Checking in for day 100 AF.
Triple digits!!! Keep strong and keep adding on the days 
Thanks bunch! Have a great day.
Checking, in, itās day 112. First day of November, yikes! Love seeing so much progress here.
Thank youā¦
Day 130, body clock is off so working 7_4 again. Work is going well. Going into work tomorrow and Friday which will be good 
good to get out the house
Day
2 no form of Marijuana
175 no alcohol
Day 106 no vapes or ciggs
Woke up late today at 11am
Very nice to sleep in
I had yesterday and today off
5 days ahead of me after today
Im ready to get to it
I hope you all have a good day 
Day 623 sober from alcohol. Time alone gave me lots to think about. My husband is still a daily drinker and it was nice to be alone for a few days but it also shed some light on some of my continued flaws. Iāll let all that percolate in my noggin as I slay the day. Onward trusty soberinos!
Congrats on your 12 days!!
I was busy and go go go as a younger person. Now, as an older person, way more zen. Do you is one of my many mantras. Work towards and with YOUR particular strengths. If busy works for you, stay busy.
Glad you are here.
Oh mate! Iāll meet you up there one day if you like?
Day 90
Just checking in.
61
Evening checkin.
At home sober.
Checking In
Day 626
Today has been pretty good so far! Thanks to recovery, i have met my financial goals for this year. My credit card was paid off not too long ago and now today my overdraft was paid and closed off thru the bank. I am super proud of myself actually bcuz i have always been known to not do well with money. Recovery is showing me otherwise 
I came home from the bank and did the dishes and vacuumed the carpet. Have been working on another dreamcatcher today also, a gift for someone 
Grateful to be clean and sober and on this path with all of u. Hope everyone has a great day 
@Soberbilly congrats on all the 5s 
@JazzyS I do/did have a UTI, spoke to a doctor and was prescribed antibiotics last Saturday. I hope you feel okay after having to push yourself and go into work, but Iām glad you enjoyed your favourite day 
@Brl81 congrats on triple digits 
@zzz sorry for your losses and the way their lives ended 
@DresdenLaPage that would be cool I hope today went well.
@SelfLove_42 congrats on 90 days
@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on meeting your financial goals for the year 
1178 days no alcohol.
643 days no cocaine.
158 days no vape.
I dont want to jinx it, but Iām feeling a little better, my migraine has finally gone, and maybe itās a sign that the infection is going too. 
(Iāve been on antibiotics since Saturday). Resting a hot water bottle on my bladder region is helping as well.
Tomorrow I have an online course, session 1 of 2 of āFinding My Voiceā, which should gel nicely with my work on boundaries and assertiveness, when I do start my sessions with the psychologist.
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Hey yaāll,
I feel like I havent checked in in a few days. Ooooo spiritually/emotionally i am in a baddy place. I know the visit to see my mom & nephew took a lot out of me, the dynamic that happens with my own children when there arent the right number of adults to take care of the 3 is not just difficult (people echo this at me like oh yes 3 kids is hardā¦no this is not that), its unhealthy. And i didnt mean to jump back in it and upset my daughter, I just thpught a 4 day visit it will be fine! No not fine lol. Recovering here from it.
My husband took a turn emotionally also after I got home; and I find I have been RESENTING HIM for it SHOCK. I resent his constant mood swings, his moodiness and i do not feel appreciatedā¦especiallh when he points out things i am not doing, when I feel like I am doing so much. WELL we sat down today and turns out HE is ALSO feeling RESENTFUL at me because I spend too much time out of the house durong the day and am not focused (UM VALID) and HE feels underappreciated and like he cant say anything or I get upset.
It is not hilarious to me at all to fight with my hubby. We are what I would consider a couple who doesnt fight. We had a tough yr after our 1st daughter was born but situationally that was a tough yr. And we did it. What weāre going through now jsā¦well im not sure many couples ever go through it, and we are doing pretty well considering all the situational stuff. BUT now when we boil it all down to the shit couples do experience everyday we are not really mad about any of these little things or actions, but what they represent. Well, low be fucking tide we both feeling that ugly feeling of resentment, loneliness and feeling unappreciated by the other. I will admit, the convo was very constructive but the emotional me cried at the end just feeling like an absolute failure. And thats okay for me to cry; its okay for me to feel those things but I cant stay there. Its okay to feel a little sorry for me, but I think the issue is I have been feeling TOO sorry for me (or something of the sort). What i am chuckling at here is how we are both feeling the same way, and both kind of containing it out of some sort of respect or understanding for the other. Yet communication, honesty and willingness in relationships is just so key. Another thing I find funny is how we tend to hear criticism or hurt from tbe other - when I get upset with my husband or say things he takes it to the hilt āyou think i do nothing!ā Yet, for me those tears about feeling as a failure reflect the same feelings. Its okay to feel as we respond to one another, because when things hurt we do reactā¦we jolt, we flinch, we scream out in shock or pain. But its not black and white like that - him being upset with me doesnt mean Im a horrible failure. Me being upset with him doesnt mean I thibk hes a shit hubby. Thats just a FEELING, then you got to move through that and hear wtf it is they saying.
Butā¦anywayā¦it was very emotional and i am somewhat tired but i am glad we had this talk. I am also bit proud of my husband for initiating it bc he holds stuff in.
When you are so deeply close with people, and you are undergoing huge life strsss (especially yhat which is sustained) it can put a massive strain on you and those close relationships. I think there has besn a tiny little fear of losing my husband, not because there is anything wrong with us as a couple but because many people do not survive the death of a child or what we are going through now. Just high stress and trauma. But, mostly I know that if we both put in the work, and go through these growing pains together (at different paces and understanding neither of us is going to come out of this the same!) & communicate and face the big issues head onā¦well, I think we may have a chance. I heard something once and live by it. Its not my problem or your problen its OUR problem. When im feeling resentful and unappreciated, im not able to keep that mindset. Anyway, not sure if this will hit with anyone but our close relationships are a BIG FUCKING DEAL in this life. And if im harboring resentment and feeling sorry for myself in that wife life, well some exploring to do there and not sure bout yaāll but sometimes the best way i explore is through the actions I take. Happy 24 everyone. Xo.
I am going to attempt to remember this. Writing it down now.
It definitely did. Appreciate the share. My husband and I and our adult children are having a real shit year. It helps to hear others perspectives and insights. So, thank you again.
