Well I undestand You. Few days ago i written a long post about how I was in deep depression for 4 years and had this Depersonalization/Derealization disorder caused by constant panic attacks. It’s not good to judge by the name of the book or by the name of the video as it is clearly have a deeper meaning and explanation, that’s why I liked it and shared. (I don’t like the idea about simulation at all by the way thats why I clicked the video in the first place… Thinking …well lets see what those weirdos have to say )
@Sabrina80 then asked a question about the video and since you where interested in her reply I just tagged you.
I don’t like the idea about simulation at all by the way, but the experiments scientiest did is stunning and the author of the video has a good point on the end.
Anyway @Amy30 when I had depression I totally eliminated existential topics and overall the informational intake to calm down the build up levels of the stress in my recovery. So I don’t recommend you to watch videos like that. We can easily live without contemplating about Life simply by living it.
Simple example, as when my gastritis went worse I eliminated spicy foods from my diet. Same when we have depression or anxiety. Why would we wanted to add more stress on top of that?
Balance is what matters.
Never lose Hope Take care Take time to heal Find happines Find what makes You Happy and do More of it
Got up early this morning to get a coffee & bite to eat, then headed to a couple of classes at my local gym. Back home watching my team on the TV now, then I will attack the rest of the day.
Day
0 no Marijuana (midnight lastnight)
178 no alcohol
109 no vapes or ciggs
My addicted mind thought it would be worth smoking pot. It drives me insane. My apologies for not taking the pot serious. Its a drug and it always will be and will always get me unstable
I just really thought id enjoy it. I didnt.
Im very happy to be here
Im also very fortunate
I took it for granted
Happy Saturday! N9tbbad weather here 50sF. Fay 18 and my BP and heart have seemed to begin to stay down where they should be. Although when im not a drunk for a good period of time its usualy around 100/60 so it can drp some more yet.
Have had the sniffles the last 3 days. There is something going around. Feel better than yesterday so hopefully its getting better instead of the other way around.
I didnt have a single piece of leftover candy yesterday haha lets see if i can repeat that today.
Also I remember a very good way to calm down nerves, at least what helped for me.
I remember I completely eliminated informational intake. Started to listen to radio, No Music picked by me (as there are still our brains calculating what they like, what they want - and well obviously something was wrong with my intake). As it is information, has meaning, words stuck in your mind and so on. Same with movies and so on…
In theese days we have so much information flying around that mostly every 1 person of a 10 has theese problems (or even more, I am not very good with numbers).
So I remember living with my internet turned off, radio playing, I liked to turn off the lamps too and light the candles - imagining that I live in the past, where there was no hurrying up, everything was like in a slow motion compared to theese days…
It’s hard to explain on how much freedom and time we gain eliminating all that dopamin sucking junk around - that can clear A TON of space in that computer we have on our shoulders.
I only allowed myself to watch 1+ hour per day of something like Travel channel or wrestling. Also did a cold shower / contrast shower speaking more precisely (very useful tool), also drinked strong soothing herbs tea with ingrediants like Valerian in morning and evening. Some physical activity is also very important for how our hormones works and puts us in a balance.
Morning Check In Day 629
Morning TS! Boy did I ever sleep sooo poorly last night. It took me 1.5 hours to fall asleep, then I woke up twice. Both times after waking up, I struggled to get back to sleep. Ugh. Ive been sleeping pretty bad for awhile now actually and I think that contributes to why Im so exhausted in the mornings. I have a Dr appt Nov 20… I think Ill bring this issue up.
Right now im at work. Hope the shift goes by quickly. I really need my rest. Plus i have laundry to do once home. Thats about it for me right now. Hope u all have a great day!
It is helping me to focus my thoughts and take a mental snapshot of my program. And also to see what resentments I’ve been hanging onto. I want to share something that might be useful to other people, especially newcomers. So I guess it will be good for me to lead!
checking in, feeling mwa. No flu but just tired I geuss. Looking back at the week it is maybe also normal. Went to the supermarket for ingredients, so have to put myself to make dinner now
Hi Amy, thinking of you and your trip. Its so great how youre always chdcking in and being honest. You help me so much with your shares.
I think fear is normal, and helps us set ourselves up to win. I know the feeling sucks, but healthy fear isnt a bad thing…now look at how you prepped yourself. You will go, hopefullh fingers crossed have a great time and set a new memory for yourself in an old place. Hell even if it isnt great, and you manage it sober you will have that satusfied feeling of knowing you did it. You can & you will and that bit of fear is hopefully just helping you lay the foundation you need for a sober trip. Check in with us & let us know how youre doing when ypure there we got you! Xo.
It’s not even 10pm here and I’m already in bed, it’s the happiest moment from the whole day.
Last week I started lurking into intherooms.com, joined few times (only listen) but I don’t know, it didn’t click… I must find something where religion is not so important (atheist here). I need some more help cause lately catching myself on ‘fuck this shit’ to often. And start drinking is last thing I want.
thats why I clicked the video in the first place… Thinking …well lets see what those weirdos have to say 
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Take care 
and light the candles - imagining that I live in the past, where there was no hurrying up, everything was like in a slow motion compared to theese days…
Morning Check In 
