Day 61!
Had an appointment with my therapist yesterday and we talked about speaking to myself kindly and compassionately as I try to make some changes. I will continue to practice that.
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3 again at the end of today.
Well I am the last one standing out of four of us, employed as the remaining 25%. Iām trying to figure out where the 75% of work is going to go. 
This would normally have me spiralling and whatiffing to fuckery and back, but Iām trying to use the serenity prayer for several aspects of my life lately. I am grateful, despite some people not deserving my gratitude. Is that the quest for serenity? I donāt think I will ever be that serene, sober perhaps, but not always entirely serene.
Donāt misunderstand my lack of gratitude at still being employed, but my job is starting to now look like a team effort 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1249. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Heading into day 4. The way my timer is set, my 24 hour mark is at 7:00 p.mā¦ I have definitely noticed that mentally helps a lot. I go to bed by 10 at the latest and after I get home from school pick up around 4:15, I do not go back out, so getting to 7 is easy. Then itās not like Iāll go out at night and ruin it all. Every morning starts off great with me just coasting along and then suddenly between 7-8:40 a.m. all of the thoughts start flooding in. After school drop off is when I usually go on āmissionsā to pick up pills. So Iām going to do my check ins and then stay away from my phone until I get back from taking my daughter to school. Sorry for the boring rantings of my brain but morning is definitely my weakest time of day. So I am just making my survival plan. Have a winning Wednesday all you wonderful people!!! 
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No apologies needed. Thanks for sharing what helps you SoberMama. We never know what might help an other. And youāre already helping yourself so thatās a 100% win there. Youāre doing great. Keep going. X
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How did your interview go Jenny. Hope you are able to breathe now and feel a bit less stressed. 
You are doing so well with 62 days - keep protecting your sobriety 
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Congratulations, Charlie for your 3 years. I am happy to see you checking in from time to time 
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Way to go Charlie - a huge congratulations
3 years is amazing!! Keep going strong 
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Congrats on 3 years 
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Day 24 
Have a nice day everyone 
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Checking in on day 126.
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Yeah, it felt like no matter how many times I treated it it came back bc it was also up to everyone else to do the same. I ended up ordering this stuff the US army uses for outbreaks and it finally worked.
Youāre lucky youāve already got short hair. I cut mine to chin length after the first treatment to make me feel like I was less likely to get it
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75 days AF
ā¦ Smashing it 
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Awe Eric, thank u so much for the suggestions on Insight Timer! I wouldve never thought of going on there and finding meditations for binge eating. I am definitly going to be checking that out today. Today is a new day. I attempted a workout this morning so thats a good start. I think it might be worth a shot listening in to one of these when i have the urge to binge eat or emotionally eat.
Ans thank you for ur support friend. I needed to hear this! Hugs. Hope u have a great day!
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Ugh feel ill todayā¦started with migraine this morningā¦had flashing lights in my eyes for 3 full hours and now i just feel battered, think i went too long without eating from tea time yesterday until late this morning, i get migraine from low blood sugar and i should no better, must remember to not go too hard and extreme at this diet
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This is such a supportive post and i truly do appreciate what u said. I definitly can relate to the whole piece on childhood. My addiction with food actually began before my addiction to drugs. So its be an ongoing issue for many years (although when using drugs i was very thin due to not having an appetite). Its almost as of using drugs ācuredā my binge eating. But then now being clean it has resurfaced. Its obviously a coping skill of some sort or maybe food was something i felt I could control back then as a child and it developed into something toxic. Idk. But i think in order for me to move forward, i need to spend some time just lookong inward. Maybe thru journalling or meditation. Thank u again for ur post! I really appreciate the time u spent writing that all out 
hope ur doing well friend
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Day 104
Daily Recovery Tracking: Day 2
Just checking in.
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I think Iām going to listen to some of them too. When I eat I never know when Iām full. Especially if it taste sooooo good. I almost always have seconds. Thatās why I abstain from sugar after dinner. I can never have just one. The addict in us 
Sometimes it hard to work in meditations during the day. I can only imagine how busy you must be, itās really hard. I know it was for me when I had my family to run. And still try and take care of myself. If you canāt squeeze one in during the day time listen to it at night when your going to bed. Even if you fall asleep. My meditation therapist said just listen to it!! Our subconscious minds will still hear it even if we are asleep. And if it puts you to sleep? Thatās not a bad thing either.
I hope you do have a wonderful day my friend.
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