Well I am the last one standing out of four of us, employed as the remaining 25%. I’m trying to figure out where the 75% of work is going to go.
This would normally have me spiralling and whatiffing to fuckery and back, but I’m trying to use the serenity prayer for several aspects of my life lately. I am grateful, despite some people not deserving my gratitude. Is that the quest for serenity? I don’t think I will ever be that serene, sober perhaps, but not always entirely serene.
Don’t misunderstand my lack of gratitude at still being employed, but my job is starting to now look like a team effort
Heading into day 4. The way my timer is set, my 24 hour mark is at 7:00 p.m… I have definitely noticed that mentally helps a lot. I go to bed by 10 at the latest and after I get home from school pick up around 4:15, I do not go back out, so getting to 7 is easy. Then it’s not like I’ll go out at night and ruin it all. Every morning starts off great with me just coasting along and then suddenly between 7-8:40 a.m. all of the thoughts start flooding in. After school drop off is when I usually go on “missions” to pick up pills. So I’m going to do my check ins and then stay away from my phone until I get back from taking my daughter to school. Sorry for the boring rantings of my brain but morning is definitely my weakest time of day. So I am just making my survival plan. Have a winning Wednesday all you wonderful people!!!
No apologies needed. Thanks for sharing what helps you SoberMama. We never know what might help an other. And you’re already helping yourself so that’s a 100% win there. You’re doing great. Keep going. X
How did your interview go Jenny. Hope you are able to breathe now and feel a bit less stressed.
You are doing so well with 62 days - keep protecting your sobriety
Yeah, it felt like no matter how many times I treated it it came back bc it was also up to everyone else to do the same. I ended up ordering this stuff the US army uses for outbreaks and it finally worked.
You’re lucky you’ve already got short hair. I cut mine to chin length after the first treatment to make me feel like I was less likely to get it
Awe Eric, thank u so much for the suggestions on Insight Timer! I wouldve never thought of going on there and finding meditations for binge eating. I am definitly going to be checking that out today. Today is a new day. I attempted a workout this morning so thats a good start. I think it might be worth a shot listening in to one of these when i have the urge to binge eat or emotionally eat.
Ans thank you for ur support friend. I needed to hear this! Hugs. Hope u have a great day!
Ugh feel ill today…started with migraine this morning…had flashing lights in my eyes for 3 full hours and now i just feel battered, think i went too long without eating from tea time yesterday until late this morning, i get migraine from low blood sugar and i should no better, must remember to not go too hard and extreme at this diet
This is such a supportive post and i truly do appreciate what u said. I definitly can relate to the whole piece on childhood. My addiction with food actually began before my addiction to drugs. So its be an ongoing issue for many years (although when using drugs i was very thin due to not having an appetite). Its almost as of using drugs “cured” my binge eating. But then now being clean it has resurfaced. Its obviously a coping skill of some sort or maybe food was something i felt I could control back then as a child and it developed into something toxic. Idk. But i think in order for me to move forward, i need to spend some time just lookong inward. Maybe thru journalling or meditation. Thank u again for ur post! I really appreciate the time u spent writing that all out hope ur doing well friend
I think I’m going to listen to some of them too. When I eat I never know when I’m full. Especially if it taste sooooo good. I almost always have seconds. That’s why I abstain from sugar after dinner. I can never have just one. The addict in us
Sometimes it hard to work in meditations during the day. I can only imagine how busy you must be, it’s really hard. I know it was for me when I had my family to run. And still try and take care of myself. If you can’t squeeze one in during the day time listen to it at night when your going to bed. Even if you fall asleep. My meditation therapist said just listen to it!! Our subconscious minds will still hear it even if we are asleep. And if it puts you to sleep? That’s not a bad thing either.
Checking in … almost at 10 months, but this check in is not about me, it’s about you! I’m proud of you, rather you’re on your first day of sobriety or years… I’m proud of you and I’m proud of being a part of such a great platform for all of us to come together to battle our demons! I know some days are harder than others, but keep on pushing! A sober life is always and will always be better than an addicted life. Peace and love guys!
hope ur doing well friend
