Day 146. First time I’ve really felt like some wine. Not good. Will go and buy some soft drinks. Will not drink alcohol. Felt really tempted so came on here.
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I absolutely love reading, I only really watch TV now for the football. This week hasn’t exactly been high brow though, and have been re-reading safe books (like Georgette Heyer). Needed guaranteed happy endings and only mild peril 
I would love to have a good nose on your bookshelves. Normally I have quite varied tastes. I had never heard of the genre space opera before, looks interesting. I love murder mysteries, particularly the Golden Age.
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day 625 of no self harm TW for SA
i was SA’d by a family member when I was 12. last night I dreamt that a friend SA’d me and I woke up completely dissociated and it just feels like I’m relieving it. i feel so unsafe. the only thing I can do is lay in bed and wait for it to pass it’s miserable
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That nightmare and the aftermath sounds horrible. I am so sorry that your mind is reliving the horrible event.
Many hugs sweet Megan. I wish I could offer more to help this pass quicker.
Can you reach out to a friend? I am here if you need to talk.
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thank you, I’ve been chatting with a friend trying to work through it
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Oh good. I hope you start feeling safer and more at ease 
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Back to day 1. I’m a fucking mess. But I’m back.
OFDAAT
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Welcome back Karen… Keep fighting. You deserve a sober life
We got your back so lean on us when you need support.
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6months 7days no alcohol
3months 30days no vapes or ciggs
9 days no weed
Took a break from the forum for a little bit but im still kicking
Be strong everyone
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Great to see you back and doing so well!
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Thank you
Its nice to get your reachout
Everything seems to be going ok
Im gettjng lazy at work but everything looks good here
In my defence im on call for a spill or any mess. Im not ashamed. I did good today
28 more min be4 i can clock out
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Hey ya’ll,
Meaning to checj in last night but I was so sleepy. Then I ended up in bed till 11 anyway watching something, instead of the usual reading.
Things are busy, which is really nice. Hubby has sold some pieces to our neighbour, who happened to see his work online and now she has hired him to do work on her place. Its a real sign for him and im so happy. I was really feeling that this would be the path for him, making his furniture and doing carpentry but at his own pace would be such a perfect combo, and now this. Im just happy to see him happy.
Still lots of work to do and im so glad to be as involvee as I am. I think I wasnt sure what it was to do for him, and also didnt want to just take over but I feel we have found a little groove 
Interview Tuesday at a daycare. A little bit of change, so we’ll see.
Riding this little up wave. And 4 months today xo. Happy 24 everyone
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Evening Check in
Day 642
Have been a bit emotional today. It comes and goes. The MRI went well. He recovered from the anesthetic very quickly so we were able to go home right away. Played a bowling game with my son once we got home and I really enjoyed that. Did some dishes, rested, and will do self care later. Im feeling all sorts of emotions. Mainly sadness and worry for my son and his condition and i cant think like that bcuz hes actually doing very well. I guess im worried about his tumor beginning to grow again and what his future would look like. Its natural i think to worry but i HAVE to stay present and enjoy each moment with him now. Anyway, im grateful for being clean. Im grateful for God and for this forum and the people in it. And im grateful for the little perk that i received today. I bought a 30oz Stanley cup the other day for my water intake and i am excited that i got it today. It was a nice surprise from feeling emotional today. Have a great night everyone! 
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Have had a good day and evening with the girls. Really haven’t taken any pics at all, we went for a little bike ride. Addie was kinda acting out and sitting down in the middle of the road. But I made homemade Mac and cheese for dinner and the girls liked it. Now we’re taking baths and playing music. Hope everyone is having a good day and evening much love
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chilling put the Xmas tree up the other day felt good to get it done
Pain about a 6 today
Not back at hospital till next mth yey
Happy sober Saturday everyone
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Ya know what, sometimes I just wanna scream into the ether or something. It’s 2.30 am and I need to be up in 3 hours to go to this family memorial thingy.
Apparently, the idea is to give alms to the poor at certain intervals after a loved one dies. But my family is doing a morning church service followed by a restaurant meal. Why am I getting at 6 am for this? I don’t need alms. I’m not exactly a church goer. And I don’t get it.
Also, knowing my uncle… he hated these types of events. I can just about imagine him in the corner, lighting his fag and making some inappropriate joke about this whole circus. Shouldn’t honoring the dead have at least something to do with the type of person they were?
This is such an inconvenience. Apparently we need to get to the church for the 8 am service. Why? Why is the service at 8 am? Who the fuck came up with that bright idea? Don’t people in this country work 9-5 in the week and have lie-ins during the weekend like normal humans do?
I don’t understand any of these customs… and I really don’t understand why I agreed to go. I could have just said no. Why didn’t I? That’s something my sleep deprived arse will be pondering all through the day tomorrow. Now… I need to try and catch a few hours. Spare a thought for me.
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Checking in at 3 month and 20 days alcohol free
I’m on vacation in Florida with a friend right now.
Weather wasn’t great those last couple of days and the traffic here in the Orlando area is just ridiculously mad …
But hey we’ve got a really nice holiday home here and I have not the slightest urge to drink.
I’m really enjoying my sober holiday.
Have a wonderful sober weekend everyone 
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Hey Jasmine,
You are such an amazing, lovely soul. I always appreciate your thoughtfulness and encouragement. Your warmness is felt. Sending you blessings. I am super proud of you keep at it, your walk is inspiring.
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