My favourite thing so far is the feeling of self respect returning. Attended an excellent online meeting last night about “My life has become unmanagable” so I plan to spend the day reflecting and writing down all the ways in which my life had become unmanagable so that I can revisit that when my guard is down.
Feeling good. I feel alot of what I needed to resolve I have. I also do not have any current urges to drink as ffs been there, done that, went wrong… And I think my better qualities come out without alcohol… My thinking is alot clearer. Weather here tho is still really stormy. Spending much of the day planning the year ahead for work
… As well as my personal finances which whilst sounding a bit dull it will ease my mind considerably
Hello everyone
Well, that was a fun 3 weeks. Especially once we got to what I call the “festive perineum” and it didn’t quiet down!
I was working in a Pub in Northamptonshire. It’s a place I’ve been before to do relief work and will probably do it on an ongoing basis. I had some cravings, I won’t lie, but generally speaking it was fine I don’t think it was a bad thing to let Christmas and NYE completely pass me by this year as the temptation was pretty strong. Perhaps next year will be the year I finally celebrate a Christmas with family and friends lol
Hope you are all doing well, all the best
Hugs not drugs
Day 1,300 clean and sober today yay!!! It’s my Friday today and I’m training a new guy which is awesome because we need the help. I hope everyone has an amazing day today and know that I’m proud of everyone here, love you guys
Day 50. Good morning sober fam, ugh had yesterday off and I literally slept all day. I fell asleep money around 10 pm and I slept all day Tuesday I woke up a couple times to eat and then fell back asleep. And managed to sleep all the way untill this morning for work. Definitely was mad at myself for that. Maybe I needed it but still I didnt want to sleep all day. Well I’m up and at work, still haven’t heard anything from the hospital which is getting a little discouraging. Haven’t thought much about any resolution for the new year, I’m not worried about working out and getting all crazy in shape. Idk to me yes being sober is about being healthy and all that. But caring about lifting every day just isn’t life, caring about what I look like isn’t life and isnt being healthy. As long as I’m happy and making a positive effort then I’m happy. I get up everyday and make it to work I’m healthy and happy. Saving some money for an apartment is being healthy the rest will fall into place some point. I was getting food stamps and I don’t think I am anymore which stinks a little bit. My mind since taking this medicine has been repeating a lot of things over and over. Kind of like if I see a pretty girl I’ll repeat that she was pretty over and over, mostly here at work. I’m not sure if it’s objectifying woman or not. Part of me has even said I’m not sure if I want to work at the hospital bc the girls here at the nursing home are pretty and I might have a chance with them. So like I’m looking for a relationship which is stupid. So yeah I notice little stuff like that and need to fix it. Idk anyways I hope everyone has a good day much love
Checking in. Just had my appoinment with my psychologist. In a discussion meeting with my case, the most experienced wanted to try EMDR. My psychologist had hoped to land some explaintions by now, but because of different things its been a while since last appoinment, and with the question about MDMR she want to wait with diagnoses til this is tried.