Keeping vigilant, reminding myself of my past relapses at Christmas and all the reasons I choose a sober life.
Sobriety gives me freedom and health and peace. Every time I feel like I am missing out, I remind myself of how far I fall when I let alcohol into my life. Iām not missing out when I pass up booze. I can pick up another drink, one that doesnāt make me crave ten more, one that allows me to wake with a clear head.
Alcohol makes me miss out on life, and I will protect my sobriety like my life depends on it. Too many relapses and wasted time. Especially at Christmas when that addict voice creeps in and says I can enjoy alcohol over Christmas and a heavy relapse follows.
I can enjoy Christmas. I donāt need to be drunk for it.
Stay strong friends- remind yourself all the reasons to chose yourself this silly season
@Twizzlers its so good to see you again. Please donāt be a stranger, we are here for you how are you going?
Hi
Thank you for your kind message, and wow 622 days! Congratulations to that
Iām snuggled in bed reading and doing some catching up here.
I will get through this. I know this time will pass and there are things I can do to help myself get through much smoother. And not suffer in silence
And especially grateful to have you and everyone here
Day five, this time last week I was drunk. This Monday swimming 7am 2 mile walk to work same 2 mile walk back ,then I hit the gym, honestly I didnāt miss the drink, only thing on my mind was being a better man
At the weekend, I helped my neighbour fix his car. A few hours later he knocked on my door with a bottle of wine as a thank you.
I accepted it - the guy is nearly 90 and I knew the kinda conversation weād get into if I tried to refuse it - but the bottle sat in my hallway talking to me on Saturday night. Thankfully, I was able to ignore it.
Sunday night, I got a couple of nonsensical texts from my brother just after midnight. He did the whole AA thing and has been clean for a couple of years, but he has a new girlfriend and I suspect he might be kidding himself that he can control his drinkingā¦ he definitely canāt.
Anyway, at the moment it feels like everything felt less rubbish when i was drinking. I know the reality was very different and I keep reminding myself that its only been 30 days and that my brain is lying to me.
I have no fear of relapsing - I made a commitment and I am sticking with it - I am feeling a bit flat and low though.
Hopefully, I will start to feel like all the effort is worth it soon enough.
Exactly this- do not suffer in silence. Iām really glad you reached out and shared that you feel like you might be mentally sliding a bit. When you name the feeling, you bring light to it, and I hope that helps you to tackle how youāre feeling.
Iām well thanks we have a rowdy teen boy and a pre teen girl in our home, so lots of feelings flying around the place!
I am feeling really unwell again so have only been able to dip in today. Will try and catch up more tomorrow. Hopefully this seemingly endless cold will go soon.
I guess Iām doing okay. Not great, but not terrible. Just a lot going on. Iām not feeling festive for the holidays. I like seeing my family, but not all at once under one roof. It gets overwhelming. At least itās only 5 days. Then I have the week off between Christmas and New Years back home on my own. (With my cats )
Happy Monday! Day 53. Glad the weekend is over. I havenāt gotten to the point I feel comfortable. I can stay busy during the week so i need to work on that.
@timetochange great work with 170 days! Grateful for the progress with your kids as well ā thatās lovely @nony welcome back to the community and a great job on day 1. Great work on setting up new routines and habits. @Twizzlers Great to see you checking in and congrats on your 800+ days of sobriety. WE are here for you friendā¦ the mental relapse is scary. Try to remind yourself of your day 1 ā your first week of hell. You are not alone in this @dmcg1987 YEAH 30 day ā 1 month milestone! Great work @rockstar24777 grateful that you are feeling better from Covid symptoms. Definitely post about all your addiction free time ā each day won is worth celebrating! Glad you are sticking to the no vape @noshame Sending healing vibes to your wife ā hope she starts feeling well soon. Grateful baby is healthy Wonderful job on your timers! @jmg Congrats on your 1 week keep stacking on the days @rob11 so sorry for your loss. I do hope you start feeling better soon too @nas ah fast food is everywhere and so convenient. Should be super proud of yourself for not giving inā¦ finding alternative heathier options is how we overcome any addiction. Sending you support. Grateful to have you here with us. @shadowcopy welcome to the community Joel! Great work on day 3
Iām gonna miss having you on here. Iāll miss your posts, and your fiery attitude. Plus youāre kind of a sarcastic ass like I am, so Iāll definitely miss that. Iām not sure who Iām gonna get to call me out on my poor grammar , I think Iāll nominate @JazzyS .
Donāt ever stop standing up for your beliefs and donāt take any shit from anyone. Also thanks for always being supportive. Iāll check in on you at some point, until then Stay on the path. Youāre worth it.
So close to gambling yesterday but once again caught my stinking thinking in time and did something else as a distraction until I forgot.
Every time I know I was definitely going to gamble I put the money in an envelope bc itās all about the win for me and then when I want to gamble I look at how much is there and think ā yep Iāve wonā.
@smootie8220 AH yes, the dreams and the FOMO are so real. Our addict mind tries to convince us of all the fun we are missing ā it conveniently leaves out the nightly purges, the hangovers, the blotchy skin, the health issuesā¦etc. 9 days AF is amazing work and about to hit your double digits ā keep going strong Lys ā it does get easier :hugs @mindofsobermike that is great news Mike. Not sure why Meadowbrook would not accept what the CNA guildelines are. Glad you had a back up and are able to take the hospital job. Are you still able to get recertified on your own time? @anon84358113 30 day milestone!!! Way to go on your achievementā¦ keep going strong @g-stryfe 30 days is amazing. Great work on knowing the mind can be cunning and if you are like me then that one sip leads to a spiral. I find coming on here when the urges are strong or Iām feeling low is the best as the ājust for funā threads find a way to cheer me up. @bomdhil Thanks Thomas ā I am grateful that you are starting to feel better. @jennyh man I am sorry that you are unwell again. Sending you healing vibes and hope that you can start to feel better real soon @jasty2 I too will miss @mx_elle and her spark on her. Posts would always make me smile (sometimes laugh too hard). Much love to you Mel. Joe really said it best. Thanks for the nomination Joe ā that is a tall order and some big shoes to fill.
Checking in on Monday night
355 days free of alcohol and weed
770 days free of cigarettes
It was an interesting Monday. Was able to make a lovely meal and get couple loads of laundry done. About to focus on some work for the rest of the evening. Nothing else really - just staying clear of urges
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
Checking in 177 alcohol free
Still fighting this damn cold. Gradually feeling a bit better each day. Certainly putting a damper on the holiday season.
Attended a holiday party on Saturday. I was the only sober person there. Seeing my old drinking buddies making fools out of themselves and arguing over literally nothing was enlightening. I need to find more sober friends. It was a good eye opener as to one of many reasons not to drink. I donāt want to look foolish again.
I found out in my meeting with my boss today that I will be getting a bonus. They are very happy with my work performance. Yippee!! I was having such doubts last week.
we have a rowdy teen boy and a pre teen girl in our home, so lots of feelings flying around the place!
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so Iāll definitely miss that. Iām not sure who Iām gonna get to call me out on my poor grammar 
, I think Iāll nominate 
