Checking in Day 671
Its another day clean and sober for me. Im currently at work. Quiet shift so far. Just doing a bunch of cleaning while my client is on a home visit.
Today I am feeling… unsure and a little on edge. I dont feel settled at all. Im unsure on what to do about my sons school next week. His last day of school is supposed to be Dec 22 but he gets sick very easily and they are having tons of Christmas concerts next week and Im debating just keeping him home so that he can stay healthy and we can be home for Christmas this year. Last year, Christmas morning, he had to go to emergency bcuz he was very ill. So we had a late celebration. I dont want the same thing to happen this year. Idk what to do. I dont like him missing school but then again, I dont think they will be doing much next week anyway.
So other than that im okay. Im doing a bit of planning around my 2024 goals and how i am going to accomplish them… particularly the goal surrounding my health. I actually have had some mild cravings to use today also. Almost like im replaying the “ritual” in my head and sort of glorifying it. Ridiculous thinking. I just want to finish work and get home. I dont have work tmrw but instead have my renewal course for CPR/First aid. Will be good to get that over with. Have a great day everyone!
Day 12. Went to spin class this morning! Never would have been able to do that when I was drinking. Trying up a bit before we head downtown tonight for an Ugly Christmas sweater stroll. There will be wine and cocktails everywhere but I’m hoping to find something AF or a hot cider so I have something to keep my hands busy .
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So today I feel better, more content. Daughter had her last day of college for this year on Thursday, my other half had his last day of work yesterday. We are all now in family holiday mood. I’m looking forward to some down time together.
Today I went to zumba and a bit of a get together after, which was really nice. Everyone brought some food and nibbles to share.
Hope you all have/had a good sober day
Checking in. Another day completely clean of all my addictions. Ive been up 24 hours though i stopped taking my sleep med because it was giving me INSANE dreams. Now im paying the consequences lol i really wanted to smoke last night but powered through listening to heavy metal and playing skyrim. have a good weekend.
my family doesn’t have to like me I don’t like them I just want to not feel like I’m a waste of space. not to feel guilty for just being there and taking up space.
Checking in sober and happy.
My daughter has had a fun birthday and it has all gone smoothly. I’ve also been productive and tidied the house, done laundry and toned down my pink hair to a more pastel shade ready to start my new job next week.
Last year on my daughter’s birthday, we had people over. I was anxious and I got drunk as I was cooking all the food and then fell asleep at 8pm before we even did her cake and sang happy birthday. I hate that memory (although thank god all I did was go to bed and pass out; if I’d have stayed up I might have made even more of a fool of myself), but she laughs about it and says she doesn’t mind. I never want to have to bank memories like that again.
AFAF ODAAT
Checking in sober day 182
Having to come to terms with another addiction. I’m spending money like it is water. On what exactly I couldn’t tell you. While I’m alcohol free, I’ve simply moved the addiction. I bit depressed.
Back is sore and I’m fatigued. Sleep well everyone.
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i stopped taking my sleep med because it was giving me INSANE dreams. Now im paying the consequences lol i really wanted to smoke last night but powered through listening to heavy metal and playing skyrim. have a good weekend.
