Worked hard in the gym for the last week, decided to take a break today .
I got a new ivy plant for Christmas from my girlfriend, went out to the dollar store & picked up some stuff for it . I never raised a plant before so I did lots of research hoping I’d understand more of how to grow a plant without killing it.
Might have skills but definitely not a green thumb kinda guy.
Stocked up on junk food because my cravings are high today.
I keep stopping on this app and social media to keep my mind busy .
Today is my 70 th day being clean,I never thought I would have seen a sober holiday,but I did now 70 days clean,I am so grateful for the strength that I get from meetings,andcoming here and talking,saying what’s on my mind Right now.It helps me to focus on my recovery
.to know that the struggles I have ,I can talk about and get some feedback.
Day 5 and other than the horrible withdrawals, I feel great. No cravings for anything but life itself. I am so grateful for this, I did not think I would ever feel like this again. Still can’t eat properly which is not cool but, it’ll pass soon . I hope. Love you all, stay strong
Checking in sober from the airport. It was nice to see my family but I’m also glad to be headed home. My visit was mostly good. I was easier to stay sober this year than last. Most of my family drinks but at least no one gets drunk. And the restaurant we went to made me a mocktail.
been pretty bad but still clean. I saw my new doctor today she was fine but I gave her a list of about eight things I needed to talk about and she talked about two of them and then dismissed me. she was nice other than that. she is going to find me a psychiatrist so we can work on finding a right balance of medicine since I’ve never lived in manageable level of anxiety.
the holidays are rough New Year’s is the anniversary of a traumatic event and I was with my family for Christmas and there was a big argument I essentially got humiliated in front of my family… it was dumb they caught me on my phone when they’re supposed to be a no phone rule but everybody else was on their phone watching the football game but for some reason me being on my phone was worth yelling at me in front of everybody and screening at me and humiliating me until I cried
It’s good to hear from you and 664 days is amazing. I’m so proud of you
Sorry to hear you Dr didn’t seem to take you more in depth as you wanted to. I lately have started writing bullet points for what I want to talk with my Dr about too. I go through each. Sometimes if it’s a Dr that knows me it is alot easier to go through my list. Other times when’s they dismiss stuff it’s usually a Dr that has never met me.
I hope you do get to express what you need to them again at some point.
That’s great news that you will have access to a psychiatrist to manage anxiety so you can feel like yourself again.
Feeling better today and I appreciate having this space & my bestie to vent to. Its a lot of emotions & energies over the holidays, not to mention being sick and no sleep and I just needed to let it out. Hubby could tell I was feeling super sick and exhausted so he took our kids to the park skating this morning, then after the little ones nap to this little “zoo” and for pizza at his sisters. It was really nice to have the time to just relax and have some quiet, spend some time with my nephew who I think also needed some quiet and my mom.
Had a bit of a hard talk with my mom about the current situation she is in. I know I cannot expect her to be perfectly okay or great, and it is the holidays but she is not doing well at all. She is in autopilot survival, and its very hard to see, be in and to know what to do. Its just a very hard situation, and I do respect the choice she is making but it is just so complicated and difficult (complicated also by the idea of the word choice). Anyway, I know now it is not just me feeling off when I come here. I cannot stay on when everything is off, or be the one to lift and hold it together. I can do my best, but this whole situation feels absolutely insane sometimes. Anyway,
So so so very happy that feeling like shit physically was due to be sick and not hung over. Happy I had all these hard raw feelings and didnt even think about a drink. Tomorrow we will see my dad and hopefully take the kids to the big zoo, and nephew starts his winter camp. What a whirlwind. The good, the bad & the beautiful XO.
XO to everyone who survived another Christmas & hppe the new year brings good things…happy 25th hour
Oh Naomi I totally get this and hope you did find time for yourself to let yourself loose. Hopefully you are able to rest up and feel energized soon. @shatteredsoul This is the perfect place to check in Joshua. I am so very proud of you for taking the first steps towards your sobriety. I am so sorry for the incredibly intense withdrawals and symptoms you are experiencing. Are you able to see a doctor? Don’t let the addict mind or depression talk their bs – you most definitely are worth saving and deserve a happy addiction free life. Grateful that you are going to reach out for support here and with your meetings as we are unable to beat this addiction monster alone. Cry it out – that is a healthy release. I do hope you are able to get some sleep friend. We are here for you – I see that you posted this 15 hours ago – how are you doing now? @doreen1 WOOT WOOT :clap way to hit that 3 month milestone … keep stacking up the days @frank68 way to go Frank with your 70 days!
Way to go friend – You sure as hell are a BADASS and should be super proud of your accomplishments… keep it up – looking forward to celebrating your 10 months @leoleo Well done with your double digits @nony great work on your 5 days friend. Wishing you luck with your upcoming challenge… baby steps friend – just like with anything – just got to take baby steps. We will be here for support if you need @mischa84 OOH I’m sorry about hat black eye – hope it doesn’t hurt. I almost took an elbow to the eye yesterday (by accident of course) – not fun. BTW – I am with you on not finding Mr Bean funny – not my kind of humor either LOL
@drew95 How are you doing Drew? I do hope that this app and your other tools kept you distracted today. @nate2 congrats on your 70 days of sobriety! @sadmemequeen So good to see you posting Megan. I am grateful that you were able to get in to see a doctor and get a referral for a psychiatrist. I am sorry that your doctor dismissed some of your needs. I am hoping that you are able to make another appointment to go over what wasn’t covered. I know for me my doctor will only address 3 items max on a visit (some sort of policy). Don’t feel disheartened love. I am so sorry about your family. We are here for you when you need. @mira_d Glad you are feeling better today. Big hugs for your mom. I can’t even imagine all the emotions she must be feeling. Sending you strength and love for your visit with your dad tomorrow.
Checking in on Tuesday evening
370 days free of alcohol and weed
785 days free of cigarettes
its been a really rough day. i am glad that i have such an amazing family to help support me. glad to be in bed and getting ready to call it a night. hope that tomorrow will be an easier day.
wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day / evening. sending you all so much love
It was a nice relaxing day. Lounged around until dinner and then went over to a friends for a bit. She’s an antiquer and has so much really cool stuff that she’s planning to sell. She had some things out and I couldn’t believe to see my same vanity chair. It was one of my oldest memories of me and my grandmother, sitting on it in her bathroom playing with her makeup. When she died, that was one of the only things I took from her house. My friend said Merry Christmas, and now I have two!
It’s been nice spending days with my daughter. We’ve been making paper dragon puppets, which is actually even cooler than it sounds. I’m really enjoying it. Well, only 5 more days of work! I’d better get to bed so I can get going easier. Have a great day!
Well the Christmas season is over. And the good news is im still sober im so happy cos it hasnt been easy infact its been the hardest, not for craving drink but due to the situations and stress. My wife ladt her dad on Halloween completely out the blue he had a massive brain hemorrhage due to a reaction to blood thinner used in hospital to try flush 2 clots in his leg. He was a funny man and the family was close but not without mayhem. He was bipolar and his wife struggled with him alot untill really these last 7 yrs when he was the most happy snd level he had ever been. We always said she loved him as she wud never leave him but wasnt inlove with him but had, had 52yrs together 4 kids and 4 grand kids. Theres alot more to them and the family but i wont go into it. Since the lass his wife has been so devastated and down cant stop crying its shocked us all as she really cant pick up and we know needs help this made Christmas so difficult and we were there yesterday. I was harrassed as soon as i got there about why i dont drink and that pissed me off right off the bat but i got over it and we soldiered on it was abit of a night mare to be honest but had some happy fun parts.
The Christmas day at my family’s wasnt much better and was much more pressured to have fun and its pushed upon us all by my mum it gets suffocating ive said next year we are going away i dont care what ppl think.
What a relief its over…on a good note im reading a fantastic book my wife got me for Christmas called This naked mind control alcohol. Wow its great.
Sorry for the vent keep on keeping on sober peeps cxx
35 no binge, no sugar
1 HPFs
0 dairy
I ate some HPFs on Christmas Eve and they did me no good. I wasn’t sure about their effect, and after an abstinence of a month I could clearly see and feel what this stuff does. No, thank you.
Last two days I felt very compelled by cheese sandwiches. I did not binge but I definitely overate, and I didn’t like it either. It made me feel bad in all kinds of ways, and the night was exhausting. So I am making a new counter for it.
Now that everybody is out of the apartment it’s time for my own end of year retrospective. A walk, some yoga. Looking forward to the day.
Don’t know why I was so tired but it wasn’t bad for me that my friend cancelled dinner yesterday. Stayed on the couch, napped a big part of the day away, and was in bed early. Feeling a bit better today. Still got a couple of late shifts to negotiate, starting today, before it will be early shifts only.
The weather still sucks. We’re about to break the record for wettest year ever which is saying something for these low damp countries of ours. So let’s have an image of a warm sunny memory. Leros, Greece, 2016. Need to go back there and experience it sober. I will. In the meanwhile let’s all have as good a day as we all can. Sober and clean. Love.
@residentevil Makes me happy to read you stayed sober through all that Lizzie! Never be sorry to come here and vent, it’s what we and this place are here for. Congrats on the ending of Christmas and keep going.
And I often wonder how you are doing.
im so happy 
cos it hasnt been easy infact its been the hardest, not for craving drink but due to the situations and stress. My wife ladt her dad on Halloween completely out the blue he had a massive brain hemorrhage due to a reaction to blood thinner used in hospital to try flush 2 clots in his leg. He was a funny man and the family was close but not without mayhem. He was bipolar and his wife struggled with him alot untill really these last 7 yrs when he was the most happy snd level he had ever been. We always said she loved him as she wud never leave him but wasnt inlove with him but had, had 52yrs together 4 kids and 4 grand kids. Theres alot more to them and the family but i wont go into it. Since the lass his wife has been so devastated and down cant stop crying its shocked us all as she really cant pick up and we know needs help this made Christmas so difficult and we were there yesterday. I was harrassed as soon as i got there about why i dont drink and that pissed me off right off the bat but i got over it and we soldiered on it was abit of a night mare to be honest but had some happy fun parts.
