I was thinking about you recently. Glad you’re back.
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Good afternoon everyone
Day
241 no alcohol
172 no vape or ciggs
11.91 no form of pot
I feel good
I woke up later then usuall
Got up and immediately got ready for work
I just finished my lunch and am jumping back to work now
Snows comming here in Massachusetts usa. First big snowfall this winter
Have a good day everyone
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Welcome back Charlie! Im glad ur here
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Hi Charlie, welcome back. Strength to you.
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Had a struggle falling asleep last night. Kept thinking about my brother. The memories we’ve had, both good and bad. The pain and anger I caused him, and the abuse and trauma he caused me. I know I can’t change anything about our past but the mind always wants to go there. I’m just glad we were able to make amends before it was too late. He is such a fighter, and continues to do all he can to hold onto this life… Even through all of his pain. It’s difficult to want him to keep fighting knowing that he is suffering. Almost selfish, but how does one divide and separate these feelings for someone they love so much?
The foster kids are so sick. They don’t even want to eat. I’ve had to resort to giving them Pedialyte to keep their hydration up and am going to have to consider medical attention if things don’t get better by early this upcoming week.
The sun is shining today so I am very much enjoying that and trying to make the best of my day. I’m pushing through the exhaustion and hoping to get a second wind soon.
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@chosen2001 How are you doing Chris?
@frank68 Congrats on your 80 days Frank! Keep that momentum going 
@wahtisnormal Congrats on beating your record Zoe– you should be super proud of yourself – it’s a huge achievement. Wishing you luck with your training – the trip and training in for your martial arts sounds awesome and intense… looking forward to your Thailand trip. Very cool perler – can’t wait to see your other creations.
@garry how’s it going Garry? Weekends are the toughest for sure – I find making sure I don’t have any idle time really helps. We have your back here in case the urges strong. Keep going strong – I see the 1 week milestone in your future
@monkey Welcome to the community – great work on your alcohol free timer!
@lastry Congrats on double digits Fiona! LOL I love the UFO night – I actually joined you unknowingly last night – was great feeling to work on one of the projects just laying around (almost started a new one 
@pinkyp so lovely to see you checking in – 657 days is remarkable friend 
I love this Sabrina! So love spreading kindness around. I have recently gotten comfortable in complementing random strangers mostly females still need to work on it with males without it getting weird. I think its awesome when you can bring a smile to someone’s face 
@trixie1 post holiday blues and winter grey skies can make for a blah mood – it will pass. I try to up my vitamin d, I know some use the SAD lamp, maybe play some happy music or watch comedy to get those laughing happy muscles going. We are here if you need us 
@louloubelle 6 months!!! WOOT WOOT! This is awesome sauce – so very happy for you. Keep this awesome momentum going
Rock on my sober warriors!!!
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Thanks Jazzy 
Feeling very proud X
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Checking in again as having a nice Saturday 
everything has been so doom and gloom lately that I want to throw some pink fizzy energy out into the ether.
Done the pantry, it looks neater and the boys food all fits in now too on their own little shelf
The heating and hot water broke in the apartment block, but we went for our swim and showered there.
Local store had a few bargains on, like a £45 turkey crown for £11 with a month still on it! Got a few bits to last the week but not a lot as I don’t do well with an overly stocked fridge. Banging bargs!!
Heating fixed and hot water back when we finally got home… The boys were angels in the living room for their first time… Usually when out they get the bedroom, their bathroom and the hallway. They behaved so well. Excellent little monkeys!
My better half is cooking me lemon ginger chilli chicken with Parmentier potatoes and 
with almonds, while I’m watching sitting watching the FA CUP .
life is beautiful sometimes 
and I’m starting to adore my kittens way too much! They have been here 9 days now and I can’t imagine life without them!
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Struggling tonight. My Mum is dying from lung cancer and now there are a matter of weeks left she is ready to move into the spare room. She wants to stay at home until the end but doesnt want to die in the bed her and my Dad share (which I totally get!). Tomorrow I am going to set up her new room with all the things she loves and make sure she is comfortable. I can’t do anything about this but I can help her to pass exactly the way she wants.
Driving home, all I wanted to do was stop at the bottle store but I came straight home, logged on here and waiting for the 7pm meeting in 10 min. I will go and clean out a shelf in my wardrobe as soon as the meeting is over and by then the feeling will have passed and I will still be sober.
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@mindofsobermike I’m sorry for all the anxiety and restless nights. I totally understand the frustration with meds and how the side effects are sometimes worse than the original ailment. Sometimes the side effects are exactly what you are trying to get away from. For me I decided to quit all meds last year in January hoping to find natural ways to heal myself. It took a lot of research and is taking a lot of time. I am over a year into it and seeing results but they are very slow to appear. The good news is that they are appearing. I had to change up my entire diet to help my body flush out all the meds. Did this all with help from my doctor and nutritionist. Saying this so you know that it can be done but is not easy. Sending you big hugs – hope you find a good solution for yourself. 
@butterflymoonwoman I’m sorry your knee is still causing you so much discomfort. Hope that it doesn’t give you too much pain at work today. Have you see a doctor about it? Way to go with your 2024 start! Very motivational
@charlie_c so good to see you here with us Charlie – Thank you for your honesty and a wonderful job on day 2!
@noshame enjoy the first snowfall and be safe on the roads.
@lastry Big hugs to you Fiona – I am so very sorry love. I can only imagine how emotional of a time this must be. Grateful that you did log on here and will be going to the meeting. Know we are right here for afterwards too. Sending you so much love my friend - you are not alone!
Checking in on Saturday afternoon…
This week has been a rollercoaster of emotions and all on the sad to depressive scale. I am glad to somewhat see the happy clouds. Just dealing with issues with my brother and his gf. Do not do well with gaslighting narcissist and now she’s coming out as the sympatric understanding one because i refuse to deal with her lying ass. Fuck it - at east i don’t have to see her two faced mug.
I am done crying and seem to be getting angry which i don’t want so will work on finding my happy place.
Really wanted a drink and a smoke today (paced and did laundry and dishes and spent time here to get past it --took some time) - i just really wanted to exhale so hard! Not gonna let anyone have that control over me – NAH i’m good - i will keep this sober streak going
sorry for the rant — feel much better. Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day / evening.
Sending you all so much love.
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Keep on trucking Jasmine! Sending strength. Narcissists suck ass. They are my least favourite people. 
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Thanks love – agreed that they SUCK and i will keep on trucking 
– appreciate you 
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I havent seen a dr about it but if it persists (right now it comes and goes) than I will.
Im so so proud of u Jasmine! Sounds like today was super tough but u worked thru it and pushed past those urges and ull get thru today sober 
hugs!
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@Rob11 congrats on all the 1s 
@Dilettante congrats on the good appraisal sending strength as you navigate things with your daughter 🩵
@Trixie1 congrats on all the 1s (113 now) sending strength to help with the post-holiday blues 🩵
@Butterflymoonwoman it would be a shame not to see you around here anymore, but if you do leave, remember you can have your account anonymized so people can still benefit from what you’ve shared, and you can still reflect back etc, rather than deleting everything. 🩵
@Tragicfarinelli sending wishes for a better opportunity for you 
I love that the kittens are bringing you joy 
congrats also on double digits
@acromouse I hope your shoulders feel better soon sending strength to ride out the hormonal dive, and your cousin’s visit, without bingeing 🩵
@JazzyS sorry you’ve been struggling emotionally proud of you for prioitising self-care 
sending strength and love 🩵
@SoberWalker sorry about the dream, I know they can be disturbing 🩵
@leroy sorry about your nightmare, it sounds horrifying 🩵
@Noshame congrats on double digits for no weed
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@Jimz welcome back 
congrats on 5 days
@zzz great share I’m glad you feel proud, I’m proud of you too 🩵
@LeoLeo congrats on 3 weeks I hope you feel better after your hike 🩵
@Mindofsobermike don’t spend too much of your energy worrying about the staff that aren’t engaging with you, easier said than done I know, but social anxiety is exhausting enough without the added worry of situations like that. Sending strength 🩵
@Nate2 congrats on 80 days
@Nordique congrats on 1300 days
@MooseTracks congrats on 16 months
@Catmama23 really hoping the right opportunity comes along and at the right time for you
@Rockstar24777 feel better soon 🩵
@J_Lo_Ste sorry for your loss 
congrats on 22+ years 
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@Riley_1 congrats on the new job and for 5 days
@Chosen2001 I’m glad you came here to vent and share about it, I can sense your frustration and I just hope you managed to walk away.
@SGC1522 congrats on your year
@Frank68 congrats on 80 days
@wahtisnormal congrats on your new PB that Thailand trip sounds intense so I can see why you’re motivated, how exciting! I’m sorry about the loss of your partner
@Monkey welcome congrats on your sober time
@Lastry congrats on double digits just seen your update, I’m so sorry for what you are going through, there are no words sending strength 🩵
@Violagirl congrats on double digits
@Charlie_C welcome back sending strength 🩵 congrats on day 2
1244 days no alcohol.
709 days no cocaine.
224 days no vape.
It started off well yesterday, I got to my appointment on time, had my blood tests and testosterone shot.
Then, I was reminded by my phone, that both cats were at the groomers at 2pm. So that changed the plan dramatically (abort de-cluttering mission!). It was so hard to capture my poor babies, Prince is the most gentle loving soul but he was so scared he was hissing and spitting at me, because I had to get access to him by moving furniture and therefore his safe spaces were violated. Wolfie was a nightmare to catch too, because he just kept running around my big chair (which is too heavy to move) but I got him eventually. They were both very well behaved for the groomer of course, and we were all home in peace within an hour. Prince only came through to see me once the remainder of yesterday, (he’s usually by my side most of the day), he also hissed at Wolfie at dinner time then refused to eat. I had hoped once we’d all slept on it, he’d have forgiven me. It seems so today, but he’s still hissing at Wolfie like he’s a stranger, despite the groomer using the same spray on them both. Wolfie seems really happy bless him, it must feel good for the extra few cats’ worth of hair to be off him and the clumps of matting that he gets gone, he seems to be thankful rather than angry with me. They did eat together fine this morning, but that was before Prince had chance to sniff him. Dinner time this evening was another fail, but they’ll be fine in a few days.
I woke up naturally fairly early today, did my morning routine and got ready to attend the online the Survivors support group, sat there waiting to be let in for 15mins, then realised it is not the 2nd Saturday of the month yet, 
so I spent a few hours catching-up here instead, then there was a Pokémon event so I played that, then I’ve finished catching-up here.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
🩵
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Thank you @Butterflymoonwoman and @CATMANCAM
It’s a much better day.
Absolutely love this site and all of you
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Hi friends, am now 10 days free of alcohol and 4 days free of THC. I am so grateful to be here. I have a special place I go to in one of my daily meditations, a safe place to process grief. This probably sounds strange but I meet my cat Smokey there and his soul is represented in lion form. The other day another lion walked out of the forest to me and I realized it was the soul of my other cat Pookie who was with me 10 years and passed in 2018. That was actually an experience that made me believe in a higher plane. When we took him to the vet for his final moments, he briefly got his energy back to say goodbye. He looked at me and then licked my hand, which was not a common thing for him to do. He knew it was time and he was saying goodbye. Anyway I realized I still have a lot of grief to process from that. I cry every day and it’s hard but I feel lighter the rest of the day. I am starting to feel exhausted so I have to remember it’s still very early and I need to protect my energy.
Wishing everyone good day 
keep going! Thank you @JazzyS and @CATMANCAM for your kind words 
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Let me second that!!! Narcissistic people can FRO. I’ll put on the FRO thread in fact. Hang in there @JazzyS . So impressive that you are able to be true to yourself and take such good care of yourself, especially in trying situations. 
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