Checking in daily to maintain focus #62

Day 32
Waking up to a new month with a clear head is bliss. No alcohol today
ODAAT
-Solar

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Day 383.

Fudge. Today I wanted to clean my flat, but can’t be fucked. Tho, I suppose the dust will still be here tomorrow. Instead, I’m cooking a nice soup and going to the movies later.

I’m a bit out of wack because I stayed up until 5 am last night working to meet deadlines. I’m definitely too old for this shit, but I also struggle with time management.

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Day
1.03 no cbd
267 no alcohol
198 no vapes or ciggs
68 no thc

I was super sad yesterday for no reason…it made work really hard to work like i normaly do

I have today off so im just going to take my meds as perscribed and stay completely sober.

I do feel better today :slight_smile:

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Day 60
The last two months flew by. Since I’m more focussed on myself and what/who I want to be, I’m less focussed on not drinking. I know I have to be aware to not take my sobriety for granted though, as temptation can creep up on us when we expect it the least.

Tonight and tomorrow I’m having friends for diner, looking forward to that. Tonight will be cheese fondue and tomorrow Thai salad and curry. No work tomorrow so I’m happy I can sleep in a bit!

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Yes! I’ll try to do more things that scared me, like crossing high bridges.
Being in a crowd doesn’t scare me any more, it’s awesome :blush:

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Congrats on the 500 days!:tada: :100: And good to hear all goes well in life :muscle:t3:
That commute looks like heaven man. We have crazy traffic in and around the city, drives me nuts! :rotating_light:

@Zse Congrats on the 60 days sober twin, you can be definitely proud of yourself!! :lotus::raised_hands:

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Happy day 60

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Thanks and happy day #60 to you too :blush::blush: you also can do it

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9 days weed free. 2 days gambling free. 2003 days alcohol free. Anxiety is up there today. Really feel like smoking a cigarette or vape which i havnt done in years.

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Day 79. Not much going on today, just kinda hanging out. Girls had a decent morning, and yeah just chillen. Not much to say today. Much love

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Working my way through day 81. Had a rough start. Woke up groggy and then just one little inconvenient thing after another. They were so minor and I have been handling minor inconveniences like a freaking zen queen. Literally I have made so much progress with my anger and flipping out over EVERY LITTLE THING!! Today I was like the 81 days ago me. Then I realized I didn’t do my morning routine. I’m super hooked on it and apparently my day is not the same without it. I realized I am truly addicted to some really healthy habits and it feels so Fucking good!!! I didn’t run to drugs or alcohol, instead I journaled, did my affirmations and gratitude and prayer and drank my herbal tea, and I was better. It took me so many resets for so many years to get here and I just want anyone who can’t seem to get it to know to never quit quitting and all the other cliche things people say through sobriety…They are all true, and living life sober, happy and healthy is possible and so worth the fight. I have never had more than two weeks sobriety before this and I never would have thought it was possible. With consistency and dealing with all the hard things, it’s possible to recover from this disease. I know I will never be cured but I’m not having a ā€œflare upā€ of addiction and that is a win. Have a thoughtful Thursday sober friends! :heart::muscle:t2:

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Checking in day 12 - already having thoughts of whether I really need to do this or if I can just not drink in some circumstances. I know I can have a few drinks fine no problem. It’s just these odd occasions where it all goes to shit but that’s maybe only a few times a year. I know I’m convincing myself out of it and the safest thing is just a blanket no to drink then I don’t have to worry and this never happens again. But… seems a bit extreme. But then what’s so good about having a few drinks anyway, none of us ever really only want a few, we can just restrain ourselves sometimes. And inevitably that fails at the most key times. Sorry this is just a string of consciousness, probably makes no sense. :v:t2:&:purple_heart:

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Struggled a bit last night and this morning. I went to sleep and started seeing the wounds and stabbings and even dreamed about the process and execution of a really deep cut. It was super duper hard when I woke up too. I struggled this morning with residual urges and images that were going around in my head. It’s been hard to push them away but I used my ā€œriding the waveā€ skill and there are still some disturbing image in my head but I’ve done a good job of keeping busy and pushing them to the back of my mind. I’ve focused on whatever I can do to work towards my goal of becoming a naturalist on a whale watch. I’m studying about whales as well as practicing working with the public by volunteering in public service. By doing all of this, it reminds me that if I were to give into my urges, I’d lose this opportunity that I’ve dreamed of since middle school. So I’m not going to give in. I want to… Really bad. But I can’t… I wont.

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Where do you live? It looks lovely!

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Oh my, that sounds hard, and I’m wishing you strength to stay on a healthy path towards your dream of whales and volunteer work.

Please stay strong :muscle:t2: :heart:

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I live in Christchurch, New Zealand.

That is Castle hill about 1.5 hours away.

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Nicely done

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That’s where my Dad was born. I have started citizenship paperwork quite some time ago.

Nice to hear.

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36 days free of alcohol
30 days free of THC
:seedling:

Congrats everyone on the day counts, some big milestones there!! Keep going, you’re worth it! :yellow_heart::star2::yellow_heart:

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