Thanks @PinkyP Iāve always been kinda go with the flow, but itās gotten immensely easier now. Compared to all the bullshit Iāve been thru, and caused, today feels like a walk in the park. Nothing will ever be that bad again.
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I was so tired this morning. I actually went to bed before midnight and slept 8 hours, then fell asleep on the couch for 3 more before having to leave for thr tasting. It was yummy. We were like vultures They made one of everything on the menu except a few that werenāt ready (including crab manicotti ), so there was a great variety. Then I was so tired when I got home I layed down for another 1/2 hour! I was fine once I got to actual work tho. It was slow, and thatās how I like easing back into it. Our last table at 7:30 canceled, at 7:30, so we got to leave right after we closed. Whoo! Iām beat tho. My body has to get used to standing for hours on end again. Work tomorrow morning and then off again. We donāt go to full time til after Easter, which is on my brotherās birthday/5 year sobriety date this year. Cool Iām back on track with him Oh itās midnight! Happy Friday!
Another good day at work. Ran the dog before work, and got a workout in at the end of shift.
Iād run before work when I was drinking but fuck it was a miserable time, the running after drinking drastically reduced in the past 2-3yrs too as i got older and also consumed more.
I also used to cycle to work sometimes, reasoning that the ride would blow the cobwebs off my hangover and the endorphins would help me through. Then Iād load up on beers on the way home and do it all again.
Today on the way home I listened to a sober podcast I saw recommended on a thread here and tomorrow Iāll wake up feeling great and enjoy my day before heading off to nightshift.
Iāve achieved some nice little goals in January. In the past I would have been broke due to not only Xmas festivities but because I was drinking heavily for the entire time. I put the money I saved to good use and saved hard the whole way through January. This morning Iāve booked a trip for the family and Iām really feeling a tangible link between not drinking and that being the reason I can bring my family on a trip.
Xmas was great, Iām training well for some events I have coming up and my MH is in a good place. Iām 91 days sober and Iāve made the very most of it.
It might be one for you to consider create something tangible, something you can touch and feel that is a result of your abstention.
Hereās to another 24
Just checking in after another routine, but good day. Iām enjoying the self care Iāve been doing. Boot camp at 5am six days a week, doing my best to get through each work day, eating healthy, riding my Peloton six days a week and Iāve started doing these stretching sessions after my rides which is extremely calming and a good way to end my days. I think a lot, who I am, how I got to this stage of life and where I want to go. Far from getting all the answers, but figuring out who I am is the first step.
Getting ready to go to therapy. I can do with a good therapeutical talk. My placeās a mess, will have to do something about that later today as Iām working the weekend. Taking Luna to the vet later in the afternoon for another shot and a nail trim. Cook something healthy. Be in bed by about ten. That will be my day. No idea how in the past drinking and smoking myself into a stupor fitted in there. Never again. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Very true my friend. I felt ashamed getting back here relapse after relapse, but every time it gets easier to not drink. The longing for real sobriety, as in not just counting days and white knuckling through it, gets stronger
@Chosen2001 congrats on reaching another milestone, amazing work!
Tummy bug is much better today. Now Iām still hungry all the time, so Iāll try to be especially mindful with my eating journal.
First of all: Many thanks to yāall who shared your own stories and helped me see that Iām not the only one transferring my addictive behaviour to other stuff. I eased up on myself and took good care of myself yesterday. Felt like a new person
Today Iām going to celebrate Candlemas Day, however this feast is called in your part of the world. This means a lot of light, and self care.
So sorry about your migrain Rosa, I know how bad they can be. Hope you feel a bit better totay. Lovely flowers you got there! De Lego flowers I have too, it was such fun to make them. Hope you enjoy it as much as I had! Have a good day today Rosa
Happy 36 @Violagirl my sober twin! So good to see you post. We are actually doing it!
My children took me out for dinner last night. It was very nice and I really enjoyed it. I had been a little nervous but practiced my ordering a lime and soda in my head all day so as soon as the waitress came to take the drinks order I had no trouble with being indecisive and swiftly ordered my lime and soda and got on with enjoying the evening.
Itās wierd that even my alcoholic husband is proud of me and starting to believe in me. I am so ready for finishing work early today and a relaxing evening. Next week the final stages of a massive project I am managing start and its going to be hectic so I am taking advantage of the quiet before the storm.
Happy Friday sober peeps.
@RosaCanDo Happy Birthday, Rosa! So glad to read about your awesome celebration and those flowers look stunning. My husband gets me fresh flowers once a year for our anniversary and it always makes my heart glow with joy.
@Scorpn oh god, Renee, Iām so sorry to hear about your daughterās bullying. When I was that age, kids at school would bully me mercilessly. It was horrid and I still carry that trauma. Those teachers are absolutely useless, itās infuriating they suspended your daughter for standing up for herself. You seem to be handling the situation really really well!
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Iāve got loads on today, which is kinda good cuz I seem to thrive more when Iām busy. Also, Iām looking forward to next week when the weather will get acceptable enough to start going on hikes again. I really need some fucking trees in my life.
Checking in, STILL sober, even though I had a few rough days.
Looks like Iām getting back with my ex. We were together for eight years, I left him a few months ago mainly because I couldnāt take the never ending conflicts with his children and their mother anymore. Heās decided to distance himself, so now we want to try some coupleās therapy and see where it leads.
He doesnāt drink btw.
I love how positive, supportive and non-judgmental this community is. At the very beginning of my journey I tried it a different one and didnāt feel āsafeā there, but pressured and patronized.
@Forgive_Yourself Hope it works out well between you and your ex, couple therapy is a good start to built on
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Late check in. Itās 10:37 in the morning and Iām still a couch potato But Iām allowed to!
Had a busy day off yesterday so this day off is going to be nice, calm and easy.
My car is in the workshop today for its annual service, oil change and software update
So I am stuck at home, a bit disappointed Iām gonna miss my gym class and Friday spa/sauna session today. But I will devote today to some self care and active recovery work. Time for some self reflection, meditation and owning up to some unfavourable traits and behaviours of mine.
Grateful for all of you in this community, walking this path with me, being part of my journey
Day 229. I found out today that my company might be transferring me back to a location i worked previously. Itās not a place i want to be. Itās not people I want to be around. Iām not happy about it.
It hasnāt happened yet and I might get lucky and it wonāt happen at all. Iām in my head worrying about it tho. I like my current job.
Still hitting gym daily. Spoke with a personal trainer last night and she is putting together a weekly weight training program together for me so I just donāt hit every muscle in my body everyday, lol. The structure will help me immensely.
Another late night hockey game tonight in town so midnight getting home (), and snow heading for the weekend. Supposed to snow tonight through till Sunday, so I suspect lots of shovelling in my future.
My sleep has really come around and Iāve had 6 days straight of falling asleep around 9:30pm and awaking at 5:30am. So pretty stoked. Still zero interest in drinking and my blood sugar and blood pressure is moving in right direction. Doc vid call yesterday as well and booked my next blood work appt for March so weāll see how Iām doing then.
Wishing you all a good sober day and hope you are keeping busy, or chillaxin on the coach with a good movie. Be well everyone
Iām sorry your daughter is going through that. You can only teach them to ignore it for so long, words hurt and some kids never understand that. Iām glad you didnāt give her a punishment, and Iām glad she stood up for herself.
Iāve always been kinda go with the flow, but itās gotten immensely easier now. Compared to all the bullshit Iāve been thru, and caused, today feels like a walk in the park. Nothing will ever be that bad again.
They made one of everything on the menu except a few that werenāt ready (including crab manicotti 
), so there was a great variety. Then I was so tired when I got home I layed down for another 1/2 hour! I was fine once I got to actual work tho. It was slow, and thatās how I like easing back into it. Our last table at 7:30 canceled, at 7:30, so we got to leave right after we closed. Whoo! Iām beat tho. My body has to get used to standing for hours on end again. Work tomorrow morning and then off again. We donāt go to full time til after Easter, which is on my brotherās birthday/5 year sobriety date this year. Cool Iām back on track with him 
Oh itās midnight! Happy Friday!
Candlemas Day, however this feast is called in your part of the world. This means a lot of light, and self care.
this morning I have bad hair and no idea what time it is
But Iām allowed to!
), and snow heading for the weekend. Supposed to snow tonight through till Sunday, so I suspect lots of shovelling in my future.
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