Very true my friend. I felt ashamed getting back here relapse after relapse, but every time it gets easier to not drink. The longing for real sobriety, as in not just counting days and white knuckling through it, gets stronger 
@Chosen2001 congrats on reaching another milestone, amazing work! 
72 no sugar, no binge
28 UPFs
28 dairy
Tummy bug is much better today. Now I’m still hungry all the time, so I’ll try to be especially mindful with my eating journal.
First of all: Many thanks to y’all who shared your own stories and helped me see that I’m not the only one transferring my addictive behaviour to other stuff. I eased up on myself and took good care of myself yesterday. Felt like a new person 
Today I’m going to celebrate 
Candlemas Day, however this feast is called in your part of the world. This means a lot of light, and self care.
Wishing you all a day of light, peace and freedom 
So sorry about your migrain Rosa, I know how bad they can be. Hope you feel a bit better totay. Lovely flowers you got there! De Lego flowers I have too, it was such fun to make them. Hope you enjoy it as much as I had! Have a good day today Rosa 
Happy 36 @Violagirl my sober twin! So good to see you post. We are actually doing it!
My children took me out for dinner last night. It was very nice and I really enjoyed it. I had been a little nervous but practiced my ordering a lime and soda in my head all day so as soon as the waitress came to take the drinks order I had no trouble with being indecisive and swiftly ordered my lime and soda and got on with enjoying the evening.
It’s wierd that even my alcoholic husband is proud of me and starting to believe in me. I am so ready for finishing work early today and a relaxing evening. Next week the final stages of a massive project I am managing start and its going to be hectic so I am taking advantage of the quiet before the storm.
Happy Friday sober peeps.
Nice numbers Menno! 
Have a good productive therapy session today my friend.
Day 223. Just finished on call and now back to my day job 
this morning I have bad hair and no idea what time it is
@RosaCanDo Happy Birthday, Rosa! So glad to read about your awesome celebration and those flowers look stunning. My husband gets me fresh flowers once a year for our anniversary and it always makes my heart glow with joy.
@Scorpn oh god, Renee, I’m so sorry to hear about your daughter’s bullying. When I was that age, kids at school would bully me mercilessly. It was horrid and I still carry that trauma. Those teachers are absolutely useless, it’s infuriating they suspended your daughter for standing up for herself. You seem to be handling the situation really really well!
Day 384.
I’ve got loads on today, which is kinda good cuz I seem to thrive more when I’m busy. Also, I’m looking forward to next week when the weather will get acceptable enough to start going on hikes again. I really need some fucking trees in my life.
Just reading it makes me angry. I feel sorry for your girl and I think you did good thing not punishing her. Some teachers are useless and some kids are just assholes. It breaks my heart when I hear about all this kids bullying shit.
My boy is just 5yo and he is already getting laughed at by some kids at school because he doesn’t speak Dutch good and sometimes he can’t express himself. It makes so sad and angry.
I hope everything gonna work out for you and for your daughter. Is it possible maybe to change a school?
Checking in, STILL sober, even though I had a few rough days.
Looks like I’m getting back with my ex. We were together for eight years, I left him a few months ago mainly because I couldn’t take the never ending conflicts with his children and their mother anymore. He’s decided to distance himself, so now we want to try some couple’s therapy and see where it leads.
He doesn’t drink btw.
I love how positive, supportive and non-judgmental this community is. At the very beginning of my journey I tried it a different one and didn’t feel “safe” there, but pressured and patronized.
Wishing all a great day!
@Forgive_Yourself Hope it works out well between you and your ex, couple therapy is a good start to built on
*Day 1963 
Late check in. It’s 10:37 in the morning and I’m still a couch potato 
But I’m allowed to!
Had a busy day off yesterday so this day off is going to be nice, calm and easy.
Day 333 
That number looks good on me!
My car is in the workshop today for its annual service, oil change and software update 
So I am stuck at home, a bit disappointed I’m gonna miss my gym class and Friday spa/sauna session today. But I will devote today to some self care and active recovery work. Time for some self reflection, meditation and owning up to some unfavourable traits and behaviours of mine.
Grateful for all of you in this community, walking this path with me, being part of my journey 
Day 229. I found out today that my company might be transferring me back to a location i worked previously. It’s not a place i want to be. It’s not people I want to be around. I’m not happy about it.
It hasn’t happened yet and I might get lucky and it won’t happen at all. I’m in my head worrying about it tho. I like my current job.
Whatever happens happens. One day at a time.
Hope eve has a good day.
Good morning TS family.
Day 28 AF
Still hitting gym daily. Spoke with a personal trainer last night and she is putting together a weekly weight training program together for me so I just don’t hit every muscle in my body everyday, lol. The structure will help me immensely.
Another late night hockey game tonight in town so midnight getting home (
), and snow heading for the weekend. Supposed to snow tonight through till Sunday, so I suspect lots of shovelling in my future.
My sleep has really come around and I’ve had 6 days straight of falling asleep around 9:30pm and awaking at 5:30am. So pretty stoked. Still zero interest in drinking and my blood sugar and blood pressure is moving in right direction. Doc vid call yesterday as well and booked my next blood work appt for March so we’ll see how I’m doing then.
Wishing you all a good sober day and hope you are keeping busy, or chillaxin on the coach with a good movie. Be well everyone
Checking in day 32 AF 
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I’m sorry your daughter is going through that. You can only teach them to ignore it for so long, words hurt and some kids never understand that. I’m glad you didn’t give her a punishment, and I’m glad she stood up for herself.
140 days af
Gave up the vape for January and succeeded.
ODAAT
Day 80. It feels good to have 80 days again and climbing towards that 3 months. No welbutrin sniffed, no other drugs of any sorts. Just sober, and the only two meds I take it my cymbalta and omprezal for heartburn. Last night was good, girls had ski club and then we got home and just kinda relaxed, last night I got to cuddle autumn for bed, had a little bit of a hard time falling asleep. We all woke up good and got them off to school, my last day to see my girls. When they get home they are excited to shave my head lol. And then there mom is picking them up around 5. My bike will be here today so that’s exciting, I was thinking of doing like a unboxing and review for YouTube, maybe do it with my girls and we can assemble it together. But tonight’s Friday so I’ll probably take it for a little ride over to the meeting and say hello. I wish the meetings they had here were over in Plattsburgh, id probably go more. There are much less people, and which is funny bc I hated that there was not many people at them at first. Now that I’ve been to some in Plattsburgh I don’t like all the people, I don’t try to take people’s inventory, but the meeting in Plattsburgh that happens at 7 I don’t like, it’s the only meeting I’d be able to hit after work if I wanted to go. It’s usually packed, and last couple times I’ve gone I notice a lot of people talk about others, or argue back and forth a lot. Or some people are trying to get pills or w.e but yeah idk just not a fan ATM. This was also a while ago when I went so maybe I could try again. I’m not against meetings at all, I do like the steps and believe they work if you work them. But I believe that’s true with life and sobriety in general. I tried renewing my girls health insurance through NYS health and they now say I make to much money and want like 500 a month for it. I’m not sure what to do bc I’m sure my job being union is going to have decent benefits for me and my girls, I just don’t know how long I have to be at the hospital before I can get the insurance. Yeah idk, today’s good. Danced and be goofy and enjoy life the best you can. Much love everyone. I’ll probably post a pic with my new bike in the selfie thread after, hope you all don’t mind.
Hey all, checking in on day 1328. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 33
I like 33 so I am going to enjoy this day completely without alcohol
ODAAT
-Solar
Checking in on day 36. My Dad is flying into town to stay with me and we will be visiting family this weekend, all of whom drink. I will be staying sober. And I wil feel much better on Sunday than they will! ODAAT, have a wonderful Friday my fellow warriors 
