I relate to this 100%. I’d never really put words to this experience but you got it exactly. It’s a void that no amount of alcohol can ever fill.
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Day 721
I stayed home from work today. I had sooo many things to do and dont have the time this upcoming week to get everything done. So i made sure to get a lot of things completed today. I did a huge grocery shop, got a workout in by pulling the wagon full of groceries thru sooo much snow, did laundry, did dishes, and now am prepping supper. I really had to get the grocery shopping done today bcuz i wont have time this week to do it, therefore we will run out of food. But its all done!
My son is feeling better! Yay!!! So grateful this was a short lived cold. But my husband seems to be sick now. I really wasnt effected at all for some reason. Not sure why.
Recovery wise… I am good today. I dont really have any urges to use.
Health wise… i could be better. Im definitly getting back on track tmrw. Ill be able to workout and plan my meals a bit. I have my Body Scan on Wednesday at the gym so i want to be at a place where I am usually at. Not eating like I am right now. This is ridiculous.
Anyway, glad to be clean and sober! Grateful for you all! 
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Day 516. I have listened to one quote: “every new day is a present.
Another one: as an alcoholic I am condemned, but the sentence is fortunately suspended.
Enjoy your new free sober life. Worry less, love more. The key is the love. As an alcoholic I am
not permission to be anger.
One day at a time!, happy 24 hours!
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Checking in day 34. Having a lazy Sunday and even the things I planned to do are on hold due to power outage. It’s a healthy reminder that I can’t control everything. I can control whether or not I drink today and I choose not to. Wishing everyone a good, healthy, sober week ahead.
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@scorpn How are you doing Renee – them dreams can be so realistic and disturbing. This is the perfect place to post this as I’m sure many more would benefit knowing that drinking / using dreams are a reality and can leave us feeling unstable. Hoping you were able to get back to sleep and are doing better today 
@happy_trails I just learned that sometimes our posts are saved in drafts – can check by clicking on your image and then clicking on the profile – the menu that pops up has drafts. So grateful that you are feeling better and had a good time with friends.
@acromouse Way to go with your 1 month milestones friend!! 
@rob11 Way to go Rob – you will do a great job navigating your wheel! Wishing you luck with the job.
@wakikki OOF I am sorry for all the anxiety and what it is doing to you. I do hope all goes well for your EMDR. Maybe your mind is worried about that and is projecting more anxiety onto you. Try to breathe friend. I do hope things get better for you real soon 
@catmama23 oh my – that is a lot of emotions and thoughts swirling around. I see you wrote this 7 hours ago… how are you doing now? I am sorry for all the unpleasantness but yes, this too shall pass. I do hope you were able to find a safe space for yourself to deal with these lying thoughts – you are worthy, you are not a lose, you deserve a happy healthy addiction free life! Hoping that you were able to relax and have a better afternoon.
@maestro SO sorry friend – I am sending your wife some comfort and peace – I do hope her pain is better than manageable. Must have been a scary day.
@mindofsobermike Your new bike is fierce! Glad you got to go out riding. I am sorry for all the trouble with your ex Mike. You are right, drinking and drugging offer no solutions. Keep being the awesome dad that you are and doing your best.
@yesnomaybe Way to go with day 4 and going strong with stacking up the days! Here with you – looking forward to celebrating your milestones with you
Checking in on Sunday evening
410 days free of alcohol and weed
825 days free of cigarettes
Had a very pleasant day today. I got to spend a good portion of it with my mom which i am so very grateful for. Got way more done than i had expected to – mostly cause i really had nada planned for today 
I am happy to have had a productive and active day. More grateful to be resting now and about to call it a night.
Another day in the books of being addiction free! Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening. Sending you all so much love 
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Day 36, off for sunrise swim before going to work, have a great week everyone
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Checking in after a productive and relaxing weekend. Went bowling Friday evening - something new i started about a year ago to get myself out of the house and make some new friends. Saturday i went and test drove a bunch of vehicles. Its time to get rid of my Jeep. The warranty is up and it’s costing me money constantly getting little things fixed. Now, i have to decide what i want. I thought I’d narrow it down, but i liked several models. Im not in a rush, so i have time to do some research. I also baked and decorated a batch of cupcakes for my mom to take to her church luncheon. Today, i didn’t leave the house. I started cleaning and doing laundry and got a little carried away. I cleaned furniture, rugs, floors, you name it. Then i did my nails because i trashed them cleaning. Winding down now and planning for a busy week at work. I’m grateful for another sober weekend and knowing I’ll wake up hangover free tomorrow. Thank you all for welcoming me.
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Checking in on 968 days af
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Way to go Charlie — 1 + month is amazing friend. Great to see you checking in! 
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Day 2608. I’ve been busy but wanted to check in. Things are going well. I am in a good place. I just keep plugging away at things. My twins have just started their 2nd semester so it’s too early to worry about grades, lol. My daughter went to her first school dance last night and wore a pink dress. She looked cute. The three cats keep me company when the teens are holed up in their rooms, which is all the time lol.
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Checking in before bed. Tired, boring day. Goodnight
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Day 718 check in. I had a relapse dream last night involving red wine. I could taste it and I’m grateful I woke up panicked but sober. I played the tape through inside my dream and felt the hangover too. I’m not sure if I am proud of myself for using my tools in my dream or if I am concerned that I dreamt about wine. Day off and I made it out for dinner and the movie American Fiction with my husband. That is all I have the energy for today.
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I couldn’t fall asleep until almost 5 this morning. But I did eventually fall asleep. I’m glad you had a nice day! You deserve it 
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Thank you, yes saturday february 3th was “the” day 
But celebrate it next wednesday. Saturday I had to work and was too busy.
And also thank you @happyfeet , I kept it quit so no worries
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Checking in right quick before heading to bed.
Today marks 313 days clean and sober 
So happy and proud of myself to be on this amazing journey. ODAAT!!!
G’nite and God Bless!!!
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End of Day 34:
Really good day today. Slept better last night, which felt so good. Got up and had a delicious breakfast and two mugs of coffee to get me going. My son came over and we went fly fishing, beautiful day on the river, just not a lot of fish, but it’s all about the time with him and being out in nature.
Got home and tried to burn my house down making dinner. My son loves rice-a-roni so i started browning the rice. Ran out to start the bbq for the pork chops and spent a little too much time outside. Came back in and the pan was billowing smoke. Pulled it off just in time, just a little flame, luckily i had another box of rice!
Pork chops turned out great. Good dinner with my son. Took him to get his new stereo installed in his 4-runner, it was his xmas present. Then home for a good 45 minute Peloton ride, a good stretch session, shower and now in bed.
Today would have never happened if i wasn’t sober. Grateful!
Pic of my son on the river today.
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Happy Birthday @SoberWalker
Celebration continuing!
I think it’s a new decade for you … best wishes for it to be your best!!’
Big hugs
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*Day 1965 
Had a short 1 day weekend
Went to the cinema yesterday, but what a strange movie it was! Didn’t like it at all. Well made I guess, but not my type of movie. I waited the whole time if something happened, a big bang, but it wasn’t.
Had the plan to walk but didn’t. Couldn’t find motivation for it So this picture is a few days old.
Today? Work.
Looking forward to tomorrow, the final so last tattoo session for the messed up tattoo of 2 years ago. Bought a little present for the shop owner who took care of it and all on his cost. But it took 2 whole years of laser, waiting and some new ink. But this summer I can show my arm again
I hide it for 2 summers!Glad I went trough all of this sober, I know I would have drank even more to get trough this if I did so.
Have a good start of your week!
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Thank you! A walker gif, that’s cool!
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Day 483
Just checking in. Alarms going off in a few hours.
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