Congrats on 200 days 
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Great job hitting 10 days, a fantastic milestone
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Happy 2 weeks to you
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Hello friends!
This is my first post here.
Sometime back in August, my day-drinking got out of hand, and I went dry, with the help and support of a therapist. I feel myself relapsing a bit right now, so I mostly wanted to reach out, and become a part of a community which can hopefully give me a bit of an atmosphere of positive peer pressure. Feel free to reach out to me: I feel it would be good to be held accountable to my promises to myself to not drink outside of healthy, controlled, social settings.
Day 1. 
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Juat wanted to check in on this brutally cold day (-29Ā°C). Going to have to bundle up today to do my grocery shopping. Hope everyone has a great day!
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āWhen we realize the World does not revolve around us, we relax. When we relax, we are less likely to need to escape by picking up our first drug of choice.ā
quote from the ST daily message
For the most part Iām a social drinker and Iāve done so in order to rise to the expectations I feel ppl have for me to be energetic and talkative. Iām a musician, booker, and performer so I do a lot of shmoozing out at night. So Iād drink heavily to stay out late and be entertainingā¦ but then iād often end up doing embarrassing things that iād obsess over, especially when hungover.
Todayās message reminds me that people donāt have the expectations of me that iāve imagined they have. I donāt have to be entertaining or stay out all night to support my creative pursuits.
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As I laid my head on my pillow last night I reflected on my past two years. The two years Iāve been hoping and wishing for a miracle āfixā or cure for my brother, and having that dwindle month after month until having to accept the outcome that has been one of the most difficult any of my family has had to unwillingly accept.
In those reflections I have found a lot of impatience and quick frustration or anger. Over-reactions to simple things in life.
Though Iāve managed to stay sober, I donāt feel that I am doing it at my very best.
Today Iāve chosen to clear those feelings Iām holding onto. To give it itās own space and time where it is not deflected onto anyone or anything else.
If I hold onto these feelings and let them fester I am certain itāll turn into something more. Risk my healthā¦ Risk my sobrietyā¦ Risk everything,ā¦ No thanks.
I will finally be as intentional as I possibly can be.
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Indeed, thatās kindof been my experience as well: feeling I need to drink in order to be more lively at social gatherings.
And then, during a dry period (choosing not to drink at all), I attended a wine tasting with my wifeās family. Lo and behold, I found myself cracking jokes and making people laugh, just as usual. Moments like that are terrific boosts to our morale and self-confidence: that drinking is NOT an essential part of who we are.
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Hi Liv,
We also get to build healthy and functional boundary lines instead of expectations. I think a lot of my ongoing recovery has been trying to figure out what colour I am, how many times I went over my own lines, who else is willy nilly treading over my lines and making a crazy mess of my picture.
Keep building. You are enough however you are presenting. 
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Checking in on day 182. Allow me to share a little story from my days teaching kindergarten. Each year in gym class, it was traditional to do a warm up by running from one side of the gym to the other. And each year was pretty much the same.
There were always some kids who were reluctant to try because they felt afraid to be ālosersā. They knew someone would get there first, others would come in close seconds, and they might get there last. So I would say, āThis isnāt about who gets there first. This is about everyone getting to the other side.ā
Then Iād do a silly trot across to the other side and invite them to come across next. I was there to celebrate them as they made it to the other side. The kids who got there first cheered on the rest ā¦and so it went. Gym warm ups. Not a race.
Letās all do our best getting to the other side.
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Day 466
Today I had a very awkward conversation with a coworker. She complained about how my communication with the office was while I was sick at home. I was away 7 weeks splitted in several sick notes. My Dr wanted to talk to me every 14 days to see how Iām doing and if Iām able to go to work again, and I liked that. He wouldnāt do it any other way.
My coworker complained that it was hard for them to plan their daily tasks because every 14 days I told them āIām still sickā.
After my first sick note I already told them that Iāll be away 6-8 weeks in total and they need to plan accordingly. Seems nobody did listen. I told this my boss, her boss and the whole team.
Now my coworker is disappointed in me and my behavior 
Sometimes I really think all of this is a circus and Iām the dancing elephantā¦
When the other coworker was away, sick for 8 weeks, nobody complained. They welcomed her back like a friend.
When I came back the whole situation was awkward and now this conversations todayā¦oh boy.
Still no other job in sight, Iāll keep on searching.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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I thought itās kind of normal here this 14-day rhythm except for special conditions. Donāt listen to them 
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Ahw you made everything right!
Donāt put it on your heart 
You are great 
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Donāt let it get to you. Youāre an amazing person with a big heart. Do whatās right for you, you put your best effort it when you can and thatās all that matters. If people canāt understand shit happens and life happens and weāre human. Then fuck them
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Every time I see this my mind pictures a pierced nipple and I canāt ever unsee it 
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Day
245 no alcohol (8months)
176 no vapes or ciggs
15.90 no gorm of marijuana (thc, cbd, hemp, exc.)
Plenty to do today
Day off
Appointments and errends
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Thanks mr mike
I look up to you on here
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Thanks for putting that picture in my head
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