I won’t listen to them. Thanks to my meds I’m handling this pretty good. 2 months ago this would’ve make me go crazy in my head. Now I’m just shrugging and go on with life.
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Hey ya’ll,
I cannot believe I am coming up to 6 mobths. I just cannot. I am so grateful (sounds crazy) for that craving the other day because it really has let me know how strong it can feel & how trauma atill triggers (and how to prepare best i can for the trial).
I think i am going to be there for at least 2 of the 3 weeks. Even if not present in the courtroom to be there in the city. I want to be present for the witnesses who are testifying to show my support, but i think i will get some noise cancelling headphones if i feel i do not want to hear certain things. I just do not believe anything good could come of beinf present the entire trial, and if anything it could be harmful.
We are looking for a home exchange for the march break in the ciry so that would be nice, i think. I really have np idea how i feel, but i think 2 weeks alpne with my mom during this time would be WAY tpo muvh for me. And yet i feel veru responsible for her at the same time.
Just have to prepare prepare prepare. Smokings not getting quit before NOT EVEN GON TRY LOL. I thibk i will make a page on here when it gets close to check in each day. Ill have to be mindful of details i share but i think i will need the support.
Xo.
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I always enjoy seeing your photos - that cobblestone road/pathway and little details on the buildings like the roofing and shutters… it looks so quaint and dream-like to me.
I’ve not yet been outside of North America and it’s neat to see how different the architecture is. A simple reminder that all of us are facing a lot of the same challenges all over the world as we go about our individual day to day lives.
Great reminder of the quality sleep that comes with sobriety. I feel like with sobriety on previous attempts, I expected big changes to manifest suddenly. This time around I am really appreciating the meaning in the day to day improvements of life while sober… sleep being a huge one.
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Day 206. Hope everyone has a great day.
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Day 1117,
Received the report from the neuropsychology centre I have been too. Positive and “negative” things, I’m grateful for the effort and detail they put in it. Feels really as something I can work with. Been to my re-integration coach after I received it, so was triggered already and got triggered more being there. So I just vented to the poor guy, I said sorry, but there was no need to say that. Went to the gym afterwards, really needed it, I notice I can do max 2 days without physical exercise. Below a portret my fellow student of the portret course made yesterday.
Have a great sober day 
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A limit of 2 days over a year, or fired sounds crazy to me and very unreasonable for most people. With the current economy and many struggling… that puts pressure on a lot of folks to come to work ill and contagious. Making it take longer to become healthy and most productive at work. Not to mention, putting everyone else in the environment at risk of becoming ill. It’s great that you’re making it in to your new job every day, and doing it sober. Making it through the elements of snow or rain and being soggy and uncomfortable at work all day - been there! I bet you were happy when the work day was over!
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Day 363. Cozy and relaxing day. Snuggles and play time with my youngest, cleaned my house a bit, caught up on here and enjoyed a bit of a new book I downloaded.
Hope everyone having a great day.
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Day 200. Second check in. Struggling a little. Work was good. Mood feels a tad flat.
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Hey y’all. Just got word of another friend dying from an overdose and I just feel sad, angry and defeated. I’m sick of losing people to addiction. I know I’m not alone. So many bright and loving people lost in such a terrible way.
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Hi friends, 14 days free of alcohol, 8 days free of THC.
I’ve reached the part of early recovery where o have a constant headache. Going on almost 48 hours, does not let up day or night and nothing helps. But I know I never have to go through this again, just like I never have to take a drink again or use any kind of substance that takes me out of the present moment. I’m also glad the horrible bloating phase is over, which for me happens the first 3-6 days. All part of the healing process. My body works hard for me!
Something can only grow if it has space to grow… removing all the layers I don’t need….
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@bobtheturnip welcome, this is a great community!!
@JazzyS thank you good luck with the follow up mammogram
@Mno glad new job is going well 
love to Luna 
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Lol
It’s good I almost done with those 
Only two niples left, Mike - we can do this!!
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Checking out sober on day 38
I was very tired this afternoon and had a two hour nap. Did some work today, saw a friend and had a nice evening with son and gf. Nothing special but another nice and relaxed day 
Time to walk the dog and then off to bed.
Have a sweet sober day/night, night night! 
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Checking in with 652 days 
Sober today, so it will be a good day. Take care friends x
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Man, so I called the lady in Vermont again who does the recruiting for the hospital. She finally answered, and says we didn’t want to go through with hiring me and thought the email went through. But she said they didn’t want to hire me bc I spoke about wanting to be a CNA and the lady who did the interview thought wasn’t ok. I said there was a huge mis understanding and that I said I originally went to meadowbrook to take my CNA classes but they couldn’t put me through. I said I felt it was really to bad because I know I’m a great employee and I would of been a hard worker for them. The lady said she regrets that there was a misunderstanding and would like to talk to the other lady about giving me a chance. Now im just really thinking do I really want to give these guys my time? No decency to return my calls, going to fire me if I call in more then twice in a year, and literally didn’t want to hire me bc I had originally wanted to be a CNA. Idk I’m confused like always lol but idk if they call back and want to hire me idk what to do. I’m sure my higher power will work it’s magic somehow.
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Checking in, sending love and strength 
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Checking in on day 169. Sleeping badly is catching up with me, but at least I am not running around a classroom anymore and travelling a long way for work. I’m thankful for that.
I hope everyone is good, we got this 
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@acromouse Way to go on not listening to that addiction voice. Can really be annoying when it starts spinning its tale. Grateful that we can see through it… Hope you enjoy your birthday dinner party tonight.
@lastry 2 weeks is awesome Fiona! “I need to slow down and enjoy the craft rather than rush for the finished object.” Love this line and so true – I too need to live by this thought process
@timetochange 200 days is amazing! Sorry for the crappy night sleep due to past memories. Hoping you can enjoy your milestone and get some decent sleep soon!
@mischa84 I am so sorry love – I can feel your frustration and wish you can work with someone to help you with removing the blockage. I know after years of trauma and sadness the body finds a way to shield us from our own emotions, that blockage can be deep. Sorry you had a bad morning Mischa – hoping your day got better 
@iamthechange Congrats on your 40 days of sobriety Ami – keep it going
@violagirl way to go with your 2 weeks of sobriety! That is awesome news! Keep up with this amazing momentum.
@trixie1 Congrats on your double digits of no vape! That is impressive! Love the sober trackers 
@mrpoin Welcome to the community Mark and a great job with your double digits! Keep it going strong Great to have you here with us!
@bobtheturnip Welcome to community Bob! Great work on joining in here (forum is full of like minded individuals all working on living a healthy sober lifestyle). I do find that this check in thread is super helpful in keeping me accountable. Get to post here daily and also read from other fellow members. Our support for each other is super useful in keeping us on track. Hope to see you around.
@charlie_c Great work on day 6 friend – I know the thoughts can be overwhelming at times, especially at the beginning. Find ways to keep yourself distracted. We are here if you need to chat. Sending you strength to keep pushing forward.
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Hi! Checking in on Day 8! I’ve been experiencing a lot of boredom which makes me want to have a drink. I live alone, and work from home 3 days out of the work week. When I’m done with work, I get bored. With that comes over-eating comfort foods/junk food, and overindulging in social media, in order to fill the void left by alcohol. It’s frustrating and anxiety-inducing. Each day feels VERY long.
I do plan to try some at-home workouts and take walks (even in the cold). So maybe that will help to fill up the free time and keep the cravings at bay? We’ll see. But the over-eating, especially sugary things, is bothering me.
Thanks for reading!
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@sabrina80 so messed up – not your problem that they did not listen or prepare accordingly. So many times you have had to work short handed and not made a huge thing out of it so this co-worker needs to mind her business. Do not let the pettiness get to you – you do you! Grateful that you are well enough to return to work. 
@noshame way to go Matt – 8 months is amazing work – love all the other timers too!!! Keep it going strong
@mira_d 6 months coming up – you are doing great girl! Of course we will be here for you to offer support. Sending you so much love and comfort as you prepare for this trial (mentally, emotionally and physically). Smart on getting the noise cancelling headphones – you are right that it could be more harmful than useful to hear all the details. 
@mauvaisminou so very sorry for your loss 
Addiction is such a nasty beast and takes so much from us. I am grateful that you are working on your recovery. We are here for you and again so very sorry for your loss.
@catmama23 Yippee – 2 weeks is great work! Thank you friend – they called me in today and all went well. Grateful to be sober and on a way to a healthier lifestyle.
@mia2 so good to see you checking in Mia! Always lovely when I see your avatar. Hope you are doing well
@Bfdeirish Great work on day 8 Britdei! I do know how the boredom can be crippling and a huge trigger. Great job on planning the walks and the in home workouts. I did find that filling the time with something (whatever it was) helped keep my mind clear of the urges. I too was heavy on the sweets for the first few months of sobriety as your body (out bodies are getting used to no alcohol and all the sugar that came with that). Be gentle with yourself. For me, staying active here also helped me with the boredom and the urges – hope it can do the same for you.
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon
I slept really well yesterday / today – really did not want to get up LOL. Grateful i picked up the call from the scheduler and they were able to see me today for the follow up testing and imaging. It again went very quickly and efficiently. No need to worry. They will do a follow up in 6 months just to be sure. Feels great to hear that news. Now ready to eat so off to make dinner…
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love.
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