I am so, SO sorry for ur loss. This sounds incredibly hard. She sounded like a lovely, caring, compassionate woman. We are all here if you need us friend 
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Yes, itās sad but that happens sometimes. You know when the time is right to move on x
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Great to see Eke!! Congratulations on your 2,000!!! Hope all is well. You are missed. 
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Day 208. Feeling good. A bit of snow in Cornwall today which was nice to see. A decent day planned for tomoroā¦
Then itās already the weekend. Have a fab day folks
Done my finances, skint till about April 
it could be alot worse I guess
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See what I mean āsoftā?! It snowed 1/4" inch max after they canceled school last night. I think they just wanted a day off 
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Day 5
About to go to work, already feel burnt out and im only half way through the week
Working 7 days this week and i would love to ask a coworker to cover for me one of the days so i can have a day for myself, but despite the fact i always cover for other people, no one ever covers for me. I cant tell you the last time i asked someone to cover a shift and they said yes 
Also had someone tip me $10 on a $160 tab yesterday, and another group left me no tip on a $200 tab so its like whats even the point of being at work if im not making any money 
(it happens, it was just another annoyance)
Yesterday my friend who weighs like 100 lbs was also saying to me how she needs to lose weight etc which was extremely irritating considering the fact i weigh more than her and ive struggled with my body image lately, and i have a history of an ED (i know this is more of my issue than her doing anytging wrong, just frustrating when im already not feeling good about myself)
So sorry for the rant lolol
Just feeling down about myself/burnt out/pissed off the past couple days but i know ill get through it. Trying to stay positive, im just irritated and some days are just hard.
Hope everyone has a lovely day, you guys are all killing it 
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Checking in on day 190. Love to all!
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100+% struggling with life today. My desire to stay around is limited by my 20 year old. I am tired. I need more sleep, or a vacation. Money would also help a great deal, or a job that doesnāt hurt. Dang it. I am almost 3X her age. Why does she think she knows so much with that age? Shocking to me. Just shocking.
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Exactly because thatās her age JenĆ©. I did. Iām sorry. Hang in there. Keep going. Hang with us. Iām glad youāre here.
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Iām so sorry for your loss, itās heartbreakingā¦ Your strength is a great tribute to herā¦ sending love and hugs
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I have a 20 year old also. And she knows all, just like I did at that age. Strength and love being sent your way over the line. ODAAT 
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@cat10 I am sorry to hear about your friendship. I too had to break a friendship from high school for the same reasons. My needs and what was going on in my life was being ignored and of no significance. I realized when I got sober how one sided our relationship was and have decided that I deserve better as do you. I love that you went to the ocean for some peace and reflection time. Keep working on your journey and surrounding yourself with those who will help lift you up.
@hotic UGH ā this is disturbing to read and so very true in our everyday culture. So much stress is put on drinking and how itās the way to be social and be accepted into society. 
It is a shame and I am keeping hope that as more of us are finding our way to sober living that this will be the accepted new norm for our future (wishful thinking maybe but Iām holing onto it).
@meka so lovely to see you doing so well on your journey ā coming up on 8 months is amazing ā looking forward to celebrating your milestone with you. 
@dolse71 Iām sorry Paul ā that can be a bit frustrating (getting anxiety over what you want to share or are thinking of saying). I am sure your presence alone would be of great benefit to those at the meeting. I personally have only been to one meeting but feel that even just being there and lending an ear / shoulder is beneficial to all parties including yourself. See you getting close to another month of sobrietyā¦ keep showing us how its done 
@butterflymoonwoman How are you doing today Dana? I can understand the not being able to let some things go ā not sure if it is the time of the month, the weather (being stuck indoors) or lack of sleep but sometimes I see myself holding onto the tiniest thing and making it a huge thing in my mind (causing hella anxiety). When I realize what is happening, I try to practice my self care ā deep breathing and meditation ā¦etc to get back to center. I do hope you are in a much better place today 
Glad to see that today is starting off on a brighter note for you
@mira_d WOOT WOOT!!! Wow ā that is awesome Mira ā congrats on your 6 months! 
Love ya girl and so grateful to have you here with us ā I too am in awe at how much I rely on this community and all itās support. So much love in this place
@just_laura YUM ā sounds delish ā hope you enjoyed! Surprised that they were so intense in NY with the snow. Would have figured 3ā would be a dusting to you guys 
We have not seen any closures here yet. People are still driving like we have clean streets which is a bit scary. I always thought that snow days were good for the kids but felt bad for the parents in having to rearrange their schedules).
@mischa84 So sorry that you are ill ā sending your healing vibes and wishing that you are able to find time to rest. Wishing you a speedy recovery. OOF - yeah drunk calls and texts ā not sure which is worse but I do know I would only pick up the phone to have a long conversation after I had downed a good amount. Not sure why I needed that to hold a conversation ā thank goodness that is the old me.
@moosetracks Thatās whatās up!!! 500 days and going strong grateful that the sobriety journey allows us the time and energy to work on ourselves in every sense. Wishing you luck with your medical issues
@lotusflower Hey Des ā hows it going?
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Sending hugs today The hardest days suck hard.
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I havenāt checked in in months because I have been using marijuana regularly. I am mindful of the rule not to post while under the influenceā¦
Iāve not given up on my goal to be sober, Iāve just given up on judging myself so harshly and āwhite knucklingā my sobriety.
Iām focusing on addressing childhood trauma with an extensive journaling project. Iām hoping that understanding cognitively and letting go emotionally of the past will help me get clear and focused about my goals.
If anyone is interested in how I am addressing childhood traumas without expensive therapists etc. look here: https://www.selfauthoring.com/ what Iām doing is based on the journaling prompts that I found on this website (Jordan Peterson).
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@soberbilly so very sorry to hear about your loss dear friend. How are you holding up? Big comfort hugs your way Grateful that you are able to take refuge among your friends in recovery 
@noshame Way to go with your 6 months of no cigs and vapes ā this is incredible. Watching you excel with all your timers is so lovely ā keep going strong
@SelfLove_42 how are you doing friend?
@jp123 I do hate those days and they did come with some force. We are here for you if you need to vent it out. Hope your day gets easier for you
No need to apologize Zoe! I am sorry that you are feeling this way. Long working hours / days can be overwhelming and create a mental downer too. We are here if you need so talk or vent. I find that sharing your frustrations helps take some of the weight off of your shoulders. I know body image is a self journey but I want to tell you that you are beautiful the way you are.
@earnit I am so sorry that today is so challenging for you. Sending you hugs and love. The young do have a crazy idealization that they have it all figured out (I know I was stupid enough to think this. Hang in there Jene ā I do hope it gets easier very soon for you.
Checking in on Thursday morning
Did not sleep much if at all but surprisingly alert today. Did need one extra cup of coffee. Have my treatment tonight. Realized that next week is the last session in this round of 8 weeks and i am not seeing much improvement. I know its slow but i feel like i did a major back slide this week which is very frustrating. Still trying to keep thinking positively and have hope that behind the scenes big things are happening
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
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Yeahā¦I thought it would be different thru homeschooled kiddos. My youngest - truth for that. At her age, I was in the Air Force, not trying to kick anyoneās ass. She has had it for a year, not sure exactly why. My book, annual day āchatā basically told me to let all ācrapā goā¦that it has nothing to do with my gain in life.
I need to tame out my Momma-hood. XXOO right to you, M!
Edit: Just to lay it outā¦I was raised by a cop, who was raised as an evangelicalā¦I may have had an alcohol problem but did not raise āpeopleā shit.
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Day 474
Today was a tough day at work because we had trouble getting the medicine we inject our patients. Snow chaos in my part of Germany.
Eventually all went well, we got the meds but had to reschedule many appointments.
Although it was stressful I enjoyed the day. It was a good feeling making the impossible possible with the help of a good team
Busses and trains were delayed, still no bad mood. Arriving at home I met my neighbor and had a nice chat with her 
I showered and still felt good.
Now Iām enjoying leftovers from yesterday on my couch and will go to bed around 9pm.
I even enjoyed doing the dishes 
Today is an extraordinary day, and Iām very grateful for that.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Checking in on day 228 AF.
I took another long walk today. I followed the exact same route as yesterday but my phone registered the distance a bit lower so I mapped out the route and discovered it is 12k including the walk to the yoga studio. I can feel it in my body today so Iām just going to have a relaxing evening on the settee.
A photo from todays walk. It was so beautiful out.
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