@Butterflymoonwoman I hope you got some self-care in 🩵 @Mira_D congrats on 6 months @icebear congrats on 950 days @acromouse I hope all of your hormone symptoms level out soon and that you did get some self-care in 🩵 @Mischa84 feel better soon 🩵 @MooseTracks congrats on 500 days and for taking care of your health @Soberbilly sorry for your loss @Noshame congrats on 6 months for no vape or cigs @wahtisnormal@EarnIt sending you both strength 🩵🩵
1256 days no alcohol.
721 days no cocaine.
236 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
The course was okay, no tips or advice in today’s part, very vague and ambiguous information, have to wait for the next part in mid March for potentially helpful content.
Tonight I need to wrap my brother’s family’s gifts ready to meet my baby niece tomorrow morning. I need to be up early to do my morning routine and shower before I go.
Depression is sitting heavy on me again, and I have struggled with Asthma today, it has calmed down at the moment thankfully.
I forgot to check in this morning but I’m keeping sober on Day 9. I had a bad shock earlier but I was able to deal with it and even find some silver lining, thanks to sobriety. I’m feeling more capable already.
I’m feeling pretty stressed right now because the online parent portal for checking grades has my son with an F in math for the semester. Grades will be final within a week. But this so doesn’t make sense since he had an A for P1 grade an a B for P2 grade. P1 and P2 are period 1 and period 2 grading periods within the semester. I told him to talk to his teacher today and I have also reached out and emailed her. So we shall see.
Other than that, things are going well. Have a great sober day peeps!
I was on a training course for work today. Nothing hectic but plenty of interaction, discussion and practical type of stuff. I’m pretty good on the subject matter so it was a breeze.
A couple of months ago I went through a rough MH patch with a lot of Anxiety. Even the thoughts of attending something like today would have sent shivers down my spine. But today came and went without a hitch, a step forward? Yeah… I’ll take it. A win is a win.
While I’m on the subject of work training days. I remember a couple of years ago when I was younger and drinking pretty heavy I had a 2 or 3 day thing. I was well out of my league there were a lot of people who were a lot smarter than me there, which was bad enough but I had to top it off with rolling in off the back of a 3 day bender, it was horrendous! Lots of the good stuff such as “ice breakers” introductions, break out rooms, presenting in groups. So help me god how I made it through that first day I’ll never know. That Monday evening I “cured” myself with a load of more beer, then rolled in on day 2 of the session after a 4 day bender how I made it through…
Moral of the story? drink makes the things much much harder!
If you still reading this far well done. I just got on a bit of a roll.
Good night
Crap day. Wasted a bunch of time in my job search filling out info on a site that made it seem like I was applying to a job but really they were just the middle man and then I was directed to the actual job site and was going to have to re-enter everything after they said I wouldn’t have to. Don’t have the time or energy for that. Also still dealing with symptoms of an infection indirectly caused by my drinking, so no one to blame but myself for all this. Some days just feel so hopeless. But I’m not going to drink, that’s what got me into this mess. #odaat
I’m so sorry for your loss Bill. It’s so sad. We all don’t know how much time we have left to live.
So let’s make every day count.
Glad you came here to share what happened and it’s good that you have your communities to get your back and help you to process the grief.
Talking about your cousin is a wonderful way to honour her life and love for you. May she rest in peace.
Sending love and strength your way
So sorry @Soberbilly for your loss. Your words about your cousin and her support and your grief were powerful. I love that you are taking refuge in your program and teachings and allowing yourself space. We are here for you papabilly!
Greif is a hard journey to travel. I am so sorry for your deep deep loss, it is beyond words to express the loss of someone so dear. Please know I am thinking of you, sending you love & hope you are able to feel her in some way (memories, small moments, etc.) The journey through loss is so unique, I wish i had more to offer you.but just know you have a fellow grieving soul, dealing with immense loss and findinf these moments (and not drinking, it surely will not help). Wishing you some peace on these days my friend, and the only real thing I can say is that when the emotions come allow them. When you need support, we’re here. Xo
I’m sober, and intend to give my best to keep it that way.
Plan for today is to move house and clean my old one before work in the eve.
I’ll start it off with a cold shower, some breakfast and a little meditation.
Circumstances are changing around me… My current friends group is breaking up and going their own ways after concluding their uni, I’m moving house to somewhere temporary as the lease ends, and want to go travelling for an unknown period of time.
All that counts is that I stay mindful and sober, and I’ll find my way…
Have a nice and/or productive day or night if you’re reading this. Focus on your breathe, heartbeat, 5 senses and purpose you’re after in life We’ve got this.
Just wanting to check in. Had a verybproductive week here with my mom & nephew, and it feels good to be able to give and focus on them. I love visiting with the whole family, but I will say the immense energy of everyone can be overstimulqting and its hard to help my mom in the ways I feel I need to and give my nephew that 1-1 time he needs when my children are here (of course that makes sense, and yet to me it makes NO SENSE that it should be challenging to all be together…in my brain, it is difficult to explain and feels like this should not be so.)
We had 3 meetings today for my nephew so I did the 1st one, my mom did the 2nd one. I spent it strongly advocating for a residential placement application and we are now gettinf the referral process going. The way residential placements work inbmy country for chuldren with high needs is that it is processed through the child welfare sector and you have to give up custody. I have fought so hard this past 2 years for us not to lose custody (which we were told was IMPOSSIBLE and not how the system works), and we are finally goinf to get custody. I advocated so fuxking hard and pushed and pushed and guess what? Its not impossible, and we have made it this far…so I am trying to remember just for today, one step at a time.
See the other day I was tucking my nephew in, kissing his face and reading him a story his mom made for him thinking and feeling like we dont have any options, what is goinf to happen to him? I was feeling that dispare and weight. The ultimate saddness, and today though hard I feel more back ro having mt faith and hope. We have come SO FAR, we have not given up and we CAN find a solution if we keep doing the right thing and putting one foot in front of the other. Will it be a perfect rosy scenario? No. No we are beyond this, but I will continje to work hard for this little boy & my mom, who is really giving this everuthing she has and thrn some.
I think what I am trying to say is. Dont give up. Its not about not accepting reality, or needong to be in control. And its good to be mondful of those things, but dont give up. Fight, find your peace and listen to that voice inside you (or if you have an HP) that helps to guide your steps. Its scary to come up against it when people say things are impossible, and I dont want to be cheesy like nothings impossible but…just dont give up. I believe in myself today, I believe in my little family & while I cannot determine all outcomes I can choose how I respond and sometimes that is to pushback witj the weight of my goddamn ancestors
Thank you so much for being here for me during this time in my life. You guys are my people & i love you all. Xo.
Thank you so much for the love @SassyRocks, @Mno, @SoberWalker@RosaCanDo & @Mischa84! Hope you are feeling better Mischa I know the lids are ruthless when youre sick LOL No shits given that mommy feels like crap
& thanks so much Miss @JazzyS you know I love you and so appreciate all of your support & openness through my time being here! You guys are all gems
& @Cat10 Im so glad you let it out. Honestly not that its about me LOL but I just so appreciate you sharing bc as adults it almost feels like…these things wont happen, so when they do happen to you it feels weird and I have felt in my adult life like something was wrong with me for “losing” friends or rel breaking down. I just appreciate that you vented here, bc low & behold you have helped another fellow human feel less alone these moments are so important, to find those who truly stand with us & Im glad to it felt better to just get that shit off your chest. Xo.
@catmancam Sorry Cam – I hope that your depression gets easier my friend. So sorry that you are also dealing with asthma. Hope that you feel some relief soon @wahtisnormal Glad it felt good to let it out – Here anytime you need a ear / shoulder Hope your day got easier. @kareness Ah I can see this causing a lot of anxiety and frustration. Sending good vibes and hoping that it was just a glitch in the system. @catmama23 Oh thank goodness you posted the emoji – I was like wait – something is missing! I’m sorry about your crap day. Can totally relate to feeling hopeless some days. I do hope you are able to find the light to up lift you – sending positive vibes your way @mira_d WHAT – I am so happy to read this post today girl – way to go with your awesome advocating. So grateful that you will be able to get custody. What a beautiful message of not giving up and accepting things as impossible upon face value. Much love to you my friend.
Checking in Thursday evening
393 days free of alcohol and weed
808 days free of cigarettes
Not much to report - just exhausted and ready for bed.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening – sending you all so much love
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grateful for this space and for your willingness to listen, thank you 
We’ve got this.
I gotchu, Mira. And. You. Got. Me. 
