Evning of day
254 no alcohol
185 no vdpes or ciggs
25.10 no for of pot (cbd, thc, hemp exc.)
I felt some streighn
Had a small craving come and go for weed but its houestly pointless to start. Too expensive.
Im taking a 4mg nic lozenge ever 30min or an hour. Been doing this for days now. Which is better then two 2mg or three 2mg or a 2mg as often as i can
Im getting the least amount of nic i have had sence i started if i can keep this up
Just one day at a time
And easy does it
Hey, thanks, and yes that definitely counts for something. Tbh that was me yesterday but today has been smooth sailing - just serene. For me it goes to show how quickly being in a bad place can turn to being in a good place: impossible when in active addiction, apart from the mirage of the temporary high.
Doing better today. My son was able to retake one test and his math grade changed from an F to a C. Phew!!
The weekendā¦ A time for family, nice coffee, extra sleep, Netflix and chill and some exercise. Iāll get some headspace after a pretty straight forward but nonetheless at times curvebally week. Weekends can be great, but also a time that can catch you out if you let them.
Make that little commitment to yourself just one more time before you drop off to sleep and make it a great weekend.
I am just going to update a little bitā¦I am sitting in my online meetings and so many people are shocked that sometimes many attempts happen. Let me share, as I am not in words with them, I have been working on sobriety for about three decades. Each and every time, I come up with more to know. This time, as wounded as I was/am, I came up with a huge amount of quitting, as a rule to stay alive and make the hurt (true, not emotional) unstable. Just something I wanted to put out there. Though there are a lot of āwant to drinks,ā it has nothing to do with just being given nothing.
Much love peeps.
Hey all,
Home today! Happy to see my family, but very hard to leave. My nephew was upset I was going, and that hurts my heart.
I have decided i will not speak to my dad about his wife. I need to just not. It is not productive, and I do not want to explain anymore how things are from my persepctive. I do not know where this leaves us, but I almost feel compelled to speak to him about issues to fix them. I just have to not speak about those issues; it is hard as it effects me, and I havent heard him say much about it but I do not think its good for me.
I am exhausted today! I had an emotional day, and I really cried. I made my nepuew his social story about his mom and wrote it out for him, and it was very emotional to do. I now feel like I just have way too much experience talking to kids about greif LOL. I cried my eyes out after I recorded myself reading it, so my mom does not have to read it. I think maybe when I am not there i would like to send him videos of me singing songs or counting or soemthing. He doesnt respond well to video calls, but he does love watching stuff so I will try that.
Oh i cried and it was deep. I cried for my sister, nephew and mom and that bond between a mother and their child that has been so deeply effected and recreated in so many ways out of something so tragic and pointless. I listened to an older song called Last Song by Rhianna and it just hit right. Tears just poured out my face.
Talked to my dad and Im not sure it was productive but it was emotional. It hard because he is from a generation and also fam who dont talk. He does not talk or engage in conflict in personal situations, and our brains are diff. So if you bring conflict UP to him, its difficult and it has been very hard to do. Sometimes im not sure its going anywhere and other times I suspect weāre growing. Sometimes I am not sure how we fit because we are so different. I am not altogether sure what the outcome will be for my dad and I, but I kind of wantnto give it up qnd just see where it goes.
I am surely glad to be home but missing my other boy. Emotional day, cried and thats good. Now I am supertired.
Xo all and happy 25th hour! Xo
Checking 216 AF
Long day, splitting headache. Happy to be sober.
Sleep well sober family
49 days in the bank
Finished nightshift and went home to sleep. Got a couple hours in then went to a nieces bday party. Few of the old drinking mates there but just stuck to ice waters.
Off work now for a few days and happy to be done with work after the last couple hot, humid nightshifts.
Evening to be spent with the family, then a hangover free Sunday.
Wishing everyone the same
@lastry WOW Fiona! 6500 days is fantastic and hell yeah you can do the hard things. Keep on kicking ass 
I do hope your car is everything that you need! Love that you are knitting a matching sweater ā this made me chuckle. Hoping that you will share it when you finish it
@rob11 OMG Rob ā I felt that gif. I do hope you are able to clam yourself and have a much happier weekend 
@jimz Great work on talking through the craving. A very reasonable and well thought out conversation my friend ā grateful you woke up with another day under your belt and no hangover!
@mindofsobermike Ah friend ā we do love hearing from you (the good and the bad ā all that you are working through). I see you working on your journey and just keep working your ODAAT to keep on the sober path. Loneliness can be a bitch ā especially during the cold dark winter days. Are you able to join any meet ups or join and fun type classes for your off time (like cooking or pottery or art classes ā just throwing out some ideas). 
@tetrax Nicely done with your double digits friend ā keep going strong So true on how amazingly fast a you can go from good to bad moods and vise versaā¦ For me I am finding it easier to get back to the good as I stack on more sober days.
@hopeful32 great work on 2 days! 
@melissa39 Great to see you back Melissa. I am sorry for the stressful living situation. I do know how difficult it can be to not have your own space and privacy. Grateful that you are working on your sobriety. Know that we will be here for you if you need support. Alcohol will not bring you any relief. You may be able to do a on line meeting with the video off and with headphones. Maybe just listening would be helpful for now. We got your back here friend.
@brokenrecord Welcome to the community! Great work on 2 days of sobriety. I am so sorry that the urges are so strong. The beginning can be rough ā just keep strong and working through the urges (they do lessen and are easier to handle as you gain more days). I find this community to be very supportive. Take your time to read through the threads for great advice, support and a healthy distraction.
@jp123 Double digits!! Great work friend ā keep working on yourself and I do hope the emotions get easier to handle too 
Grateful that this place helped you today ā getting one more day of sobriety under your belt is a super amazing thing and you should be proud of yourself. Some days this is the only productive thing I have checked off and I know that that is amazing in itself.
Checking in on a Friday evening
394 days free of alcohol and weed
809 days free of cigarettes
Working hard on getting my mental health back on track with some slow movements and positive vibes. Glad that it has stopped snowing and that we are looking to get some warmer days.
Getting ready for hopefully a good nights rest. Sending you all so much love
373 days sober. Itās been a week. Heat pump that was just installed a couple months ago malfunctionedā¦ the 1st night it happened we had to wake up the kids and everyone slept downstairs by the fire. Thankful we had that option. All fixed today. Luckily, all of the service done today falls under warranty. Life stressors that pop up are much more manageable sober. Also, less complaints, more action taken to alleviate/solve the issues.
One of my daughters and I performed a surgery today. On her 12 year old doll.
It was completely falling apart. A lot of kids have that one special stuffed toy or doll that they almost love to death! This is it, for her. We filled with cotton, stitched back up together and got her a new outfit. She went to bed pretty happy. These memories are the good ones.
Hope everyone got through their Friday ok and if it was a tough one, I hope tomorrow is better.
Great job JP. I made it to day 9 and tomorrow will be day 10 which will be a 15 year record. You have me beat by a day, so Iām snapping at your heels. Snap-snap-snapā¦Anyway, keep checking in; 'Here for you.
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@Mindofsobermike Thatās loads of feelings youāre feeling right there Mike. You donāt have to go look for them they are right there. Do the right thing my friend. I know you are doing your very best. Keep going. Hugs.
@Mischa84 Thatās a bad one friend. Hoping youāll be better very soon x
@Hopeful32 ODAAT for all of us. Keep repeating just for today, every day and we canāt fail.
@Melissa39 Youāre not complaining. Good on you for identifying triggers. Now work on a plan to make it through plz. X
@JP123 Congrats on reaching double digits. Thatās big!!!
@Mira_D Glad you made it through all that. Hope youāre having a good restorative rest.
@CATMANCAM Just big hugs friend
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Another day inside. I really felt like cooking and baking today. Spent half my time figuring out things I could make with the things I already had. Garlic mussels over spinach parmesan linguini for dinner. Yum! Then I made apple cobbler for the first time. Only 1/3 the recipe bc I donāt need a whole ass cobbler sitting around just for me. It was really more about going thru the motions and keeping busy, but it did come out yummy 
Nothing else planned for the night. Pretty tired already so Iāll probably be in bed soon 
*Day 1949 
A bit tired and the day just started. Having headaches for a few days already and that drained me a bit. But went to my goldsmitted class despite of it, so thatās a good thing.
Nobody lives there, itās an exclusive restaurant and they are renovating it so itās closed.
Day 210! Wow. Days are building up. Never getting drunk again. No way back if I do again. It was so hard to stop again this time. All I need to do is not have the first drink. Have a fab day folks. What I have learnt is it takes daily attention. I need to be on here daily and thankful
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59 no binge, no sugar
15 UPFs
15 dairy
Donāt have much planned for today. Saturday is usually my ācleaning upā day. My work tools, stuff around the flat, things that somewhat have not been taken care of during the week. Hope hormones stop tormenting me soon.
Outside looks nice. Maybe Iāll take a walk, some relaxing yoga.
A peaceful day to yāall 
I was going to start a thread but I thought it might be a little bit I donno, too close to the bone or something. A little bit negative or something so Iām just going to drop it here if itās okay.
I read something earlier;
The body keeps score.
All that mileage your might be putting on the clock will catch up with you eventually, you might think your doing ok but the body is keeping score. I binge drank for many years sometimes no sooner did one bout finish and I was getting back into another. , āIām doing ok, not yellow, or pissing blood or anything, Iām in decent shapeā but the body is keeping score.
Thankfully the body can and will undo a lot of damage if you give it a chance to heal.
Probably not the place for this but it resonated with me and Iām going to ponder it a bit today, hopefully not letting it get too deep into my head 
Have a great day 
2 weeks sober!! Thankful for how much better Iām feeling. Last night was hard for a little bit with some cravings because Friday nights are always hard but I pushed them to the back of my mind and went to the gym instead.
Only did a few exercises as I has a panic attack after half an hour but at least i went and did something. Baby steps i suppose.
Have a good weekend!
Checking in on day 179.
Iām here and have been reading around on the site but my mental state means I have little to no energy or drive. Iām isolating and even finding it hard to post on TS.
I see so many of you celebrating amazing sober time and overcoming challenges though and want you to know that you are badasses and reading your posts is helping to kerp me going.
I see others struggling, either to overcome grief, illness or their own mental health issues. I want you to know that you are not alone and that I hold you in my thoughts. Weāve got this. Together, and one day at a timeāļø
Love you guys.
