Well done on getting through this one. Winning these individual battles is what makes us grow stronger. We never win the war as the enemy is always going to be the other side of that door but we learn we have the choice of whether to open it or not.
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Congrats on double digits 
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Hopefully now your doing AA youāve realized this is not entirely true, grab some headphones as well and then others wonāt hear whatās being said. Itās often good to just sit and listen to what others have to say. Although it can be frustrating when we want to help others or just share whatās on our mind and donāt have the opportunity, I get this too.
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Day 11. Iāve got those double digits under my belt now. Thanks everybody for supporting me here. I didnāt sleep great but the last time I used alcohol to try to help me sleep I ended up going on an eight-day bender so Iāll take this one on the chin!
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Checking in Day 92)
The first part of my Step 4 shows me that I donāt like it when people lie to me, waste my time and ignore me. Itās the three things that trigger me most. So when someone does all 3 at once, Iām somewhat triggered. This person has to be removed from my life.
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Day 371.
Today I hoovered and mopped my floors. Iāve been putting it off for weeks, but today I got that shit done. Yes, Iām an achiever.
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Morning peeps, checking in day 129 SAF, day 115 smoke free. Got the day off, so up early anyways and gonna get some stuff done around the house today and watch a some football later and get ready for the work week to start. We went and seen a comedy show last night, had a good time, nice crowd too. Gonna sit here and drink coffee and try and catch up on this thread. I pretty far behind so bear with me. To all of you who celebrated milestones lately congrats. Youāre all doing great. Enjoy your Saturday 
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Congrats on double digits. Itās hard right now, but the sleep will get better. Some of the worst sleep Iāve ever gotten has been on benders. Your body forcibly waking you up 3 hours after passing out, is no way to live.
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23 days in.
Feeling ok, having a few dodgy Fridays and my mind is still working against me like some conspiring little f*kker. Honestly I must use 500 calories a day arguing with my addiction.
Peace 
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Welcome to the community, and congrats on your second day sober.
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Good morning! Checking in on day 50. I hope everyone has an amazing day!!! 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1315. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 15
And through my second Friday night.
Went to RV show yesterday looking at retirement travel trailers with wife. Weāve both concluded we wish to travel more and not be necessarily be tied to a house. This made me happy
They were giving booze samples at show, my wife partook in a couple (she is not a drinker and is soo good at taking or leaving), whereas I passedā¦ told the fellas passing them out (it was for a local distillery) I was doing dry Jan then perhaps Feb as wellā¦ to my surprise they fist bumped and congratulated me on my focus. That also made me happy.
My son is coming home for dinner with a buddy on his team and a couple girls from his university for dinner tonight and then we are all going to watch his game (I rarely ever miss one, and this is probably his last year playing Junior Hockey). I am going to miss this the most. We have been travelling together for camps, training, tournaments, practices and games since he was 6 (20 now), and while we donāt speak of hockey on those drives (itās his and his coaches jobs to understand what he is required to do and whether he played where and how he was supposed too), Iāve just always been his biggest fan and love just watching him play. Heās so good, made assistant captain this year, and it is my happiest place sitting in those cold arenas. Iām definitely going to miss this part of life immensely.
Anyway, Iām feeling good, loving my sobriety trek and looking forward to hitting the gym and trails for some longer hikes (as soon as it warms up a bitā¦ -15 C here this morning. Freakinā brrr. I detest winter, lol, except for the hockey part.
I hope you folks are all doing well and embracing the day. I really love this group. Iāve looked at quite a few before I settled in here and I think it was a great choice.
Take great care!
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Checking in this morning. Ooo a bit tired, kids up before 6.
I want to try and ground myself. I notice then when it comes comes to action, I can easily go all in (fixing, navigating, pressing, discussing etc) and especially wjen the need for that action goes up i forget about not being in control, and having ro let go. Pray, have faith, let it go to the universe whatever.
I think about why i talk to my dad anout stuff and my question for me is what is my goal? My goal is to know him better and for him to know me. Part of that is wanting to know why he is the way he is, but i do not think i can expect him to know this or should expect an answer. I fear speaking to him about hard tjings as though it will wear him out quickly and he will go. This will not happen, but I do not need to try to get him to understand all i tjink and feel. I dont know, i have to let go though and know outcomes are not in my control and things DO have a way of working themselves out. Its scary yes but there is relief there too.
Feeling a bit emotionally hung over from yesterday and tired feom the early morning wake up lol. I want to work on our kida sitting and doing an activity quietly, like sometimes you need to sit and draw mutherfuckeds cause you TOO LOUD doing anything else 
I love them so much, love us all so much and I know why its so hard to feel emptions around my sister and my nephew, because in the saddness is a hopeless despair. The emotion is attached to the thpughts of What ifs, and how comes and being alone in the middle of battlefieldā¦but people talking to your casually like youre not dodging bullets & dragging a dead body behind you. Tpuching the emotions is hard, and I hate feeling sorry for myself but I think I have to ALLOW myself to feel sorry for me in a genuine way instead of burrying bc then its going to come out somehow. The shit we burry has a way pf growing into something else.
Tbh i just want this stage of growth to be over. Its so tiring and i dont want to have to figure out how to live without my sister. There is my 3 yo tantrum for you.
Anyway, love you all & hope you have another 24.
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Checking in day
255 no alcohol
186 no ciggs or vapes
25.77 no form of marijuanna
Feeling excellent
Happy for my timmers
This is the longest i went without any form of pot for months. No cbd or thc or anything
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Day 706
Good morning TS fam 
Hope everyone is doing well! Loved reading everyones posts this morning. Lots of achievements and milestones being reached. Really proud of everyone on here!
Today consists of work until 4pm. My client is ill so itll be a mask wearing day for me. I had a good sleep and feel pretty rested. But my body isnt feeling the greatest tho bcuz i unfortunately binged on food last night and now im feeling the effects of it all. Idk what happened yesterday. I think it had to do with me eating chocolate (that was NOT planned to be eaten) in the afternoon and then i do specifically remember me thinking, "F it, I already screwed up my eating today anyway* and then binging. So very much black and white thinking. Will definitly stay on top of things today. I dont want this to continue into today also.
My knee is still bothering me and getting to work took longer than expected. Its not super painful right now but I definitly have a slight limp.
Recovery wise I am feeling pretty good with where Im at. I am doing gratitude lists daily and praying every morning. I dont have cravings to use. I feel so blessed 
Anyway, hope everyone enjoys their day/evening! Much love to u all!
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Checking in on day 192. A bright sunny winter day with plenty of snow on the ground and temps tolerable enough for snowshoeing!
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Everything seems better for sure but specifically Saturday.
Iām happy we have found this place to share, discuss, and just enjoy the company.
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Day 20
I will have no alcohol today! Why would I ruin a good Saturday?
ODAAT
-Solar
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