@vikingsfan so grateful that you had the fireplace as an option and that you have gotten everything working well now. @Pavlovs_Dog About to hit double digits is amazing friend – very impressive work… keep going strong @just_laura OOH that looks so good – nicely done for your first time. Hope you enjoyed it @dustysprungfield Thank you for posting this Dave and I think this is the perfect place for it. Helps us remember that we need to respect our bodies as they really do keep score. Grateful that they are also forgiving and can be healed. Grateful to see you doing well and here with us. @ofmiceandroach baby steps is awesome my friend – you are crushing it at 2 weeks! Keep up with the amazing progress @dilettante Big hugs Kiki I am so sorry that you are feeling so low. Grateful that you are able to read here on TS to help with your mental state. We are here for you love – I do hope that you are able to find peace and calmness. Sending you many positive vibes my friend @dresdenLaPage Great to see you checking in Josh. Most definitely remove any toxicity from you life – you are growing and improving and have no room for anything that will hold you back. 92 days is amazing friend – triple digits are a calling
Love this for you guys Nick – how exciting. @noshame super proud of you Matt – really love seeing your timers increase @pattycake Snowshoeing?? Ooh – I like that – hope you are bundled up nice and warm and have a wonderful time.
Checking in on Saturday morning…
I did not think it through when i made my ultrasound appointment for 11 am today – do food or drink and have to down 36oz of water and hold for 1 hr. I made it and ooh that sip of coffee was like heaven As i had already prepared myself mentally - the cyst is not only not shrinking but it is in fact growing - grateful that i did schedule the surgery so that i don’t have to wait even longer.
Now i’m at the restaurant waiting for mom to finish up so i can take her home. Want to get warm and cozy and take a nap LOL My sister is coming to visit later today so that will be nice as well.
Wishing all your warriors a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
I’m frustrated today. The foster kids family basically bailed on them as we were walking out the door to bring them there for a visit. The ball seems to have been dropped by all involved with communicating with us. Our family plans had to be cancelled because of it.
It has allowed me to realize that more needs to be done on my behalf to advocate for our personal time and well-being.
Okey, so I ate pizza, got the feeling like its something in my throat. And now I have anxiety. Im scared I will choke and suffocate. I cant have this to build up to a panicattack. Ahh F*** my life, I just want to be done with this shit. 2023 was a hell year that only got worse and worse, I hoped 2024 would be fresh and be a good year, but its already F*****.
Checking in day 1 after having a long period where I thought I could moderate. Only takes one time and so many things can be destroyed so quickly. So here I am back to the start again. Felt awful all day. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!
I was the same! Putting it off. Well last Sunday I too bit the bullet, and got it done. What a great feeling. Then Wednesday I tackled the bathrooms. Now as far as the dust goes……well that will come another day. Just keep the blinds partially closed to keep the sun out, so it’s not starring me in the face! At least the important things are done, right?
I’m so sorry my friend - i can’t even imagine the anxiety. I would be super scared too. I am hoping that this year turns around for you soon – sending you many hugs
Welcome to the community Pamela! Day one is amazing.
This is a wonderful supportive community to be a part of - take some time to read around. Hope to see you around
Day 95. Not in my happy place mentally so I think a nap may be in order. Car broke down, took about 2 hours to get a tow, received an email from a complaining customer. Everything will be ok, everything will be ok, …
So grateful to be sober today and to live in the present, knowing I have new tools and resources that will keep me sober. Every morning I wake up as an alcoholic so every single day I do my recovery program, no excuses.
On the positive side, my focus has been improving as has my depression. I no longer feel hopeless even as I continue to deal with unemployment and cabin fever. I also feel healthier diet and weight wise, and more rested since I’m actually sleeping. With meditation I’m working through some tough stuff and healing parts of myself that are ready to be put to rest.
On the negative side, my anxiety is through the roof. My brain doesn’t seem to know how to relax. I’ve read that anxiety can be stored in the body and when we stop using it still needs to find a way out. Also, my bladder is spastic. I constantly feel like I need to pee even if I don’t have to. I’ve already been to urgent care and ruled out the usual suspects. I know I flooded myself with sugar (from Alcohol and munching on candy, the CBD gave me terrible munchies), not to mention dehydration, so to go from that to taking no substances, eating healthy and drinking plenty of water, I’m sure it’s a shock. I also know I was numbing whatever I was feeling before. So I hope it will heal over time but I will go to the doctor if it doesn’t improve a little soon. I mentioned this before but I’m also noticing the impact of a shoulder injury from a drunken fall - numbed that all out too.
It can feel overwhelming but I know I’m on the right path and all I can do is take it one step at a time and do the next best thing. I love feeling healthy and being a person I can respect. This is what I want for the rest of my life and I will do the work to make it happen.
Sorry for rambling, I don’t usually write this much! Hope everyone is having a good sober weekend, I love reading your posts, I can relate to a lot
@Wakikki OOF - i am sorry love - i totally relate to your frustration and wish i could help ease your anxiety. Glad the hug helped my friend. many healing vibes your way!
@frank68 AH man i’m sorry Frank - that totally bites especially having to wait so long in this cold weather. Grateful that you are keeping a positive attitude. Do hope your weekend turns around for you.
@Catmama23 Hey Lauren - just saw your name pop up No need to apologize - loved reading your post. my favorite part Keep putting in the hard work love - it will pay off
Day 48
Having a relaxed Saturday evening with a movie, the dog and tea, I am happy.
Wishing everybody a good sober day, thinking of those who are struggling too
Love the positivity @Amy30 and big congrats on surpassing year of sobriety. Very inspiring! I’m right with you. Trying to clean and declutter my space a bit. It does feel good!
That sounds like a great plan to prepare for the upcoming work week @Jasty2 and congrats on your sobriety journey!
@Tragicfarinelli good job staying sober even though your mind might be saying something else. Just take it one Friday at a time sending you strength.
@Noshame Congrats that’s so nice to hear as I’m quitting pot too and also feel pretty good health and body wise. Mind is another thing but ofaat right? Keep it up!
I am so sorry that you are feeling so low. Grateful that you are able to read here on TS to help with your mental state. We are here for you love – I do hope that you are able to find peace and calmness. Sending you many positive vibes my friend 
As i had already prepared myself mentally - the cyst is not only not shrinking but it is in fact growing - grateful that i did schedule the surgery so that i don’t have to wait even longer.
Now as far as the dust goes……well that will come another day. Just keep the blinds partially closed to keep the sun out, so it’s not starring me in the face!
Keep putting in the hard work love - it will pay off 
hope that the movie is good 
sending you strength.