Thatās it!! Good attitude and it helps keep me on track too @SolarEclipse
@JazzyS glad you were proactive and things are working out with the surgery. When is it scheduled for? Hope it all goes as smooth as possible, will be thinking of you
Iām sorry youāre having family struggles @anon68572606 hopefully you are able to advocate for what you need.
@Wakikki itās early in the year, if itās a tough start itās gotta get better right? Thatās what Iām trying to tell myself too xo
You can do it. Sometimes you need to relapse to realize what is right for you and the fact that youāre here again shows your strength pls reach out if youāre struggling at all @Pamela
Congrats on 48 @Naomi sounds heavenly. I plan to do the same this evening just finishing some cleaning and gonna make a nice dinner.
Checking in Day 11 Alcohol and drug free!
Feeling more motivated each day to stay on track and focus on sobriety and recovery. And a huge part of that is this group and seeing everyoneās perseverance through good and bad. This community has been sucha safe space for me to learn about myself & addiction by all of you being so brave and sharing your stories. So big thanks wishing well to all s
I was so dependent on pot i never even thought id trying to stop. I had 6months completely sober but i picked up that thc vape pen and now the 25days i have now is the longest its been in months
I think that cbd is less of a worry but i will obsess over it like anything and it would be gone in days. 40$ down the drain in like 2 days. Too expensive. My nic lozengest cost 30$ every 4 days but i can use them anywhere all day long. Much more use then i could get with cbd.
Nic lozenges are still expensive though and still addictive. Ive been a heavy nic smoker sence i was 13 years old. I fogot what its like not to have nic. Thats tough but also motivating.
True, the year has just started, so I will try to think it will be better. I have a few hard weeks in front of me that I have to just wait and see what it will be. But for sure some hard months coming aswell for another thing, here I dont know if its at its badest point now or if it could go even further down, also here I have to wait and see. I can not do nothing to change what comes.
Im staying strong in my sobriety, and Im not worried at all to relapse and drink. One thing I know for sure is if I was still drinking with all this going on I would be so drunk out of my mind and I would have drank my self to death one way or an other.
Thank you for reaching out and for you kind words. Keep on the sober path, one day at a time.
Saturday evening and Iām here to check in on what is day 258. Work wise Iām currently seeking a new challenge. Hoping to make some changes to my work life balance. Here we goā¦
25 days no weed is amazing!
I am also on nicotine lozenges and gum. Something I want to get rid of, but itās hard! I get really hungry when I quit nicotine, so itās also a vanity thing (donāt want to gain weight)ā¦
I am sure we both will quit eventually!
Day 22. I do want to drink and I do want to smoke. I am sick of the snow, sick of the cold, sick of my kids being un-ish. I am sick of little food. After my job took care of my employment, all my $$ for all things went away. Itās a really sad thing, in a place I havenāt been, in a house way more pricey than my last.
All that said, my card today: āI am the force that creates everything in existence.ā A tidbit of āget over yourself.ā There is no reason for me to drink. I havenāt done it in a positive way for a couple decades. I know I just want to disappear.
Another tidbit? I really want to aim at smells and tastes. It could be that lacking with alcohol and tobacco does something to itā¦but essence says, āNope.ā Itās better not to do it.
I will not do it. I want to be better, whole, alive while alone, etc, etc, etc
Pshshshshsh (by the way, I am wearing a Yellowstone Beanie that I got from my son)
You said it. Being honest with how youāre feeling is important and Iām glad you came here to say it āout loud,ā so to speak. I hear you and I see you. Iām glad you wonāt do it and Iām glad youāre aware of where your head is right now in all this. Hereās hoping the feeling passes soon and you find some peace for yourself. Sending hugs.
I have been stuck in a shame spiral. Flooded with repetitive thoughts of events and conversations from weeks/months ago. Feeling incapable, out of place, like everything that I say and do is āwrongā. Very uncomfortable in my skin lately. I feel like 3 children stacked in a trenchcoat masquerading as an adult in the world ahhahah, sigh. And that my job is suddenly going to realize how unqualified I am and fire me. I have zero facts to back up any of these beliefs and intrusive thoughts which is helpful.
But yeah, self-confidence and self-respect are things Iāll be working on.
Hello friends, checking in day 19. My first attempt at sobriety started in October 2022. I was sober for over 13 months but almost nonchalantly picked up a drink on Dec 1st 2023 and continued to drink the whole month of December. I was disappointed in myself but got back on the horse and the wagon Jan 1st of this year. The 1st time I quit drinking, I found this site and also completed an Intensive Outpatient program. Those early days were the hardest. I was proud of how well I did and was doing and I am glad to be sober again. Everyoneās journey is different but I am hoping to speak to those who have had a relapse and want to try again. You will be so happy that you did. The things you learned and practiced to be sober are still there and you can use them again. I canāt promise it will be easier than last time but so far, I am finding that it is in my case,while still remembering itās ODAAT. Having some experience of being sober for a good chunk of time, I know it is a better path for me and is something I want and can achieve. Keep trying!
Night time check in. Went snow shoeing , it was fun, @JazzyS ! Hope your surgery goes well. @JP123 , thanks for the well wishes. Keep crushing it, girl!
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