112 Days.
Life is good. Picking up more shifts at the Food Bank.
It’s fun and it gives me purpose. But holy am I out of shape! Having a hard time keeping up with the 70 yr olds there, lol!
There has been a break in the weather, we are back to normal, so time to get me arse outside and get walking!
Sobriety is serving me well.
Hugs to you all 
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489 days AF
Just checking in sober fam been a while.
Summer is in full swing so weve been enjoying nice long days and warm evenings here in NZ been pretty thankful i work with a mostly sober crew these days thats for sure.
Hope everyone is well and we are all good
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@jp123 Thanks friend – I do have a post op on 1/29 and then the surgery on 2/22. I too agree with how much of a blessing this community has been. So much love and great advice in these threads. Well done with your 11 days 
@ceeds I am so sorry love – that is an awful amount of emotions coming at you all at once. Sending you hugs and peace. Are you able to discuss this in real life with someone – may help to talk it out? We are here if you need to vent here. I can understand feeling out of place at work – I have heard the term imposter syndrome here and I know I have felt it at times. I am sure you are doing a great job and the overwhelming feelings are spilling into your work. Wishing that you are able to get a good nights rest and have a better positive filled day tomorrow 
@pattycake thanks friend. Oh I’m so glad you went snow shoeing and had a great time. One of these years I will embrace some winter activities so that I may actually like winter more 
Checking in on Saturday night…
395 days free of weed and alcohol
810 days free of cigarettes
My day was long and tiring. Bones were chilled and took me a while to get warmed up and am now nice and toasty. Luckily i was able to get my migraine under. Getting ready for some shut eye.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening. Sending you all so much love 
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Jist checking in! Pretty tired, and its so cold here. I notice I have the fog over me that I had for a long time after my sister died. It hasnt been on me in a while, but I feel it now since Friday. Im very disorganized and cant remember simple things. I know why this is and that it will pass.
Went to inlaws today even though they are off on a trip. Had a lot of fun watching the kids have a dance party. My son dances so seriously to rock n roll music and its pretty adorable. He loves Metalica Enter Sandman 
I love them both so much & hubby too.
Life is one wild ride. It can bring you down to such lows, and yet there is so much beauty & hope. I know I do not want to be bitter and in resentment for this beautiful thing called life, so I want to do the work to make sure i move through and process and dont become these things. We must have hope, not for brighter days but to be able to recognize those brighter days and moments when they are right in front of us. Xo. Love to youball. Off to finish Who Killed Jill Dando 
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Checking in sober but depressed and sad. I know it’s probably made worse by the fact that I’m hungry and tired, but knowing that doesn’t seem to help at the moment. Head’s back in the past, and I can’t forgive myself for destroying my marriage 15 years ago.
@JazzyS I think it’s awesome that you always take the time to reply to so many members personally.
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starts running later on Sunday I can stay in bed longer as well as I can’t get to work earlier. But I didn’t. And I’m good. Gave me some time to look around here. And have another coffee. And think about the (work) day ahead.
Weather’s about to change. There’s a couple of hours of freezing rain ahead, followed by a quick rise in temperatures and storm Isha moving in. I’m glad I’m sober and clean to deal with the weather 
. I’ll take care. Just like I expect from all of you. Have as good a day as you can all. Love. Pic is Utrecht on Friday.
@Forgive_Yourself Sorry for the feeling down feelings. Maybe working on what you can work on right now might help a little bit. Like taking care of your hunger and tiredness. Taking care of yourself and your current needs. Reminiscing about what could or should have been or what went wrong in the past is counterproductive but I know you know that and sometimes it can’t be helped. Big hugs for you 
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I feel like crap, physically and mentally. Its 7am here. 5th day of sickness although tonight first time my temp didn’t jump to 40 after ibuprofen stopped working but to 38,5. So it’s improving. But now I have sore throat and headache and I’m angry like hell. I’m angry at my kids and I don’t like it. They are still sleeping and when they wake up I have to put a smile mask on my face but in my head I will scream “fuck off! Leave me alone!” I know, terrible. It will pass.
That’s me, in thick pyjama, robe, hat and scarf, under the cover. It’s 19,5°C here so room temperature is not the issue
Oh, and husband after 3 weeks of being clean and happy decided that this weekend is good time to relapse.
Also, I forgot to put wet cat food on the shopping list and Luna hates me now.
Have a good day everybody.
I think I should change my nick name here to Grumpy cause this is how I feel lately
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50 days in the bank
Nice relaxing sunday. Afternoon spent at the beach with the kids. Now just waiting on curry to cook for dinner.
Hope you feel better soon @Mischa84 life can be trying on our patience as it is but add in some illness and the patience can be in short supply.
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on day 16(again) and kind of struggling. honestly hate that i had to start over, and still haven’t fully accepted it but know if i don’t vent my thoughts i won’t get better. i was sober from alcohol for 2.5 years, thought i could handle drinking in mild quantities, then decided to drink at my 26th birthday party. within 3 months i was just chugging vodka again like none of it had ever happened. six months after that(about a year ago) i decided to start smoking weed and spent pretty much the past year in another fog of addiction, drugs and alcohol. i accomplished a lot while doing it(finished grad school, moved states, got a better job that i’m starting monday), but the knowledge and shame i have for having to do this process all over again is really hard to sit with. i know that i can do this, but it’s very hard sometimes. what i know for sure is that i will make it to day 17 and i feel really good about that.
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Hey Try, congrats on 2.5 years and the new job. You fell but you got back up. I’m 61 yrs old and am celebrating tonight (coffee and going to watch a movie with my pups) 10 days sober. It has been 15 years since I made it more than 9 days. Probably hit 9 days 5 or 6 times in the 15 years (and each time I thought I could “handle it in mild quantities” and fell off the wagon). Prior to that I did 7 years sober. I honestly don’t know if I couldn’t have done it without Jazzy and SolarEclipse and the gang that I found here. I am very grateful and I promised myself I would help others as my payback…so your last line is your inspiration to us all as each day is a struggle of some sort: “I feel really good about that”…and you should. You are going to be fine, as your honest and focused approach is spot on, and I feel really good about your future. Mine too, and I feel really good about that. Thanks everyone for the help! 
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Funny how we all take different kinds of inspiration from each other bc this simple phrase went straight over my head but now you’ve pointed it out what a brilliant thing for people to say when they are struggling “I’m sober and I feel really good about that”, bc tbh who wants the alternative.
That’s now stuck in my head so thank you both for being here and please stick around as I can tell your both going to bring a lot to an already amazing community.
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Good job Tetrax, You got me beat by a day and you know what they say about dog sledding: Only the dog in front has the view. Stay at the front of the pack if you can!
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Drove out in the country to grab a few snacks earlier. Country roads are clearer than city roads. When I was almost to the supermarket I had a thought of going to the liquor store in the same plaza. It was one I didn’t frequent often, but I know what they have. I thought ‘damn it’s been so boring. that would make things more interesting’ 
By the time I pulled into the parking lot, the thought of actually drinking anything had turned my stomach. I’m sure glad that still happens. I still know EXACTLY where I’ll end up if I take that first drink. No where good.
Later I went to meet my coworkers at our usual Sat night spot. It was one girls birthday. These random drunk guys kept trying to get me and a friend to do shots over and over after I told them I didn’t drink, and even explained why, bc they asked. My friend was getting upset saying “they shouldn’t keep offering after you told them, and also, who tf asks someone who says they don’t drink ‘why?’!” I know it bothers a lot of people, but it truly doesn’t bother me. I knew it was just bc they were hammered. A lot of the time, if they keep pressing, I get way more into detail about the why…usually to the point where they get uncomfortable 
Other than that, I won both rounds of darts 
Thank you all for sharing your stories. Reading here every day keeps the ‘why I’m doing this’ fresh in my mind, which in turn helps when those random, unexpected thoughts arise, like today. Appreciate all the strength and support 
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60 no binge, no sugar
16 UPFs
16 dairy
Three sixes. Must be good 
Today I woke up to a beautiful red sunrise, better hormones, and 60 days, two months of freedom. I am so happy and grateful 
. Freedom and peace are such great gifts.
It’s time for my weekly review today, and cooking with my kid. I’m definitely going to take a walk, do yoga, and treat my every day as a prayer of gratitude 
Peace and freedom to y’all 
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Sorry you feel this way. When I read what you have wrote it made me think about some informations about “hacking” emotions I found somewhere. I kept it and still use it sometimes if I feel I need it. I will share it with you, I hope it’s usefull for you too, take care 
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It’s been over a week that I crashed on my sofa after spin class, only to discover later that I had a nasty infection that my body was fighting. Since the start of the week I’ve taken high strength antibiotics and on Friday I finally emerged from the bed/sofa again and made it back to the world of the living.
Saturday morning spin class came back around and I went. I performed like shit! I huffed & puffed and groaned & moaned. I couldn’t keep up with the gears and reps, but I went and I feel better because of it. I feel like I’m over the worst, but obviously my body is still recovering. Two more days of antibiotics and then a follow up at the doctors.
Today is lazy Sunday, nothing big planned. Trip to the car wash and fuel up for the week ahead. Some (minor) chores around the house. Reading, relaxing, watching a movie or so.
Wish you all a great sober day. And a big welcome to the family to @Pamela and @tryingthisagain.
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Welcome back!
Your story has much simularities with mine including the birthday relapse drink.
Sober for a long stretch again but still can feel sorrow for the relapse I went trough those years ago. The good thing is that it learned me for good (hopefully I do not “forget” it) I can’t drink one. We are all 1 drink away from disaster.
This app and the people in it where my change for the better. Hope it will do the same for you!
Congratulations for the 16 days 
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