End of my six day work stint is coming up after the early shift I’m about to begin. I’m OK but I can do with some days off too. I like my job and it fulfills me upto a certain point. But I don’t want to become a full blown workaholic like my dad and his dad were. I have enough addictions as it is. But I don’t think I will. It’s me on the wheel. Sober and clean. ODAAT. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Pic is an Navajo Nation sunset in 2018. Love.
Crazy yeah. The grass is always greener on the other side. Happy you’re here with us @Catmama23 It’s a steep learning curve at times Lauren. You ARE learning. Congrats. Hugs. @Dilettante Sorry for the bad experience, congrats on the big gains you made in your sobriety. Big win! @JP123 A normal drinking guy like this father right . In fact the character reminds me of my dad a bit, not in a literal sense but still. @Englishd Get well soon.
Another productive day of weeding thru closets. Got 4 contractor bags full and I haven’t even gotten to shoes yet. Feeling lighter already Looking forward to dinner tomorrow night with the fam. This time the Chinese buffet will be open!!! Enjoy the journey everyone
Long hot day at work in the sun. Kinda boring and really dragged on.
Have fleeting thoughts of drinking in the lead ups to times when I previously would have. Don’t think they would classify as a craving, often it pops in my head followed by a feeling of gratitude that I won’t be drinking today.
Hanging with the kids tomorrow, will bring them to the gym with me in the morning then back on nightshift tomorrow night.
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I found a new meditation app I like a lot! I used to had “Insight timer” but lot’s of meditations are in English there and that’s not my formal language.
Now I found a paid one, but all in Dutch and I’m in love with the voice of the person who guide me trough the meditation and owner of the app. Googled on him and he used to work for the radio as a DJ
But again, happy I have found it. There was a free trial so now thinking of buying it for a year
It’s not cheap though…but drinking wasn’t cheap either
Today? Work, a walk with my coach (that sound posh ), dinner with my co workers. So busy day ahead.
Around NYE I decided that 2024 is a year I wanted to step more out of my comfort zone.
It’s not easy, but I’m doing so now. It seems like all kinds of things are coming my way that are just that: out of my comfort zone
But proud I’m doing it besides it’s uncomfortable sometimes. The meditation helpes me to stay in the present and to be more at ease with myself. So building more bricks on my sober house…
7:22 in the morning overhere, let the day begin!
Have a good day ore night TS people, we all are here for the same reason and 1 drink away from relapse. So let’s do today sober/clean!
I oscillate between nausea and cravings. It’s difficult to hear my hunger signals in this turmoil.
I woke up confused, worried, anxious, overwhelmed, desperate, etc. I know this will pass during the day and come back in the evening. That’s how this hormonal cycle works.
Having a feasible plan for the day and not overthinking, doing the next right thing helps. I’ll stick to this. ODAAT
First some morning practice, working with animations and basic sounds, a walk, yoga. Maybe a musical evening at our local school. That’s the plan for today.
Son came over for dinner and to run a couple loads of laundry and take the cat back to live with him for a month or so…we have split custody, lol
Always good to hang out with him for a few hours. Planning his ski trip for Feb reading break from school.
Once he left, early to bed to awake at 4am. Will hit the gym today and work in my shop moving some items into a storage container I got a few weeks back to make room for some woodworking projects I wanna get too.
Feeling great waking up not hungover. It has been an amazing feeling these past few weeks even if my sleep hasn’t been the best, it’s still been alright I guess. I won’t complain for sure.
Checking in sober if we don’t take the first drink we can’t get drunk odaat I’m off to Spain tomorrow with two friends for a few days both are sober looking forward to it will be at a meeting tonight before I head off hope yous have a good day
Good to see you posting, friend. Sorry you’re having such discomfort. I hate that feeling where you can’t even relax comfortably, it’s the worst to not be able to rest well. I hope it improves soon.
Good morning beautiful people! Checking in on day 55. Not too much to report, my dog is resting comfortably, another good recovery day yesterday. My cravings have been at a minimum which I am so grateful for. It does bother me to look around me with eyes open for once and I wonder were I would be if it didn’t just come out of a 12 year hole……and it crushes my soul, I’ve shed a lot of tears in silence over that the last few days. Trying to not dwell on it. I hope everyone has a terrific day! and friends.
Same here, friend! It isn’t easy, you’re right, but with some good foundations in recovery where we have done hard things before I believe we have the ability to push ourselves this way. Let’s do it together! It’s about continuing to grow, for me. Glad you’re doing it, too.
Coming up to that month and realise that I devalue things so easily. A month is really good. I was a daily drinker, thinking about drinking by lunch time. Obsessing about having ‘enough’, pretending to really just like old vines from passionate countries and new world Zinfandel…
Expensive taste right? No, just obsessed and creating value by adding a tag of money or class to it. All the wine clubs and tastings with horrible overpriced cheese and the glassy recognition of ‘fellows’. Those who imbibe, those with a drinking jacket too.
A month is good. It’s not my year plus sober, but it’s bloody good. A few years ago I couldn’t string together three days, so today I’ll take a month and be so proud.
Just because I did a year plus it does not devalue my efforts.
I had a rare drinking dream last night, I don’t get them often as far as I am aware, I don’t always remember my dreams, though, at least not beyond the initial waking and thinking “that was weird!” or whatever. I dreamt that I was at a large sit down dinner work function or something similar, big round tables seated with strangers/acquaintances sort of thing. Someone was coming around with a drinks cart with a variety of canned beverages, sparkling waters, juices, sodas, etc. and there was a general awareness that this was an alcohol free event. I asked for a particular sparkling water and was handed a dark green colored can, which look suspicious to me but I cracked it open and took a drink. It was beer. I looked at the label and sure enough it was a brand I knew and I looked around like, “Does anyone else see this?” I had those old sneaky feelings like “This is a free pass, no one knows,” and I chugged it. I woke up sweaty and feeling gross, feeling disappointed and guilty. I don’t think I necessarily felt ashamed but just disappointed in myself. It was just a dream, but it was very realistic and a good reminder of how easy it can be to fall back into old behaviors and thinking patterns. All it takes is one bad decision in a split second. I know it’s just a dream but I can choose to take a lesson from it to stay vigilant and also to not forget where I have been in the past, where I have come from and where I am now, as well as what it took to get here at almost 850 days free from binging on booze at any given time for any given reason, or no reason at all.
It’s been a pretty great week for me and my goals. With the warming trend outside I have been able to take Lupe for nice long walks everyday and we are both better for it. I have gotten on the treadmill every day, too, and started some other exercises. I have worked on some deep cleaning and organizing projects and have seen progress that lightens the load on my mind and makes me feel better about my space. I have had the best sleeps this week, albeit rather short ones (averaging 5 hours a night) but really quality sleep that leaves me feeling rested and with endurance for the day. I think I am headed in the right direction for building my routine in preparation to start my job - that’s my intent anyway. Today I would like to spend more time journaling as I have gotten away from that a bit lately. It’s going to be important for me to work through my thoughts and feelings as I transition to working again.
Thanks everyone for all your check ins and shares here. You all make this thread a valuable resource for everyone, especially new folks who are looking for community and a way to get involved right away. Sending out sober strength to you all, friends/amix.
. In fact the character reminds me of my dad a bit, not in a literal sense but still.
Looking forward to dinner tomorrow night with the fam. This time the Chinese buffet will be open!!! Enjoy the journey everyone 
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