Checking in Day 27. I am back home after a 2 week trip and it has been a good day. I am even all unpacked and put away. Settled in to watch football.
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That sucks Lauren. Job hunting is a huge rollercoaster that I have never liked. And it has only gotten worse with all the online application screenings that waste so much time. Any chance you could just walk into a facility with your resume and ask to speak to Human Resources.
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Day 225 AF
Lazy day watching football with the pups and cat. Boyfriend heads home early on Sundays. Life is pretty good. Shared some additional family trauma with the BF. It always shocks people when I do. Never quite sure if itās a good thing or not though Iām proud of the healing Iāve done. I donāt recognize that other person anymore.
Did notice a bit of past relationship insecurity pop up but the relationship I have now is nothing like my past.
Not ready for the work week. Things got hectic at the end of the week. Oh well letās hope it flys by.
Enjoy whatās left of the weekend sober family.
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@ray_m_c_laren Those are some incredibly amazing timers Ray! You are doing a wonderful job living a sober lifestyle. 
@moosetracks Nice job with handling that ā I would have loved feeling too. Thanks for sharing ā 511 days is hell of a job!
@catmama23 Ah fudgesicles! Iām sorry Lauren. That has got to be so damn frustrating and disheartening. I am sorry that you are being tested this way. Wish I could send some comforting words.
@misokatsu I used to love the excitement of new piercings or tats ā glad yourās is healing well. Sorry about the damn appliances ā one is bad but two at the same time ā Yikes. I donāt have kids myself but know I have struggled having to help with homework (crazy how much my mind has managed to forget). I am sure you are a very supportive mama 
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@wahtisnormal congrats on 2 weeks 
feel better soon š©µ
@Vikingsfan sending strength š©µ
@Lisa-B congrats on your month
@Pattycake congrats on 200 days
@Pamela feel better soon š©µ
@Steve92 congrats on 2000 days AF
@Catmama23 like Dana described, it sounds like āHypoarousalā on the āWindow of Toleranceā scale, learning about it made a lot of things make sense for meā¦
1266 days no alcohol.
731 days no cocaine.
246 days no vape.
11 days no binge-eating.
Last night I only slept for 3hrs, so today, every time Iāve tried to start my morning routine, (which starts with a heated eye mask and a meditation), Iāve fallen asleep. So instead of trying again, I am checking-in here, in a new attempt to not get behind.
Tomorrow I will be heading into the city centre for my pre-therapy assessment and paperwork, and Iām going to go there slightly earlier to try to find a present for my dad as itās his birthday on Friday.
I hope youāve all had wonderful sober weekends. 
š©µ
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Thank you Jazzy!
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Hi @catmama23,
I think the emotional blankness is normal, but also you have these symptoms going on not letting up on top of the exhaustion of not being able to sleepā¦and then the emotional stuff with your wife. Its enough to give anyone the fuck its. Unresolved health stuff, especially that effects our sleep oh my god it would drive me nuts. Sleep is such an important part of the recipe for my sanity (I know everyone functions differently!) But of that HALT business Hungry & Tired are usuallt the ones that I get me, and I like that I can point to that shit and be like okay Mira, take it easy on yourself. Get some food in your system, or get some sleep (not able to get sleep?) Then try to be easy on yourself and know that you going to feel off till that gets a bit of a remedy.
Hang in there. You got a lot going on. And good on you venting it out here. It never feels good to have the bad fuxk its! But it will pass, promise xo.
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Super happy and beyond proud of myself!!! I couldnāt have done this without The Almighty above! 
Or the awesome supportive family Iām surrounded by daily. NEVER GIVE UP! YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! ODAAT 
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Way to go Ashley
10 months is amazing work ā keep going strong
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Hey yall,
Home again home again. Today was really awesome. Turns out it was a museum, it was a science center and it was so awesome for the kids. All kinds of fun stuff & we just had a blast. I love watching them just be in their element. So much of parenting for us I find is trying to allow them to just be, while also teaching to follow the rules. We not heavy handed disciplinarians, and I know people got a hate on hearing the words gentle parentinf (lol who TF named that) but i value the input from shit that deals with the issues of the ways generations before did things BUT ALSO learning from the prior gens too of what is good - like listening, being respectful, no not everyone wins & go thr fuck outside. I dont know, trying to find that balance is like trying to hit a moving target every damn day. The 2 yo is easy, because he doesnt have that intention yet, sure hes busy but at that age their defiance is different & you can deal with it (and allow it!) differently. My daughter now man shes the one who keeps me on my toes, shes a fullt formed human, her brain is working overtime and shes no baby anymore. Just want to do right by both of these beautiful beings, & our nephew.
We actually called my mom & nephew on video and he said hi to both his cousins (using their names!!!) This is all so new & Im just so proud of him. I was thinking we should make videos to send him, instead of just video calling because he lpves to waych things but he doesnt care for or engage with video calls.
Anyway, off to watch another murder show. I dont know when this started but my true crime spree has been SO DEEP. I know why, or i think i at least understand whyā¦but its so deeeeep lol. Xo. Fam & to another 24! Xo
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Day 476
Worked at 530 this morning so I had the afternoon off.
Decided I wanted to go to dinner at a new restaurant in my area. Everything was amazing. Best time out at a restaurant in a long time. Iām glad I went
Now Iām heading to bed.
Have a good night 
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Thanks! And I love the graphic on toleranceā¦ will keep it on hand.
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Checking in after absence. Missed the support I get here to remain sober.
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Omg girl weāve missed you. So good to see you checking in. Hope you are doing well Lam
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Have you seen the Jodi Arias trial? That is a true crime story that can keep one busy for weeks.
Also, I grew up running through the woods until I heard the dinner bell ring off in the distance. Kids need freedom.
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Day 103 and closing a sober weekend. Day 5 of having covid and being isolated. Feeling much better and ready to get back to work tomorrow (masked). Ive had it several times and this time the tiredness wad the worst sympton.
Have an awesome day my friends.
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Checking in 500 days sober
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Good day 
Good night 
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