Life’s lessons are in my daily journey right now. One”s reaction to these times are suppose to be important. My reaction (HIDE!) 
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Its crazy how something “nothing” in the body alert so loudly danger danger incoming Heartattack, stroke,… you will pass in 3, 2, 1 …
I do feel better now. Thanks 
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Haha yup. Impossible to explain it to someone who never felt that way. Glad you’re feeling better! 
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Absolutely man. There are lots of things that are legal that people will abuse. For me pre work out, such as caffeine is a big one. Right now I’m doing good. I’ll have one monster in the morning for work. But before, I use to buy the pre workout powder and id scoop like 8 scoops a day. It’s crazy bc it’s legal so wouldn’t think any issues, but ugh that shit made me miserable lol
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I hear ya.
I’m fortunate that alcohol and then laziness/poor food choices was and is my only problematic issue.
My coffee is only my morning one cup, then off I go. I drink probably 5 litres of water per day for the past 30 years as my go to drink when not whiskey or beer.
But that one vice had a hold on me for the past 40 years 2-3 times per week. Fortunately never daily and never ever before noon, but once I started there was no stopping…
Day 24, feeling good and I really hope that this is the time it sticks.
All the best
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33 days now. It’s really inspiring and interesting to read everyone’s progress on this thread. Thank you all.
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I feel you and @Naomi on this. I used to have panic attacks a lot in my early 20s but then they disappeared for years (probably bc of the alcohol). When I was around 5 months sober I got out of work one night and couldn’t breathe. Thought I was having a heart attack or stroke until I realized I’d felt like that before, 10+ years ago. They were bad for a while but since I knew it was anxiety, as soon as I felt one coming on I would immediately sit with my eyes closed and start breathing thru it and telling myself that was all it was. Each one was shorter and less intense than the last. I haven’t had one in months now. For me, I think the cause was not knowing how to properly deal with stress, being the longest I’d ever been sober and being the most stressful time of the year workwise. I just figured, anxiety lives in my brain, but it’s my brain, and I can control it! Hope it gets better for you 
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Checking on day 2318. Really productive day today, got lots done and super happy that I did but am feeling slightly off today, a little out of sync I think. Really not sure why and like always, I know it’ll pass. I know not to be complacent regarding my recovery and every day is one day at a time. Had a beautiful walk with Rocky today which was super refreshing and have ordered some bits for my sons 16th which is in a couple of weeks! Mediation and serenity prayer before bed! Tomorrow will be a new, beautiful day for us all 
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I had a great day in general. But recently I feel kinda stuck in my recovery 
Something is missing, I don’t know what, because I never had it. But there is space in my toolbox and it wants filling.
Time to go tool shopping and try new things.
Nothing changes if nothing changes
Hope you all have a great sober day.
Love and strength 
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Day 32
Fog is lifting, had a few crap days to be honest. Been low and very negative. I feel I’m back, and I hope it stays
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Love this 
Nothing changes if nothing changes
and good work recognising when needing new tools hun
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Hello friends, checking in day 28. 4 weeks didn’t seem long and yet it feels like a good chunk of time has passed. I guess it seems long because I want to get more days under my belt as fast as I can since I relapsed after 13 months. On the other hand, the 4 weeks passed rather smoothly and for that I am grateful. So there ya’ go…the past 4 weeks felt long in some ways and not long in others. Happy to be 4 weeks sober!
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Glad you’re feeling like you’re back hun! Never nice having days like that and super congrats on your 32 days!!
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Thank you. I think hormones are perhaps to blame. Have put a consult in with the GP. better to try and tackle it.
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Totally agree, I’m on patches for that 
lol hopefully your GP will help 
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Checking in day 9 - feels like these first 9 days have been easy as I’ve been so ill with flu there’s been no temptation - that will come at the weekend. But I have to do this if I really want to put a stop to the endless cycles of the same crap that keeps happening where I ask myself ‘why me?’ and realise once again the answer is the drinking. Nothing good will come for me if I keep drinking. I need to remember that, it’s my choice & so far I’ve kept choosing wrong but enough is enough
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A very special thank you Jazzy 
You are amazing! I admire your warm and thoughtful replies to everyone. I don’t know how you do it but it is awesome and that’s what pushes me when I feel low. You have no idea how much it means to me and for sure everyone else too.
Wishing you well for your upcoming surgery. Hope you never have to feel that pain after the operation is done.
Stay strong my dear
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Thanks everyone too for the well wishes on my milestone.
I’ve found this community a few years ago and it took me some to finally do a fully commitment to sobriety.
I had my first attempt of getting sober about 5 years ago.
At the beginning I had to reset my counter so often that I finally gave in after a few months. I just used to forget about it all and go on with my drinking behaviour, just trying to moderate a bit.
Well you know where that leads.
Long story short. End of 2022 after Christmas holidays I decided to stay sober until New years day which wasn’t a big deal as I was working anyway, and it went well, so I had a dry January too and stayed sober until the end of march which was easy and nice and cool. On vacation I thought it was time for a glass of wine for dinner. Wich led to a glass of wine and drink at the bar the next night and end of April I was drinking home alone after shift again. And I wasn’t fine and I didn’t like it at all but again it took 3 month to finally say enough is enough.
28th of July I had my last drink. And I don’t miss anything about it.
This forum and all you wonderful people here helped me so much to find the inspiration and the courage just to say NO MORE. I don’t WANT to drink anymore.
Thank you all!!!
Have a good night (or day) and off we go to the next addiction free 24 hours
Love you all
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So happy for you, great strides.
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Day 715
Had a very lazy day. Just cant seem to get my energy up. Normally i wake up ready to tackle the day, but that certainly didnt happen today. I meant to exercise this morning but instead put on my workout clothes and went back to bed 
Got up at 7am and attempted to start my day but i laid around for most of it. I finally (as of 3pm) got up to do the dishes and put laundry away. At least its something. Tmrw Ill make sure to be more productive and get a few more things done. Im feeling way off kilter lately. My routine is all messed up and its really affecting me. Need to find a way to get back at it. I think what it comes down to is ‘choices’. Choosing to make the next right choice and actually doing it. Thats about it for me. Just waiting for hubby now so we can have a really nice supper that hes preparing. Hope everyone is doing well!
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