Huge congratulations on ur 30 days!
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@wakikki OOF ā Iām sorry the anxiety was so intense. Grateful it got better for you.
@Bomdhil How are you doing Thomas? Miss seeing your check inās!
Wow ā what a interesting perspective. Happy hunting as you find that missing tool for your toolbox. Getting closer to the one year milestone as well so that could also be weighing on your mind? I am also looking into new hobbies to see what I might be interested in as I am not stuck in my addictions
@tragicfarinelli So grateful that you are back and feeling better. 
Here to say that the low and negative energy can FRO
@happy_trails 4 weeks is awesome! I can totally understand the sentiment of it going slow yet so fast. Keep doing what you are doing friend ā concentrate on the day on hand and keep stacking up the days!
@pamela Sorry that you were ill with the flu but grateful that it made the start of your sobriety easier. Weekends can be hard but having a plan in place for distractions, keeping busy and non alcoholic beverages and of course staying connected with us here. 
@happyfeet Awe thank you so much friend. You are so sweet. Appreciate your support and love too ā we really do keep each other going 
Thank you for sharing your journey. So true that we canāt ever have that āoneā drink ā that rabbit hole is a soul sucking Bermuda triangle.
@trustybird WHOA ā didnāt realize that you were so close to the year milestone for no smoking! Way cool Emilie! 
Looking forward to celebrating your accomplishment this week. Glad you had a good day!
@anon84358113 omg it is hard when the urges get so strong and you find yourself physically making strides towards getting your DOC ā glad you were able to see through the BS your mind was telling you and stop in time. You should be super proud of yourself ā each day sober is a day won! Remember we are right here if you find yourself having a weak moment
@shawn1991 Congrats on your 1 month of sobriety ā doing a great job on your sober journey as you work through lifeās stresses.
Checking in on Monday nightā¦
404 days of free of alcohol and weed
819 days free of cigarettes
Had a very productive and a mentally happy day. Glad i got to spend time with my mom this evening since we missed our morning coffee.
Have a busy morning tomorrow - hoping to get some sleep tonight so that i will be alert lol.
Wishing everyone a lovely slumber. Sending you all so much love
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My unemployment finally came thru! And just in time since Iām back to work Thursday 
Nah, it was a relief. Got some things paid and shopping done. Usually Iām ready to go back to work by now, but I really donāt want to see my boss. Maybe itāll be better? Iāll try to believe that for now I guess.
Not much energy today. Itās been like this every other day lately. Ready for anything one day, and ready for a nap the next. At least there have been some productive days tho. Didnāt have a big dinner so I need a snack and then winding down for bed. Have a good 24!
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Today I helped break down boxes for my dad. Through this, I learned something about Mr and my recovery.
It started with me asking if I could help him with anything around the house as heās been stressed lately. He gave me the idea of breaking down cardboard boxes to recycle. So I started off by ripping the tape with off the box with my fingers. My dad saw this and suggested that I use a knife. I replied with āno thanksā and he kept persisting. I politely refused but went and got a pair of scissors. The scissors were working but for some reason my dad thought it would be easier if I used a box cutter or a real knife. I said I was fine with the scissors and it was working fine.
What I learned from this experience is that I am protecting myself without even realizing it. Hereās the thing: I cook. I use knives in the kitchen all the time. For some reason this time around, my subconscious was throwing all kinds of warning bells around in my head when my dad asked me if I wanted to use a knife or box cutter. Interestingly enough as safe as I feel around these things my mind was guarding me. One part of my brain-the part that knew it wasnāt good for me- was somehow sending me a message to the other part of my brain that thought it would be perfectly safe. I had conflicting feelings towards using tools that could be harmful to me even though I was actively believing id be ok. Itās amazing that even in what seems like perfectly safe situations, I protected myself from potential harm. Iām not sure what kind of skill or coping mechanism this is but my brain is VERY powerful and complex! Praise God for allowing my brain to keep me safe today 
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Day 13. Broke my previous record by a day.
I can feel this time is different. Iām done.
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Running a bit late so this will have to be short. I had a very nice
ride yesterday. My body feels not that tired now. Happy with that. Ready for my work week which will be two days work followed by two days off followed by a working weekend. Suits me fine. Experience expertise work today. Looking forward to that.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Weāre in this together. One day or 10,000. Love.
@DaleCooper welcome Dale! Congrats on 13 days, and great to have you aboard! The more the stronger we are.
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Day 477
Long day. Got up at 6 and itās now after midnight. .i have tomorrow off work. So I will try to get some rest. .hope yāall are doing well
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Despite the hard times you reached the 30 days milestone, thatās awesome! 
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59 days in the bank
Felt like a bit of a wasted day. Didnāt achieve any of what i wanted to do. Wanted to workout and didnāt and then just procrastinated the rest of the day until it was a rush to get out the house for kids sports this evening.
Not sure what that was about.
want to get out of this funk for tomorrow.
Have a new activity planned for tomorrow so hopefully that will pick up the motivation
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*Day 1959 
Goodmorning, 7:12 here.
Slept bad but had a good day yesterday beside the headache. Went to the triftshop to chill a bit. Found a little wooden doggie to add to my collection. It was 10 eurocent 
I collect those little wooden toys you can move by pushing the ābuttonā beneath.
Today? A walk and work.
Letās stack up another sober/clean day shall we?
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69 no sugar, no binge
25 UPFs
25 dairy
Iām afraid I caught some kind of tummy bug. Iām having a massive headache, feel nauseated and donāt feel well at all. Iāll have to cancel my class today. And everything else I had planned. I hope it doesnāt get worse.
But thatās how life goes. Iām going to have many naps. And this is not going to be an excuse to listen to my addiction and use. There is none.
Wishing you good people a nice, peaceful day of freedom 
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Day 34
Iām still here and still sober. Just been doing a lot of reading rather than posting. Iāve had a few days of such mental fatigue its been a struggle to work, post anything or do much beyond just sitting looking at the computer. Waking up feels like I have been drinking and taken sleeping tablets and my legs are too heavy to lift to walk. It will pass Iām sure and I canāt imagine drinking now will help in any way.
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Day 220!! Working 8_3. Then off to the barbers.
On call on Thursday and may have to work Friday. Alot of folks are off sick so I need to pick bits and bobs of work up
Off to a wedding in a week or soā¦ Being sober will be OK. I can stay in kind of work mode and be social that way
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Back to one week weed free. I havnt had any cravings lately, which is nice but i know they will come back so im trying to be cautious about that. I gambled AGAIN today. Maybe im just going to give up on quitting gambling for now and set a limit or something. I won money today, cashed out, and stopped. So in a way, thats a win, but i know myself. It can be a slippery slope. Ive lost over 12k the last 4 ir 5 years. Ugh. 2001 days alcohol free.
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Good morning guys. Checking in 139 SAF 125 no smokes. Hope you all have a great day 
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Wow gambling can be rough huh
Just to relate to you friend
Weed has always been my doc
The weed pens took the crown
Thsnk god for the past 66 days alls ive done is very little cbd
Also
Cbd is no good for me either
Cbd makes me grumpy and energetic. I dont need any more energy and when i get grumpy i bottle it in
Something i gotta work on because it gets tipsy (pun intended) on alcohol i can be tipped way over though
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Happy to see you again
Im going to p.m. you a quick message
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Good morning everyone!! Checking in on day 60!! I hope everyone has an amazing day!
and 
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236 days gambling freeā¦trying not to forget to keep my guard up, even though I havenāt had urge for a gamble in a long time.
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@anon84358113 So glad you managed to put the brakes on at the last minute!
@DaleCooper Welcome to the forum, hope to see you checking in with two weeks tomorrow!
@IamThechange Congratulations 
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