Oh wow!! Congratulations on baby Archer!!!
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Today has been awful 
My day wasnt going too bad this morning but then i got into it with my brother over the phone about money stuff (he manages my parents finances and does me and my husbands taxes). I feel like when it comes to money, my husband and I are doing much better now, than when we were using. We have paid off credit cards, overdrafts, and havent missed a loan payment to my parents in over a year. Im proud of us! But yet there is always something my brother chooses to bitch about. Anywayā¦ i am exhausted and stressed and sad. I emotionally ate by overeating on supper. And now i feel shitty about that. I havent felt this angry in quite some time. Im not an angry person and so being like this is really upsetting for me. I just feel like my family doesnt think we are managing our finances well enough. Like we have to be like them and follow my brothers accounting advice. Grrrrr. Money stuff stresses me out. Sometimes i just wish I could escape for abit and not think of anything or deal with anything or do anything. Just for like a week. But that wont happen so i have to do my best to manage things as they come up. I just had did some self care. Will try and unwind a bit before bed. I spoke to my husband about this also and that helped. Hopefully tmrw will be better. I. Have 2 errands to run tmrw and the gym. Thats about it. Goodnight!
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This has been a boring week. No money, so thereās really not much to do. We went to the exotic pet store today just to look around! Free mini zoo 
My next check is already gone. Doing my taxes canāt come soon enough (luckily itās next Tues 
). Hopefully this work week is fruitful cash wise. I could really use something extra. Other than that, just chillin, waiting for warmer weather. Work in the am so early to bed. Stay the course everyone 
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Checking in on day 10 alcohol free.
Last weekend I was distracted with a toothache so I didnāt think about wanting to drink too much. Iām interested to see how I feel this weekend. The apartment could use a good cleaning and that is definitely a trigger. For some reason I always loved to have a project of some kind when I drank. Going into autopilot mode and cleaning, organizing, or cooking was the only way I could seem to be productive. And honestly I looked forward to it. It was a great justification to use. Unfortunately the buzz usually would turn into a black out and then passing out. I would just waste away most of my weekend sleeping. Iām feeling confident that I will be able to challenge my cravings. I just keep telling myself I want to actually enjoy my weekend and not spend it sleeping and sick.
Have a great night everyone.
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Congratulations 
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Had to throw an aggressive patient out yesterday from the detox I work. Second one this week. Just sad all around really. Changing your ways is hard work and everybody should get many chances but safety come first for both patients and staff.
It makes for tiring workdays although I learned much better how to deal with situations like this in the last 20 months. I no longer reacted totally primal, which for me meant mostly to freeze. I did some emdr on a previous situation which helped. And I grew as a person, worked on my personality traits that made it so hard for me to interact and react adequately.
Gains! And now the last day of my workweek is coming up. I can do with some down time. And I will. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love. Pic is from Idaho in 2017, driving from West Yellowstone to McKay ID through some of the craziest weather I ever saw. Epic ride 
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@Noshame Huge congrats to Archer and mum and you friend! 
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68 days in the bank
Got to the gym this morning.
Then home had to clean and do some laundry today. @KrissyMae I know what you mean about having a few drinks, this used to be my habit too, having a few drinks while cleaning, cooking etc. Then carry on into the evening. Drinking did cross my mind a couple times today while at home but not in a meaningful way that I was in danger of picking up.
Breaking habits is what its about for me.
Congratulations @Noshame a new and great chapter in your life.
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@Noshame Congratulations on the new baby! 
@Butterflymoonwoman aww Iām sorry that he ruined your afternoon 
you are doing great! Itās not up to him to pay your bills or take care of you and your family, so I think he should keep his opinion to himself. Also, great job paying off credit cards! Itās hard to do that! I know from experience. Sending you a big hug 
@Juli1 congratulations on day 8 love you lady !
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Another day coming to a close. Iām ready for day 500 to come and go. I think Iāve been in a funk because this milestone is getting closerā¦
Work was ok. But just not feeling super positive. Iāve been cranky and kinda short with people. I think I need to make another therapy appointmentā¦
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@Twizzlers Thank you 
@CATMANCAM It went ok, I will try a few more. But I dont know if this is for me. I dont have spesific episodes that makes me full of anxiety and stress, so I dont see how I can work this way to get better 
@JazzyS I hope too, Im really tired lately
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Checking in day 37. Busy and productive day. Helping a friend get through a tough situation and supported her through a court hearing today and thankfully it went well. I wish everyone peaceful and healthy day/night.
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78 no sugar, no binge
34 UPFs
0 overeating
Iām adding a new counter for overeating. The last few days I found myself slipping into overeating mode from the afternoon on. In the evening Iām stuffed and donāt feel good. Iām having trouble sleeping, and I wake up unwell. This is affecting my life in a way I donāt like. Overeating means for now: starting eating although I am physically full, or keeping eating although Iāve felt obvious satiety signals. Letās see how this goes.
Today Iām hoping for a distraction free morning, so I can concentrate on my project. My emotions have been very intense and all over the place the last couple of days, so Iām going for more mindfulness and self care today. I donāt need to act out on these intense situations.
Wishing you great people here peace, light, and freedom 
Keep going!
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Welcome to the world little Archer 
And congratulations with your new job Matt: being the best dad you can be! 
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Congratulations! Look after your new little family mate and donāt worry about the lack of sleepā¦ you get it backā¦ eventually. Plus 4 hoursā sober sleep beats 10 hoursā passed out every time
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Up early on a PARTICULARLY rainy day in London and off to an industry conference. I used to look forward to the free wine at lunchtime and then, honestly, skip the afternoon session and head to the pub with likeminded folk. I would have been looking forward to doing that all week whilst probably nursing the weekend hangover.
Today the first time I thought about alcohol was when I came to post here. Sobriety is now a strong preference for me most of the time, and Iām happy.
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Congratulations. What wonderful news to wake up to!
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Congratulations thatās so exciting, I remember how it was. Wishing you a wonderful getting to know period.
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Congratulations 
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Day 9 - checking in sober from alcohol
Yesterday I learned about tool chain, one can use at different levels of cravings. I will write my tools down and create a emergency pass for myself I can carry around with a tool chain, my reasons and so on.
I was at a meeting (online) of RR and I learned again about including all feelings, the good and the bad ones on the buddhist path and practice.
Have a good sober day!
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Hope to see a Day 1.28 at you check in tomorrow.
We all can take a drink somewhere (like after gym), glad you decide you are ready for take off to the other side 
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