*Day 1968
1968 days, the same numbers as my birthmark year. A bit weird.
Slept bad and still having a headache. It’s affecting my mood. Have to work at 13.00 so decided to go for a walk outside before that. Maybe nature will help
Had a dinner because of my birthday yesterday.
7 years ago I had a birthday dinner with my family as well. It was the start of my relapse
I felt it coming. I was romaticizing the drinking and thought I was cured after 5 years of sobriaty.
Well I was not ofcourse. I learned it the hard way.
Back on track and grateful for that!
But never gonna forget that dinner in that Mexican restaurant. I really thought I was cured and fine
Untill I wasn’t.
Morning all, checking in on Day 2. I have a cold which is annoying, but meant I was able to put a stop to the nightly drinking so not all bad. I have had to pull out of some site visits this morning though which I was looking forward to. I have a massive backlog of work so hopefully can make a dent.
So pleased to be back. Thank you all for being here.
Good morning check in days and nights seem to blurry into one another, I know it’s not Gona be easy but I’m trying to just concentrate on getting thru til dark, then once dark I concentrate getting thru to dawn. Have a blessed day.
Congratulations on the arrival of your beautiful baby boy Archer. Wishing for good health for baby and mum and love and all the best wishes to you and your little family.
Enjoy the new chapter in life wholeheartedly.
Im glad you’ve decided to stick around. I like your style, it’s so recognisably you
I wanted to be a truckdriver when I was around 12 yo. I hated church life and thought driving a truck could be the way out
Morning all! Having a very frustrating morning. Going to hit the 4th meeting this week. I always feel so much better after it! Today marks 136 days for me. Hope you all have a good day!
I am doing alright. Yesterday was hard emotionally throughout the day because I felt so down from acting out in the morning Yesterday. I have that pit in my stomach feeling still and my response is to usually cover that up with more pornography and masturbation. But I need to remain with peace and serenity and surrender all the temptation. I feel good having one day under my belt and I need to just take it one day at a time. There are so many things I wish to improve upon myself but this addiction is the one thing I feel I really need to focus on. If I just try to focus on only one thing at a time. One new habit at a time that seems less daunting.
I need to just let time take its course and let my emotinal state regulate back to normal and keep moving towards progressive victory over lust.
Day 3.5.
Had a good cry with my alcohol counsellor today. She definitely hit a nerve about me feeling stupid and worthless and I just couldn’t stop it.
Won’t be starting relapse prevention medication for another 2 weeks and they’re a little concerned that I’m still in quite severe withdrawal, so I’ve been advised to go back to hospital if I can’t cope with it.
Just a meh day all round today
Day 86 good morning sober fam. At work doing a quick check in. Work was good yesterday, walked around a little and did more computer training, same this morning with watching movies. Very serious here about chemo spills, radiation, knowing signs and just a bunch of stuff. But fun none the less. I love the professionalism here. Got my girls insurance set up yesterday, so I’m proud for them and was able to get a life insurance set up and set them as the beneficiarys. The benefits and bonuses here are crazy. I’ll get a raise in May and June, after one year I go up in steps. And there are 20 steps and I started out at step 4. 1000 dollar bonus for not calling in a year, room for overtime and I’ll make my time in a half pay plus a extra 10 dollars a hour. It just seems unreal I’m very happy and excited to be here much love everyone
Really struggling today. Not with temptation of drinking, but just wondering why my usual non hungover body doesn’t have the energy I usually have. As well as a headache which I never get.
Just not feeling my usual upbeat, energetic self that always happens after 2,3,4 days of not drinking. I had it for the first while, but past week it’s been MIA. Not really digging it.
Not looking to whine, just confused as to the promises (not from anyone here, more the vids I watched on quitting) of my mental clarity, energy levels, unbound youthful enthusiasm (okay, I may have made that last one up, though I’ve been accused many times before when I’m sober).
I just hope that this isn’t the way it goes as it’s just way out of my normal personality.
Day 34 AF and not digging things a lot this week other than lack of hangover.
@krissymae Congrats on your double digits! I totally understand that correlation between drinking and just about any productive activity. I was the same. I had to change things up and clean at a different time and broke it up so I wouldn’t do any activity all at once if that made sense. Whatever way to re-train my brain that I could get stuff done without drinking. Turned out I got more done and yeah the bonus was I wasn’t trying to sleep one off. Wishing you luck with the upcoming weekend. We will be right here cheering you on!
Sometimes that is all we can do and that is ok. Just know you are staying strong and protecting your sobriety. It will get easier. @residentevil CONGRATS and YEAH YOU for sure! Glad to see you checking in with pride – keep that momentum alive @doreen1 Big hugs love – I do hope the meeting helps. 136 days is amazing work and you should be proud. Reach out here or to someone in real life if you need to talk. Sending you strength to keep pushing forward @mischa84 Grateful to hear that you and the boys are starting to feel better such great news! Grateful for a healthy immune system @lile01 I know it feels meh but I think you are doing amazingly well in taking steps towards your recovery. Great advice on seeking help if you find your withdrawals too much to cope with (everyone’s body is different and you don’t want to stress it out too much in trying to kick the addiction). 3.5 days love – that is something to be proud of! Much love Indi @chevy55 you are doing really well with sobriety and healthy living Nick – 34 days is great work. I do know that there are lulls of energy and sleep. Not sure why they pop up at different times. I have read studies that our fat cells hold a lot of toxins from our alcohol and even though we are way past our withdrawal period , as we progress in recovery and get healthier the fat cells dissolve and our bodies get lethargic as the toxins are released. From years of abuse our body is finding ways to heal slowly and in stages. Each day sober is allowing your body and mind the time and tools it needs to get healthier. I know it sucks as I too wanted to be full of energy and lose weight and feel all the benefits of being sober and questioned why it was not happening for me like I had imagined. Give it time my friend – I do believe a lot of work is being done behind the scenes. Sending you energy and strength :hugs
Checking in on Thursday morning…
Been a weird morning - woke up at 6 and then had to lay down at 7:30 cause i felt dizzy. Ended up sleeping for 1.5 hrs and had a really crazy dream. Woke up to the results of my MRI which were great - everything is normal. Doesn’t explain my headaches and dizzy spells but i am relieved that everything is ok. Glad i was able to still get some coffee time with mom. Have a few things to get done today - will try to take it easy as i am not as energized today. Had a want to add something to my coffee this morning but nah - we don’t do that anymore - the coffee is perfect and soothing just the way it is.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day. Sending you all so much love.
Day 41. I am having a hard time utilizing gratitude. My current life situation is hard. I just wanted to lay it out there. Currently, I have no way to settle myself and find ways out of these big things. I spend a lot of time thinking through, “What will happen when…?”
I stay sober regardless of it. I plan to leave that in place.
day 211.
Going to hit the 4th meeting this week. I always feel so much better after it! Today marks 136 days for me. Hope you all have a good day!
