Day 725
It feels like Im experiencing an emotional hangover due to yesterdays argument with my brother and just having general stress. Im out running errands right now and just trying to slow down and relax while i walk around. I dont know what im really feeling. Some worry and anxiety, maybe some concern. I definitly dont feel at peace. So i will need to try and ground myself today. Thats about it. I hope everyone enjoys their day! 
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Having a much better day today, despite no sleep again last night, but no headache! And I have appetite and energy! And after a gloomy grey drizzly morning the sun JUST came out in time to walk the dog! Good deal. Iām catching up on my housework and enjoying getting things done. Especially the random things that have been piling up, odds and ends like making arrangements to return things I bought online (ughhhh need to give it up and just go shopping tomorrow) and getting my tax paperwork in order. After my walk, I will take a much needed shower and take a nap with the fresh linens I put on the bed. These are the especially satisfying days that sobriety has allowed me to experience more often with no need for ālaundry wineā or a glass or three while cooking dinner. Iām so grateful. Proud of myself, too. Sending out sober love and strength today, amix/friends.
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Thank you Jasmine, I appreciate your thoughtfulness and time to reach out. Itās very appreciated.
Perhaps so, we will ride er out and see what comes of it on the other side.
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Thank you Rosa, I appreciate the link and info. That may just be the issue, not sure but it definitely seems plausible.
Appreciate you taking the time to respond and find those links as it was definitely a good read.
Iāll just keep on keeping on and see what comes of it.
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Well I certainly have an abundance of fat cells, that is for certain 
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Iām glad you took a look. Hang in there! It does get easier!
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Checking in day 38 AF 
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This Community has helped me immensely. I think you may find some relief if you stick around!!
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17 days weed free. 2011 days alcohol free
Im feeling really scared today.
My ultimate weakness is animals. Especially cats. We heard this cat crying outside our house and gave it some food and water and now its living in our garage. It lets you pet it and pick it up. Lays on your lap. But i havnt been able to take it to the vet.
Well last night it was on my lap and i was petting its little back feet and checking it over and it gave me a little love bite, didnt break the skin, but now im horrified that i could have rabies. Why did i not think of rabies before i started handling the damn cat? It eats and drinks water snd its been in our garage since the 4th. Idk if i should go get rsbies shots or just wait the recommended 10 days to see if the cat is still alive after that. It sneezes sometimes but other than that seems like a normal cat. It makes biscuits and purs and wants attention. Uses the litter box and grooms itself like a normal cat. Ugh, then wen i look up rabies online it says you will 100% die if not treated. And in ave horrible health anxietty. But i also cant afford another ER bill unless ABSOLUTELY necessary. My only worry today is that it didnt touch its food like it usually does when i go check on it every morningā¦ maybe itās just finally getting enough nutrition now. Idfk.
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Thanks! Meetings always help. 
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43 days free of alcohol
37 days free of THC
Feel a little better today and am upping my time spent doing recovery activities to bolster myself after this emotional roller coaster week. I have another interview today, I am so grateful as Iāve had more activity this week than in the last 5 months! And, I see why folks say donāt make any major changes in early sobriety, it is exhausting enough just not drinking and adjusting to sobriety and then also all these interviews! But Iām in the boat now gotta keep rowing 
@Chevy55 i relate to the low energy and headaches plague me as well, I had one yesterday and itās sticking around today too. @JazzyS bad news about those fat cells releasing toxins 
ooofā¦. I feel like I should be losing more weight after working out almost every day, I always want everything to happen immediately (43 days sober vs 20 years drinkingā¦ 
calm down Lauren!! 
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Grateful for you sober fam! 
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Day 669 AF
How difficult are those days when crossing paths with people you have wronged when in active addiction.
The inmediate feeling is to want to hide yet I briefly said hello today, and have taken a bit of the anxiety with me, but as it all is, one day at a time should make it better.
Good day everyone
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Day 4 has been difficult but havenāt had the urge to drink.
Went to the opticians today, and have had an urgent referral to the hospital because they had concerns about my optical nerve.
Also was happy because i worked 2 shifts this week so had an extra bit of money, but had spent Ā£100 in the opticians so almost back to square one.
It is what it is. On the bright side, my partner is cooking tea for me on Sunday which is something nice to look forward to 
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Day 31 AF
149 doc
0 ciggarettes
Hey Talking Sober family. Checking in. Feeling a little numb. Yet hopeful. I trust that all will work out if I remain sober/clean. In a valley but can see the light.
Signing papers for debt consolidation on Monday. Starting overā¦educating myself and disciplined to ensure I donāt get into this situation again. Not all on me my ex has a lot to do with my debt and loss of car yet I am in charge of me and my choices. I choose not to be a victim anymore. I am a survivor. I will survive this and come out stronger in the long run.
Hope everyone has a Strong and Serene 24! 
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Day 67 AF check-in 
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Nice to see you back Jenny
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Checking in on day 43 AF, thanks for being here sober community!
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@steve92 Ah man I would have a healthy fear as well. Could you go to urgent care instead of the ER? I donāt know much about if a scratch that does not break skin is problematic but it is better to be safe than sorry. Maybe some other members have a better understanding. Hoping you are well and this is nothing to worry about.
@catmama23 Fingers crossed ā hope all went well with your interview today. I hear ya on wanting immediate results ā I am the same way and working on finding
I Love this Des! Good for you ā taking back control over your life ā things are clearer and easier (even when they are harder) in sobriety. Keep on surviving my friend 
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Iām hurting inside. My friend and I were supposed to get together. Unfortunately she did not respond the night before we had plans and then all morning the day of. I thought she had ghosted me. I thought I lost yet another friend. Hours later I received a message from her. She self harmed dangerously deep and was in the hospital. I felt for her in that moment. Iād been there many many many times and i have an idea of the emotional pain she is feeling rn. This makes my natural instinct to help kick in. I have been messaging her full of love and support. I really hope she knows just how much I care about her. Iām hurting inside bc as much as Iām proud of being in recovery and being sober, a twinge of me feels like somethings missing. Like i miss the experience and the feeling it gives me. When my friend told me what happened I instantly pictured myself doing the very same thingā¦ 
Ugh.
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Thank you Jasmine. Your statement of things are clearer and easier even when they are harder ā¦in soberity ā¦this right here! You and others on this platform and in the rooms show how it is done. So grateful for the hope shots.
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